I ruin everything I touch

I ruin everything I touch,
I try so hard to protect another person's emotions,
Put others first over myself,
Put my emotions in a chest for no one to find.
Put my heart away,
And leave my brain to think rational thoughts.
I ruin everything I touch,
I break hearts ever so easily,
Intentionally and unintentionally, of course.
I don't mean to...
I really don't.
I don't really like hurting others,
It hurts me in some way.
Unless I truly meant to hurt another.
I ruin everything I touch,
My touch causes hearts to shatter and hands to go cold.
My touch ruins breathing and make lumps from in one's throats.
My touch– is something I hate.
But my touch,
Has also ruined me.

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