We had a presentation in English about Jack the Ripper

And I thought I was gonna die-

I figured that if I was gonna get over my fear of presentations, it'd be great to practice in the English class since I'm way more comfortable speaking English than Norwegian

I THOUGHT MY HEART WAS GONNA BEAT OUT OF MY CHEST

I couldn't stop shaking ;; My hands are still shaking, and when I stood up after, my legs were shaking and I was really lightheaded and I thought I was gonna faint T_T I had to hold onto Mal when I walked T_T

I mean, at least I spoke...

BUT I STARTED GOING FASTER AND FASTER

AND IT WAS TOO LATE TO STOP MYSELF

AND I SPOKE WAY TOO FAST

BUT IF I STOPPED, I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO START TALKING AGAIN

SO I KEPT GOING

WAY TOO FAST

AND I STARTED STUTTERING

"K-K-KELLY" (one of Jack the Ripper's victims)

I'm gonna go crawl in a hole and die now

I'm sure I looked like a tomato

I probably still do

I felt a little better when my friends and the English teacher comforted me ;; At least I have the best English (since I'm American lmao) so there was nothing wrong with my speech, BUT I SPOKE WAY TO FAST ALSJALSJAOSJXN

The "K-K-Kelly" keeps replaying in my mind and I want to throw myself off a cliff

WHAT IF WE GET GRADED FOR THIS?? AND I DON'T GET A PERFECT GRADE BECAUSE I SPOKE TOO FAST????

Istg if that happens I will hate myself for that for the rest of my life