January - After

I'm tired of searching,
I'm tired of waiting.
I know it's not coming,
If it was, I would've known.

Love was a thing,
I aspired to find.
I thought it would fill me,
turns out it's just a lie.

All of my friends,
they say patience is key.
But I don't understand,
why I'm the only one here.

They told me, "move on"
and I said that I can't.
I wish I were lying,
but I know that I'm not.
We know it's not so easy,
for they know I'd never loved.

I give up on this nonsense,
I won't give in to the wait.
I'm the only one waiting,
you all get your way.

"The one" is not coming,
he'll never reach me.
Instead I'll just settle,
for the one who's like me.
So desperate for love,
for the love he won't get.
For now he's just perfect,
I just wish it wasn't him.

I guess that's just life here,
on this side of the field.
We don't get perfect matches,
we just get "good enough"'s.
He'll never be mine,
despite what you'd like to think.
And for that my heart's breaking,
but I think I'll be fine.
I have a boy who won't love me,
and I won't love him back.
But I get the satisfaction,
that I get something you all lack.