February - Before

Once upon a time
We were friends, you and I.
I don't know what changed,
nor I know why,
But every night I dream
it hadn't happened overnight.

I used to be told
that feelings were cold.
They mess up our heads
and play with our minds.

I wish I would've listened,
Right now it's too late.
I think I ruined a friendship,
that means too much to get away.

We no longer talk,
It's just like we're rocks.
Our outside is hard,
And our insides are too.

We closed our defenses,
Put up a wall.
What happened to us?
We used to stand tall.
Now we look away
At any sign we're okay.

I'm sorry I did it,
I wish I had not.
I wish not to lose you,
For your words mean a lot.

I miss our conversations,
The ones that were real.
The ones where I thought,
And we talked with no stop.

There's no turning back,
What happened is gone.
The past is behind,
Where my feelings should hide.

Our friendship to me,
Means more than it seems.
I don't want to lose you,
Or else I'll turn blue.

Don't take this wrong way,
Though I don't know how you could.
I don't want what they want,
Not sure if I ever have.

Right now I want a friend,
A friend who is there,
Who's always by my side.

I said I'm always here,
And I swear it's not a lie.
Because that's what friends do,
They stand by their side.