August - After

I thought there was still hope.

There isn't.

I thought there was love.

There isn't.

I thought you and I would be happy.

We won't.

Why are you so caught up

In a chase with a girl

Who doesn't give a damn about you?

Look at me!

I'm right here!

I talk to you,

I care for you.

You're my best friend!

And yet you go behind her.

While I chase after you.

I was hoping, you know?

I hoped we could be together.

I hoped you would love me

Just like I love you.

But you know what?

Hope is for idiots.

Hope destroys us,

It kills us.

Hope makes us dilirious.

It's all an illusion.

I thought that you and I,

We understood each other all right.

The signals you were sending.

The signs were all clear.

But you came and said those words.

Not the words that make me smile

But the ones that make me swallow

The pain behind my eyes.

The pain from my heart

That rises because of you.

I thought you could love me,

I thought you'd be the one.

I've never been so wrong.

But you know what?

Go chase after that stupid girl.

Go running after the girl

I know I'll never be.

She's thin,

She's pretty,

She's smart and she's tough.

I'm fat,

I'm ugly,

I'm dumb and I'm weak.

Go after her, okay?

Get your heart broken.

I don't really care.

I told you I'd be there,

You told me you were there.

But what is the point

If this was meant to happen?

You gave me so much hope,

More than I'd had in a while.

And for what?

You lifted me up

Just to throw me back down.

I'm hopeless.

I'm broken and I'm hopeless

And just because of Boots.

Thank you,

Thank you really

For breaking my heart.

As if I didn't already feel bad

You made me feel worse.

Thank you for your words,

At least they lasted a little while.

But I'm broken.

And you are too.

I can't fix you,

You're too broken.

I thought I would be the one

To bring back hope in your life.

But see?

It's the other way around.

You made my hopeless, dear friend,

And that hadn't happened for a while.