There are many ways for a heart to break. And the Google definition for a heartbreak is, " overwhelming distress " however, in one way Google was wrong....but in the other, Google was absolutely correct.

Synonyms for a heartbreak are things like, grief, sadness, misery, sorrow, heartache, pain, angst, ect ect. But is it possible to feel all of those emotions at once. Even though they all mean the same thing.

It's easy for a heart to break. And it's easy for pain to come upon you. It's easy for all the negative things to happen.

But in that moment, when Jungkook saw Taehyung, lip locking with another person. All he felt was a surge of confidence. And he knew it wasn't the alcohol. Jungkook knew that it was the adrenaline. From the fact that he wasn't going to allow himself to get hurt again.

So he did what he had to do.

Jungkook took shaky steps towards the 'couple' and stopped directly in front of them. He stood there for a couple seconds before coughing loudly, " you guys enjoying the kiss? " Jungkook asked loudly.

The voice of Jungkook ringing through Taehyung's ears shocked the silver haired boy, and he immediately pulled away from the girl.

The girl who turned out to be Elle.

Now Jungkook was definitely not going to cover up the fact that he was hurt. His whole facade of acting badass dropped, but he immediately covered it up. Elle blushed, " hey Jungkook. " She said softly, giggling.

Taehyung could do nothing apart from look at Jungkook and Elle back and forth. " Elle..... congratulations. He's all yours. " Jungkook smiled, joking around with Elle, laughing and all. But Taehyung could see the hurt and disappointment in his big doe eyes.

Jungkook turned to Taehyung, " you hurt her and I'll cut your balls off. " He said jokingly. Taehyung didn't react.

Jungkook waved them off and quickly walked away, wiping the small tears from his eyes. After everything, Taehyung still decided he wanted her. The bitch that fucked him over. Jungkook didn't know where he was going. But he just walked on. His mind leading him involuntarily. People from his class bumped into him, and often tried to get him to drink, but he always just pushed them away, and walked on.

Taehyung, lost Jungkook in the crowd. And he had a feeling he lost Jungkook literally. Even though he felt so defeated, he was stone cold sober. He looked back at a smiling Elle. She walked over to Taehyung, and slid her hands around him, and she hugged him tightly. Taehyung however, was unresponsive. His arms were dead at his side, and right now, he felt nothing but anger.

At himself. At Elle. And at the situation.

He couldn't believe this happened.

And then it hit him.

Taehyung was drinking, a little too much. But the reason why he was drinking because the minute he stepped out of the house, and into the party, he had seen Elle dancing, enjoying herself. How could she? How could she even be enjoying herself, how could she even show her face?

The silver haired boy found his only solitude in alcohol. He just wanted to forget. And somewhere in the meantime he just so happened to have a conversation with Elle.

He wasn't going to be mean. There was no need. He didn't have to worry about her no more. Since he had Jungkook. But now, at that moment, in a place filled with people. Taehyung felt something he hadn't felt since the day he met his dear bunny boy. Loneliness.

So he ran.

He pushed Elle away, and ran. He pushed past all of the people in front of him, and ran. He didn't stop running, and he wasn't going to stop...until he found Jungkook. Until he made it all better.

••••••

Jungkook found himself back to the place where Taehyung and he kissed under the waterfall. He sat on a huge rock, with his legs crossed, tears streaming down his face, right in front of the waterfall.

He kept thinking about today morning. His head was spinning with thoughts but at the same time Jungkook didn't know what to think. He just sat there, staring at the glistening water, emotionless.

Well, not really emotionless, Jungkook was crying his heart out. He was ready to move on. He was ready to give his all to Taehyung. He was ready to finally be happy....once again.

Just like that, his happiness broke in a matter of four seconds.

But maybe he was other thinking this? Maybe it was all a drunken kiss? It didn't have to mean anything....did it?

But at the same time, Jungkook was hurt. The thing that he was thinking about just a couple of hours ago. He couldn't believe how things turned out to be.

After everything, Taehyung still thought that it was okay to kiss his ex. Jungkook sighed softly, and looked up to the dark sky night. Nothing. No stars. Just him, the moon and the nature.

Jungkook wrapped his arms around himself tightly to keep himself warm. But it did no help, as he still felt cold inside and out.

He looked back up the dark sky and smiled sadly. " Hey mom. I know that the only times I ever talk to you is when I'm sad, or when I'm in distress. And I know how bad that is, " he started off, chuckling slightly, wiping his tears, " but...I just wanted to tell you that I miss you, and that I always think about you in everything that I do. I mean mom, you were my first supporter. You helped me through everything, yet you were taken. "

" And, now, I could really use your advice. I don't know what to do. Dad always used to say to me, when the stars are shining so bright, it means your mom's speaking to you. She's missing you. She's loving you. And she's always watching over you. I know that tonight is a starless night, but I also know for a fact that you're still watching over me. " A cold breeze flew past Jungkook, which made him shiver, but he continued to speak.

" There's this guy....his name is Taehyung. And everything always seemed so complicated when I explained it to others, but when I think of it now, it really isn't that complicated. I like a boy. He likes me apparently. But I just saw him kissing his ex girlfriend. So yeah......what do I do? "

Jungkook looked up to the sky and sighed, giving up. So he decided to sit in silence.

••••••

Taehyung was panting. I this huge forest, he didn't know where he was. The silver haired boy thought that he was running in circles. After a few minutes Taehyung stopped running.

" Shit. Everything just looks the fucking same. " He ran his hands through his silver locks, and started to walk again. He sighed, his eyes still not used to the dark. " Why the fuck was Elle even at the party? " He questioned himself, the stress of not finding Jungkook getting to him.

Taehyung muttered incoherent things to himself, still lost like a puppy, and still not even an inch closer to finding Jungkook.

If it was possible, the dark sky was getting even more dark than before, and so was Taehyung's mood. He knew that he'd have to find Jungkook. But he was so close to giving up. The silver haired boy didn't know what to do at all.

And then he heard water.

Taehyung found himself on the same trail that Jungkook and he were at a few hours simple hours ago.

Instinctively, he made a move to follow that trail. The only thing Taehyung could hear was the rustling of leaves, the sound of water and the sound of his boot clad feet dragging across the dirt.

As Taehyung got closer to the edge, he looked over and saw a figure. Sitting on the rock, near to falling off.

Taehyung instantly sprang up, and ran. Trying to find himself a quick way of getting to who he now recognised as Jungkook.

He ran all the way down, but stopped when he saw the tears rolling down Jungkook's cheeks. Taehyung was hidden by the trees and overgrown bushes.

The waterfall was no longer light and airy. It was dark, and suffocating.

Taehyung took soft and quiet steps towards Jungkook, however Jungkook jumped up when he heard a twig snap.

He saw Taehyung standing there, with a dull and sorry looking face. Jungkook sighed and looked away.

Jungkook didn't look back at Taehyung, and Taehyung stood there. Like Jungkook had trapped him there to stay, daring his every movement.

The silence was too much. But neither knew what to say.

" Don't be sorry. " Jungkook finally said quietly. Taehyung stared at Jungkook, wishing for those brown doe eyes to meet his grey ones.

The silver haired boy didn't say anything, so Jungkook took this as to continue speaking.

" I don't....know if you want me to speak first. But you did nothing wrong. It was just me being stupid. "

Taehyung stepped forward, the sound of leaves crushing underneath his feet made Jungkook turn and look at him.

" Stupid about what? " Taehyung responded, his voice hoarse and scratchy.

Jungkook gulped, " about me and you. "

" About us. " Taehyung corrected.

Jungkook stared at Taehyung hard, " about me and you. " He whispered, looking away once again. Jungkook looked up to the sky. " You did nothing wrong. I don't know why I'm upset. Me and you, well there's nothing there. We're not in a relationship. So...why should I be mad at you? And you apologize to me? " Jungkook questioned, trying to hold back all the tears.

" You say that there's nothing there..." Taehyung began, " then why are we in this situation in the first place? " Jungkook didn't say anything, he just shrugged mindlessly.

" Jungkook, you may not believe this now, but I really like you. You're my everything. And....I really want for there to be future, where me and you are happily in love. "

Jungkook scoffed immediately, " Taehyung our lives aren't some cliché romance novels. I'm not going forgive you just as easily as all those girls the minute you say the words I so desperately wanted to hear since weeks ago. "

Taehyung nodded.

" Listen. You are mysterious. Alluring. Your characteristics are like exactly the same as those in the movies. And sure, I have a big fat crush on you. But I'm not going to lie to myself, and you. I don't want to fight with you in the future and bring this back up. "

Taehyung sighed, "I know you don't want to hear it, but I really am sorry. I don't even know why I kissed her. But I sure as hell know that after the kiss, I truly have moved on from her. "

" Taehyung, you may not know it yourself... but you still do care for her. " Jungkook said sharply.

" No Jungkook, I don- "

" Then why! After all this time, do you still back her case. You blame it on yourself. It takes two to tango. Why, after all this time, do you not tell people the truth? She cheated on you! But you still cover for her...why? " Jungkook yelled, tears now streaming down his face, leaving Taehyung frozen in his spot.

Jungkook got off of the rock, " I've been thinking about it, and maybe we should spend some time apart. I think me and you both need to figure out where our heads are at. I'm leaving this lake house. And hopefully, the next time we talk, everything has changed. "

" You're leaving me? " Taehyung said weakly, distress and anguish written all over his face.

" I'm leaving here, I'm not leaving you. I'll always be in here. " Jungkook put his palm on Taehyung's chest, and Taehyung took Jungkook's hands in his.

Taehyung looked down into Jungkook's big doe eyes, that were now red and puffy. He couldn't help but stare down at Jungkook. He was truly ethereal.

Taehyung leaned down, and felt Jungkook's lips hovering under his own. But Jungkook pulled away, leaving Taehyung's heart empty, his lips like a ghost upon Taehyung's.

" i'm sorry taehyung "

••••••

i wanna testify, screaming the holy light,
you bring me back to life, in the name of love.

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literally I just realised how much sense my book is making: none. Do you guys make sense of this bloody chapter?? Cuz I bloody well don't that's what.
Anywho, thanks for reading, much love xx
Three chapters in one week, why am I spoiling y'all like that?? Cuz y'all my children and I love you guys xx