It was a really cold night. Last night, Tsu'tey was out all throughout. Why? He was thinking. That's the most he had told me.

I picked at my fingernails until they were raw and open sores. He still isn't back and Jake is handling the clan in his stead. Mo'at isn't concerned, however, I am. How could he walk off like that. I had sent Txan'aritx out to patrol the area since I didn't have eyes out there, I only had Mehutral.

And here in Mehutral, Tsu'tey was alone.

----------Tsu'tey's Point of View----------

I can't be a father. I'm not ready. She can't expect me to be. I'm just like my parents, I'll see too much of myself in them and burden their lives. Or I'll have them under my thumb and make all their choices for them. Or something!

I curled up into a ball of insecurity all alone in the branches of Mehutral. All of my insecurities are clawing their way out and I can't let my Tanhì see me this way. She's mine and I know this, I know she has insecurities too, but I never thought I'd live to become Olo'eyktan, or be mated with a skyperson, or children! I've never thought about it. I was so certain that I'd die and I never had time to think.

"Child, why are you anxious? Your mate, my daughter waits for you." Mo'at laid a hand on my shoulder. It had been long before she saw me like this. I glanced up at her, "I take it, she asked a father of you?" Her speech was a lot like the elders now that she spent her days with them.

"Yes Tsahik, I cannot be a father to our children, Heyla and I. She expects it from me but I don't know if I'm ready." I looked at her, defeatedly.

"Tsu'tey, I know this is because of your family, not only that but your temper. You must calm down and think clearly. Wait for Eywa to come to you. She has come to her already." She stated with a smile, "I shall... retire soon." Mo'at said plainly. She picked up a lot of English from Grace while meditating. They've been friends for a long time and now they talk endlessly. She walked off, leaving my alone with my thoughts.

----------Our Point of View----------

I spent my day weaving, making dye, harvesting. I kept myself busy so that the anxiety didn't show. But it wasn't enough.

Norm is always and has always been there for me, we're good friends. Since the academy, since the war, since what feels like forever. I was surprised to find him alone today. He was on a branch looking out at Pandora, the world we trespassed upon and made it our home.

"Lehela, What's up?" He asked. He was leaned back upon his arms, and he was just soaking in the sun.

"Is it okay if I vent? I've been having some anxiety." I respond with less than enthusiasm.

"What's bothering you?" I sit next to my old friend, "If Tsu'tey is bothering you I'm go-"

"No no no, well yes, but it's not really about him." I cut Norm's threat of before he finishes his thought, "I- well, I want a child with him, but he's scared. I know it's his family and all that, I can't help that, but I still want one. And he has been distant all day." I pick at the dirt sticking to my heels.

"I can't really help you with that, but try not to worry so much. You can always meet with max if you have fertility questions, he does have a xenobiology degree for a reason, And I'm sure Tsu'tey will come around to the idea." He paused briefly, "I'm having my own troubles. Trudy isn't doing so great. Max is running out of medical supplies and the only way to ensure her survival is a transfer. Mo'at told me it can be done on a recently dead body or an abandoned avatar body. and there are a few of those. but finding one which matches her is next to impossible. It is impossible." He dips his head in sorrow and confusion.

"It's true that the transfer needs someone, a volunteer or a recently dead person, but it doesn't have to match. Eywa is mysterious in this way, but... I can't say she'll survive for sure. Grace went and she had a matching avatar body and everything." I put a hand on his shoulder, "She'll be fine Norm." I had gotten up to leave. A grim feeling fills my chest, Saeyla, if she catches wind of this, she'll try and volunteer for this. She's stubborn and quick to judge. There would be no changing her mind. She's my friend and so is Norm. But I don't want to loose either. Trudy's death would lead to Norm grieving for a long time, and Saeyla's sacrifice would mean her departure from the physical world. She'll never truly belong to him that way. If Norm chooses wrong, he could ruin his or someone else's life.

I glanced back at Norm and returned to the common area near the food pit where I found Tsu'tey. I quickly rambled to him that we needed to speak privately.

"Tsu'tey... Trudy is dying." He looked at me with a puzzled look, "Trudy is Norm's partner. But Saeyla- The point is is that someone is going to get hurt if Norm is calling the shots, if he comes to talk to you, please be careful what you say." I finish with an exasperated huff. He nodded quickly with a nervous and confused look.

"Tanhì, I thought about what you asked and said. I need time to prepare myself, but we may start trying when you want to." He stated slowly and carefully choosing his words carefully. I smiled at him gratefully, I pulled him into my grasp and squeezed him tightly.

"Thank you!" I was excited, I've always wanted children but never had time before now. I know we have a lot happening all at once, but this is the best thing to happen all day.

Okay, so tis I, the author. I have a lot of events planned. Norm's choice, Tsu'tey and learning how to accept parenthood, Lehela and letting her students go and gaining new students, Saeyla, Max, the transfer of Aaron, Katherine, Elaine, Samantha and Norm. And I think thats all of them before the finale, so expect a long third part.