King

"Uea if you don't know where to go you can always come here".. I assured my broken world, holding him tight in my arm...

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Lately I was having a very rough day, first just after leaving his house I started missing Uea very badly,but I can't call him bcouse he resist me to call him as he will be with Mr.khun and he don't want to make him suspicious..

Day after today is his birthday I want to make his birth day special as it is his first birthday with me as my patner I know for him am just a bed partner but I love him,I want to stay beside him on his most important day,I want to do so many things, I want to wish him first and then I want to take him for a short trip on beach want to have lunch in his favorite restaurant but my mom told me she want to visit me she have some important business with me, I try to postpone her plan but she doesn't agree, so unfortunately I have to go to my condo leaving my Uea, Still I want to come back at the night but then thanks to Mr.Khun I can't come back, sometimes I really annoyed by this person, he always take my Uea away from me when ever I was around Uea he always separated us, when ever he came to office he always drag Uea with him for lunch some time he invited Jade and also Gun even Mai but not me,I know he love him and care for Uea but plz some one tell him now I m there to take care of Uea..

Then,when my mom visit me first I had a argument with my mom, this time she come with a purpose, she want me to meet one of our business partner's daughter named Ira, now it's almost two year our family know each other,
I know Ira,she is a good person, my mom quite like her but I didn't expect her to came here to convince me for meeting her. But when she done it I know what they are exactly thinking about and now which direction this will go, more over without telling me she fixed a date for me with Ira in this evening..

But now things are changed I love Uea there is no second thought about it, more over that King was changed he is no more a player, if I was that old king may be I will never pay any attention to anything and went on the dates for fun but now my concern is different, its Uea. I can't think about anyone except him, beside that if Uea got to know about this there is high chance that he will misunderstood and put a full stop on our relationship.

I can't take any risk currently our relationship is very delicate stage,but I can't tell this to my mom now as I was not sure about Uea's feelings, more over Uea need time he is dealing with so many issues I don't want to raise his burden more by telling him my feelings about him.. On the other hand I have doubt if I told him about my feelings may be he will not believe it or he will put a end to our relationship,which I can't afford.So I want him to take his time and gradually realize my love for him by himself and through my ations..

But in all this I ended up with an conflict with my mom, as I told her I don't want to go any on date with Ira and told her I know her plans and tell her to drop this plan to make Ira her daughter-in-law,I know, I was harsh and ill- mannered too, she became angry and disappointed besides that she stop talking with me, but as I said I love my family very much I stand if they are angry with me and shout on me or even they slap me also but I can't stand if they are not talking to me or leaving me alone, and my Mom I love her the most and she also love me the most, so after that heated argument when we both calm down a lil I went to her and hug her and say sorry to her for misbehaving, then finally we patch up..

But then also I had to go to meet Ira but I told my mom to tell her that this is not a date just a casual hangout with friends if she ok she can come, she called Ira and told her everything according my wish I was expecting Ira to reject the proposal but she accepted it, then I call my other friends too and tell them to come at bar and in the end me and mom both are happy, I want her to stay with me for a night as I missing Uea very much and didn't want to stay alone but she have some important business meetings so she can't stay back but told me if I want I can come to our house tonight which I agree.. she was quite surprised that I agree to come and stay with them. Because on normal course I always show tantrums when ever she tell me to come home, yes Uea changed me here too...

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It was continuous 2nd day when I am away from Uea, I talk a lil with him in the morning but I missing him badly..

It's late in the evening when I got a call from Uea,I was very happy and excited as he say he want to come at my place if I'm free..I was dying to spend this day with him and finally I got that chance so I just wanted do some quick preparations, I was really really excited I order his favorite cake and I want to cook a good meal for him but he told me he doesn't take much time maximum twenty min to reached here, with this much I can only make nodules and fired pork..When I finished cooking just then my door bell rang..

He arrived, I was about to open the door then a idea came on my mind I just wanted to tease him lil bit a sweet punishment so that in future he don't even think about leaving me for this long..

I took off my shirt and went to open the door..

"So Mr.Anon,what happened?what's brings you here?".. he said nothing just his lip carved a lil

"Did you missing me a lot, the much I remember you told me you are very busy today?? so what happened?? can't you stay away from me for a day".....he just staring at me..

"Tell me, Mr.Amon" .. I asked..

" I come here to take my gift"....he replied, his gaze is lil different today It's some how bothering me but I decided to ignored it ..

" OK,come get in,and take your gift"...not before I finished my sentence he just throw himself On me..

He hook up his hand around my neck and start kissing me..I was lil stunned by his actions,but can't help kissed him back passionately.. we started kissing each other but there is something off today,when he call me I was so much excited and when I open the door then also I was on mood of teasing him that'sthe reason I miss that detail my Uea is not well.

Generally Uea is very soft and passionate during our love making but today his appearance feels like a Strom his face is dark, his eyes full of lust,his hevey breathing is clearly shows his anxiousness.

Having S*x with Uea is always pleasure for me, I always rady to make love with him, enjoy each-other but today he is behaving like perverted.

But this is not the first time when he behaving like this I noticed he have a tendency to have s*x when ever he is disturbed or stressed,I know there is something wrong with him,but I don't want my Uea to become a perverted..

Now S*x is just a part of our relationship for me it's no more the necessity or the only thing exist between me and him..I love him and don't want to lose my Uea to a palvert.. Though I love to make him my but today I have to stop

"Hey Uea!! What wrong??" ... I asked

"Are you sad "???...I try to figured it out but he said nothing

"Are you hurt anywhere"... I started freaking out

"Uea!! Baby you are worrying me now"..
Please tell me..

" I was in home this evening "..he trying his best be brave..

But that much is enough for me to understand what's wrong with my Uea, so he was went to his house and may be again have a fight with his mom.I really don't understand what was problem between them but seeing Uea like this is very painful for me.

Again he started approaching me but in Uea's current state I don't want to do it I don't want to take his advantage more over Uea's s*x addiction due to his unstable mindset and palvertic behavior I can't let thus happened I have to save my Uea from all this,

But I don't want to make him feel shy or disappointed or awkward at the same time, so I lean few kisses on his neck, check, eyes and forehead...then I tell him to took a shower.

For few seconds I just stay back I stear his back until he disappeared in my bedroom.

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Uea

After taking shower when I came out from the washroom I saw King is standing infront of door,

"Hey Uea, feelings better now??".. In response I nodded my head..

"Then come..I have something for you"
he hold my hand

"For me,what??"..

" Don't you want your gift,come"...he gently rub his finger on my palm

"Gift!!!"

"Yes Uea,now hurry up,come with me"

"But my birthday is already end"...

" There is still few time left"..he said

" Uea ,is it ok if I close your eyes,I know you don't like darkness but I promise I will hold your hand,and it's only for few seconds"....He ask my permission before close my eyes with his hand and make me walk.

" Happy Birth Day Uea,always be happy"

As he remove his hand from my eyes I saw the my favorite chocolate cake kept on the middle of the table with all my favorite food item, the hall is decorated with white fairy lights which was again my favorite, golden and black colours balloon are lying on the floor when he told me to cut the cake...

In my entire life no one done this much for me.when I meet Jade he was the first person who remember my birthday.. but he also never done this much for me.

But King, I never expected this from King to celebrate my birthday like this.. I was quite surprised he know every thing and did each and every thing according to my liking, even the colour of fairy lights also..I was really astonish by thinking when did he prepare all this..

I was pull out from my thought when I realized King is calling me for dinner, he prepare it by himself, I am not able to believe he done all of this for me,for Uea,who is only his bed friend...

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KING

When I told him to blow the candle and make a wish..he looked at me surprisingly and hesitant a bit...

" Uea!! what are you thinking cut the cake na,it's only few minutes left,make a wish, hurry up"...

"Wish!! Ai King, I don't know what should I ask for,I never done this things".... he ask like a baby, offcourse he didn't know, by witnessing his mother I can bet she even barely remember his birthday..

"OK,umm if you don't know then allow me to make a wish on your behalf,give me your hand"....he just smiled and for the frist time without protest gave his hand, I just smiled at his innocence..and close my eyes and wish him all the luck, health and happiness along with I wish him for my whole life.

When I open my eyes I saw his bright face and that smile is so pure just like a new born child who is far away from the selfish-ness and cruelty of this world..

how can she be so heartless towards this angle how can she hurt him,how can she not able to loved him, my Uea loved his family a lot but how his mom can only use him for her own sake and doesn't give anything back, pnot even love..

How can his ex-boyfriends doesn't fall in love with him ,me being a player or just being a bed partner to him can't resist my self to fall in love with him still by knowing how cold he is towards me,but those people whom Uea loved they hurt him, try to hurm him, betrayed him.. And tag my Uea as arrogant,cold and unfaithful, use my Uea as a toy to fulfill their lust and told him there is no one for him make him feeling unworthy..

My Uea is not arrogant,not cold,not a shame,not a toy, not unworthy, noone can play with him from now on,

From now on I will never allowed any one to hurt him not even his mom..

I will not allow anyone around my Uea who can't love him, I will never give my to Uea to anyone not even his own mom, if she can't loved him then I am rady to accept my boy friend is an orphan and I will give him all the love he want...

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I was happy, finally I got what I want, my Uea is happy and I able to spend the day with him and mannage to do a lil bit of things which I want to do for him, but at the same time one thing bothering me a lot...

The state of Uea,when he came at this evening,His eyes,his behavior every thing scared me a lot I never want to see him like this,I need to talk to him before it's too late and my Uea lost himself,so I gathered my currage.

After dinner we both settled down on my couch with his head on my chest and stroking it,seeing him happy once I thought not to talk about it but I know sometimes medicine can be bitter but have to test it..

"Uea!! I want to ask you something,"..he looked at me surprisingly..

"Is there anything you want to share,".. he looked at me blankly..

"Hey!! I mean,mean,What happened today??why you were so sad Uea,you went to your house right,did you had fight with your mom"... he doesn't answer just pressed his head lil more on my chest I can feel the drop of hot water on my bear skin,I tighten my grip on him,last time memories come on my mind how harshly his mom hold his hand and he had a mark which he covered with watch...

"Did you get hurt anywhere,tell me Uea, I can help,baby what happened"... and I try to find out if there is any mark on his body..

"It's hurt King, Every thing is hurting, here it is hurting" he pointed towords his heart and broke down..

I took him in my arm again.he was badly sobbing and I just regretting to starting this conversation, it's his birthday but like others I also give him the pain by remembering him his wounds..But now I have no heart to take this conversation father as I can see how it's bothering my Uea,I don't want him to cry more, he had enough cry for today and till today..But he open himself

"I don't know where eles to go,my family doesn't want me,they don't care about me,I don't have anyone but I can't die because I loved them and have to take care of them..." as he goes on its raising my fear of losing him and making my grip more strong on him..

"UEA!! No baby,who says you have no one,I am always there Uea,if you don't know where to go you can always come to me,but never think about leaving me or thus world,Uea there is a long way to go,and I know everything will be fine at the end.."...I assured him

I know, I didn't get my answer what was the issue between them still I don't know, but am glad that he started open up with me this time he didn't hide it and vocal about his feelings,I know now atlist he start considering me as his comfort zone that's why today he open up a bit atlist told me that he is hurt..

That enough for me to believe on my thought..But still it will take time...And I don't push him to continue this conversation, I will wait him to me to come to me..

I keep stroking his hand until his breathing get settled...

When I look down I found a sleeping Uea on my chest...