It's been about a week since my mom died. The Washingtons let me stay with them for now.

There's another party tonight at John Andrés house and Alex and I are going together. And no, we're not dating.

I sit on my bedroom floor doing my makeup and Alex is on my bed.

"John, you don't need makeuppppp," he whines.

"If you love me, you'll let me wear it."

He groans. I finish then go to my closet to put on my clothes. A black crop top, a pair of ripped skinny jeans, and black boot heels.

I walk out of the closet and Alex stands up. "You're so pretty," he says and grabs my waist.

I roll my eyes. "Whatever, no I'm not."

"Keep telling yourself that," he says and gives me a kiss.

I grab my phone and we walk to his car.

At the party, Alex holds my hand protectively as we walk through the door. A bunch of people give us looks then go back to whatever they were doing.

"I'm gonna go find Peggy okay?"

"Okay," he says and gives me a kiss.

I walk away from him and take out my phone to text Peggy.

Turtle~ meet me on the porch

Leggy~ kk

I walk out on the porch and see Peggy already there.

"I need your advice on something Pegs."

"What is it?"

I shift in my feet nervously. "I really wanna ask out Alexander."

"Ohhhhh," she says and attempts to make a Lenny face. "Well, do it when you feel the time is right."

I hug her. "Thanks Pegs." I walk back into the house to where I left Alexander.

"Alexa-" I stop myself. Eliza and Alex are practically making out. I feel my heart shatter into a million pieces. Alex pulls away from her and locks eyes with me.
(This is so sad, Alexa play Despacito)

"John. It's not what it looks like I promise."

I feel tears fall down my face. "We're not even together so what does it matter, Hamilton?"

Eliza smirks. "Good point."

He walks towards me and grabs my hand. I snatch it away. "I'm going home." I turn around and walk away from them.

I find Peggy again. "P-Peggy, can you drive me home, please?"

"Of course."

Peggy drops me off at the house and I run upstairs and bury my face in a pillow.

I hear a knock at the door. "John, honey are you alright?" Mrs. Washington asks.

I steady my breathing and answer, "Yes m'am."

She walks away from the door. I get up and wash my face and look in the mirror. My eyes are red and puffy and the tip of my nose is red.

I go back into my room, kick off my shoes, and lay down with the lights out.

I hear another knock on the door. I get up, turn on the light open the door to see Alex.
"What the fuck do you want?"

He sighs. "I'm sorry for what happened at the party."

I sit on the edge of my bed and he comes in and closes the door behind him.

"Like I said, what does it matter? We're not together and it's pretty obvious you want to get back with Eliza."

He grabs my hand and intertwines our fingers. "I don't."

"That's not what it looked like when you were making out with her."

He pins me against the wall. "Dammit John! I love you okay? I want to be with you so fucking bad but now you probably don't trust me. I love you with all of my damn heart."

I look at him with tears in my eyes. "Y-you do?"

"Yes I do."

I hug him. "I love you Alexander."

"I love you too."

He kisses me roughly and I kiss back. I lock the door quickly and the next thing I know, we're both on my bed.

A/N: no smut for you fanficsdiff 😂
I'm a terrible friend. We put balloons on my friend while she was asleep and we were laughing for like 30 mins. And when she woke up she started hitting her mattress 😂😂😂