A X E L

I was so sure when Miller asked me for the last time if I could do it. What's there to be afraid of anyway? I've had his finger inside me countless times. I am basically shameless now. Yet, the ambrosia itself is what's making things difficult for me. Carlos was not lying that the oil makes you feel some things, but on a lighter scale (for now). So far, I can feel a slight heat, just as hot as a phone's charger. Pretty minimal for a vampire. I can barely feel it.

Pero unti-unti ko na rin naiintindihan kung ano ang maaari pa nitong iparamdam sa katawan ko as the process continues.

"Kumusta?" tanong sa akin ni Miller. He does it from time to time.

His fingers are still inside. I can feel them hitting my prostate several times but most of the times he's massaging the other side of the wall. I think he's doing good, considering that finishing off is not the goal here, and neither is feeling good.

"Hmm... It- It's just normal. I can feel a slight warmth," I replied.

"Great. Tell me if you're about to come so I can adjust and slow down."

It has just been 30 minutes since we started. There are times that I feel close to finishing but Miller would slow down every time. He must have felt the slight convulsion and tightening of my buttocks.

He always knows how to read me in bed. We love feeling good, and we flirt with each other almost each time we find the perfect mood and situation no matter the place and time. Who could have thought that our expertise in this field, driven by love and lust, can be useful in an important situation like this?

"I'm sorry," I uttered.

"Bakit ka nagso-sorry?" Miller wondered

While thinking of the time that we had in our home, I suddenly remembered that I promised him peace. It is the reason why I persuaded him to open his bar. Hindi man ito ang host club na dati niyang pinagtatrabahuhan, when I watch him doing his job; making drinks, serving food, and having a small chat, I can see that he was enjoying it. He was finally in his comfort zone, yet I took him away from it to come into an unknown mountain forest to meet the beast men. And now, he has to insert his fingers in my buttocks for two weeks straight.

How horrible is that?

I wish he didn't think of this as horrible.

I replied. "You were having fun in the bar, weren't you?"

"I did. But you don't have to be sorry for that."

"Oh... Ngh... Mnn..." I have to slightly bite my lips to prevent myself from moaning loud when he hits a sensitive zone inside. "You look very reluctant—ah! I'm being selfish...haa..." I continued.

"Selfish? You are not doing this for yourself, Axel. Ginagawa mo 'to para sa ating dalawa. I also want this. You don't have to feel guilty or anything."

"Yes... haa... Mn—Thank you..."

His words are very gentle. Although I still feel a little guilty, the way his voice sounds so reassuring.

I wonder what face he is making right now? I cannot see anything because of the veil the youngsters put on me. Kanina pa ito at ni isang beses ay hindi ko ito tinanggal even when I was alone in the living room earlier.

They said it was to hide my face to Miller. Yes. I know. I kind of get its purpose since it's a veil. But then when I asked why I should hide my face, they said it will help us to hold back. We are forbidden to have s*x until the process is over.

I know, such a bummer.

They said the intercourse will soil the ongoing formation of the new reproductive system. Once formed, it will still be fragile, that's why it will need more ambrosia.

Wala namang problema sa akin 'yun. I can hold back without the veil since my future child's life depends on this process, but they insisted on following the customs. Ngunit dahil sa hindi ko nakikita ang mukha ni Miller hindi pa rin maiwasan na kabahan ako.

Also, my suppressed moans are all over the room so having a conversation can help me distract. Kahit na panay ungol pa rin ako habang nagsasalita.

"This is mnn... nice!" I almost screamed when Miller stroked another sensitive spot.

"Yeah. I can feel every inch of you. Bakit hindi natin 'to ginawa? You know, the slow motion fingeri—"

"Not that... ahn!"

I wanted to kick him but my body's too weak from pleasure to do so. Ano ba ang nasa isip niya para sabihin 'yun?

"Hah? Eh, ano pala?"

"I was referring—hmn... I was referring to the conversation... I-Idiot."

I heard him scoff as he said, "Sorry, sorry. Mali pala ako... Does it help you calm down?"

"Yes," I nodded.

"I'm glad to hear that. So, what else do you want to talk about?"

And that's how we began our conversation about random topics. We even talked about how he learned a few techniques in massaging my inside from an old woman named Hymenaeus. Then, I talked about what I was doing while he was in her house. And it was basically close to nothing.

Nasa bahay lang ako ni Carlos at binisita ang libingan ng tatay niya na nasa likod-bahay lang din nila. His wife, Sabina, also entertained me with their children's baby photos na mas pina-inggit lang ako. But I got the feeling that she deliberately did that to inspire me. Because, for real, it really did inspire and empowered me to do good in this body modification process.

After the first session, Miller and I simply slept in the room. He made sure that I drank the juice that they prepare along the ambrosia to make me feel numb. This way, it won't make me feel any pain because I was not able to have my release. Besides, it helped me sleep even if the moon's still high up.

At kinaumagahan, we woke up like nothing happened. The house prepared a meal, and after the breakfast we went to the farm to lend a helping hand.

"Woah. Wala talaga silang mammal dito," bulong ni Miller sa akin.

"Yeah."

Ito rin ang unang beses ko na mabisita ang village ng mga beast men. I did not have a reason to visit before so I did not even bother.

They have crabs on their farm. There's a pond that I bet different kinds of fish are swimming beneath and there's several types of domestic birds. Chicken, turkey, geese, and more other feathery animals. Sa hindi kalayuan naman ay natatanaw ang ekta-ektaryang lupain na pansakahan. From here, I can see corn crops and I bet the other green crops are for consumption as well.

"Is everything all right?"

I almost jumped when Miller suddenly reached for my waist. Akala ko kung sino.

"Yes. Everything is alright."

"Wala ka bang nararamdaman na kakaiba?"

"Nothing. It's still the first day after all. Don't worry too much." Isinandal ko sa balikat niya ang ulo ko. He kissed my head as a response.

We stayed in that position for at least 30 minutes before Carlos called us to taste some of his wife's cooking. Dahil sa saglit na katahimikan at magandang tanawin ay nakalimutan namin ni Miller na nandito pala kami sa farm para tumulong.

Miller and I basically did almost the same routine for the first three days with the beast men. Kung hindi kami tumutulong sa farm ay nasa kusina naman kami. Since Miller's good at cooking, he helps Sabina with the meals while I assist him.

"Uhm, Axel? Mali atang hugis 'yan."

Oops.

I might not be the best assistant but look, I am trying my best to help here.

"Huh? Why? Isn't it just the same? They are still potatoes."

Nagluluto kami ng ginisang gulay. I know how to slice vegetables. I know how to slice in general. To wield a sharp object is just a piece of cake. I also helped Miller in the kitchen several times already so I have very little experience.

"Ah-haha. They are. Pero 'yung presentation kasi. Pahaba ang bean sprouts so it's better if we slice the other ingredients the same way."

"Uhm..." I didn't know that there's such a rule in the kitchen.

So, what should I do with these now? I diced the potatoes because that's how he usually sliced it. I just did what he always does.

"Should I... Should I slice it vertically?"

Mukhang panggulo na ata ako rito. I honestly starting to feel bad when Miller responded kindly.

Miller chuckled as he patted my head. "There's no need. Tama ka, patatas pa rin naman 'yan." He told me before gently grabbing the plate with the diced potato and poured them on the pan.

Napakapit na lang ako sa ulo kong hinawakan niya.

To be frank, I don't eat human food unless Miller cooks it. Luto niya lang ang na-eenjoy ko at pinagkakatiwalaan ko. He's a total package, even when he's a human or a vampire.

After dinner, some villagers visit Carlos' residence to talk about official works. This always happens at night before or after dinner. I think it's simply a part of his job.

But what's making me conscious about this night gathering is the increasing number of ladies that's coming. At napapansin ko na hindi sila kamag-anak ng mga officials na pumupunta. At first, there were daughters but now, even their neighbors are coming.

"Na-intriga lang po sila sa inyo. Master," paliwanag ni Marie.

But I am not dumb. I can tell that they are here to see Miller. I can see their eyes always roving to his way.

Good thing Miller's not into beast women.

At, hindi ako nagseselos. I am just pointing out some annoying attitudes that I noticed.

We continued with this steady routine. After a day of being a little bit active in the main house, Miller and I will go back to the detached house to continue the process for the third time. The third day came so fast, where I began to feel the slightly stronger effect of the ambrosia.