self-perception

How do people perceive me?
My self-perception is simple yet complex.
I am kind but I can be cold and insensitive.
I care but I can care too much.
I am aware of my surroundings,
Yet I can be clueless about what is going on around me.
I am very observant.
Of the way people act, talk, or react.
Their body language is readable.
It is very hard for me to accept a compliment,
It isn't that I'm trying to turn down a compliment,
I just...don't know how to react when given a compliment.
I don't see what others see.
I think negatively of myself.
I don't view myself nor my body in a positive light.
I flinch at loud sounds.
Loud sounds make me react poorly considering...they have a negative tie to them.
I tend to react in a fly or fight response,
Typically flight.
When I get touched by strangers,
I clench my fists and react in fight response.
I don't punch anyone but I will fight if I have to.
I speak too ballsy sometimes,
I speak with no filter.
I don't care what others think of me.
Yet.
I do at situational times.
I have a hard shell...
Yet words get to me.
I have a strong mental state,
Yet I can fall a p a r t.
I am a complex fragment of a being.
It is astonishing that people like me,
Or in other matters, love me.
How do you perceive me?
I want to know.
I am very curious,
How you view,
A being like me.

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