drowner

I feel so utterly alone, regardless if I have people surrounding me who love me and who care for me. I feel like I am still drowning. I feel like I am being weighed down by an anchor and I can barely swim up for air. As darkness consumes me, I can't even reach out or scream for help. It only makes things worse. I am trapped by depression, anxiety, and insomnia. They have their arms around me and they play me like their favorite game. I am lost right now and I'm too tired to escape. I'm just here at this point and at the most, I can do– is save others and make sure that they are okay and cared for. That is what I'm here for at this point.

If it means for you to breathe, then I'll keep drowning.

a.b.