anxiety: a thought

They aren't talking to you, they hate you.
They aren't speaking loudly, they are talking about you.
They are looking at you, they are judging you.
They are watching you, waiting for you to fuck up.
Look away,
Close your eyes,
Cover your head.
Shield yourself from the cruel world.
Do NOT speak.
If you speak, then you will be judged.
If you walk the wrong way, you will be laughed at.
If you breathe, they will hate you.
They will always hate you.
You will never be liked.
You shouldn't breathe.
You should just do them a favor and die already.
You're worthless.
You will never get far in life.
You're going to drown.
You're nothing.
They are right about you.
You can't do anything right.
You are just another pitiful human.

These are thoughts that eat at me all day. One leads into another and often, I drown within myself and my thoughts. It is a domino effect of thoughts. Anxious thoughts.

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