"It's a lonely world of lies."

"Suicidal"
06, June 2015
12:17 Pm. Saturday

I utter no words, but long heave of silence
Trying to put myself up in nothingness,
I try to remove all my doubts, still hopeless
Maybe I'll always end up wandering in these endless maze.

I clearly remember how gloomy that night
Where there's only darkness, no trace of sunlight.
I've been dealing these circle of indefinite fight
And all I can do that moment, Is to embrace myself tight.

Agony pours my chest, spilling fears in mind.
Searching something that's impossible to find.
How can I heal? If there's no one at my side,
And how can I save myself? From these imperil lifetime ride.

It's just like, an ideal hole in my heart
Where perfect couple destined to be appart.
Lies are infront and truth always left behind
And how can I really solve, escape in these terrible bind?

I can clearly hear that trembling thunder splash
People blinded, sprinkling, enticing cash.
I'm also prisoned, locked in these creepy stash
And all I can remember, is the painting of pain that last.

I wonder, if there's really hope in blackhole
How really dreams fly? Making people stand tall.
Striving to pursue but in the end they crawl
And all of us end up waiting and waiting on heaven's call.

I've been watching that sharpen alluring blade
To end the tragedy in my somber cage.
Excruciating, blood dripped in tangled haze
I'm not forcing you to understand 'cause you're not in my case.