TODAY WAS SO EMBARRASSING ALSJAALSJA

First of all, art was great because I got to continue my painting on the wall, and I got a lot of green on my hands so I made shrek jokes all day and talked about how I was transforming into him

But then we had band practice...

Mal and I used a keyboard but Mal left to sing with P, so I sat there all alone and I had to learn the chords on my own

But i couldn't do it

So H (one of the only nice guys in my class) was using a keyboard next to me and saw that I was struggling, so he came over to help

ICANTBREATHELXHAKSHAOX

He showed me the chords, and when I tried to do them afterwards, he just gently grabbed my fingers and guided them to the keys

And when I got it right, he smiled and said "there you go!"

Throughout the rest of the hour, he kept looking over at me to make sure I was doing ok, and when he saw I was actually doing fine, he would clap and smile

HE HAD TO COME OVER AT LEAST THREE TIMES TO HELP ME ALSHALSHALX

IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING :(

IT DIDN'T HELP THAT MY EX WAS SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME AND WE KEPT HAVING AWKWARD EYE CONTACT

I didn't have the guts to look up when H was helping me T_T I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE OF ALL THE BLOOD RUSHING TO MY FACE

I wonder what he thought when he saw my green fingers-

AND THEN

after we were finished, P came over to hug me to comfort me and told me that I did a good job, and he went in for a hug but my mind didn't process that so I bent over and covered my face-

But then I realized what I had done and stood back up to hug him, and I managed to get my hand tangled up in his shirt/jacket, and my ex walked up next to us and I thought I was going to die-

Haha I'm gonna go crawl under a rock and die now :)