January - Before

I cannot stop

This feeling inside.

It's eating me up

From the inside out.

I don't know what is,

But I have an idea.

They said love was not for children,

It is not for the young.

But if that is true,

Then what am I feeling?

What is this feeling

Of burden and surprise?

What is this feeling

Of being so alive?

I thought I could handle it,

I guess I was wrong.

My mind worked hard

To get you out of it.

It worked for a second

Then you smiled, now I'm dead.

I wish I could stop

Feeling this way.

Day dreams take over my head,

Of you and I kissing,

Of you and I together.

I'm glad you don't see me,

If you did I could cry.

I can no longer try

To keep these feelings inside.

Trust me when I say,

That you'll regret getting close.

Just a warning, I won't let you go.

You clawed your way in,

It's too deep to go.

Somehow I don't care,

Not now, anymore.

Before I go

Just tell me one thing:

How did it take you

To get in one night,

While all of the others

could take all their life?