King

"It's happened more often now"...I wake up in the middle of the night when I not able to found the expected warm besides me and found Uea is sitting wide awake, It was continuous third time this week and fifth time in 15 days that he is not able to sleep..

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It's almost five and half months of our beneficiary relationship started...

On the first place we started it with few of conditions applied,mostly it was as per Uea's wish, Like

His First condition was, We will get intimate only for 3 times in a week that to with protection.

Second one was,he hate marks on his body so I have to carefull and not make any love bite on him.

Third one,we must have to keep it secret,in public we should not do any PDA and in office too no one should know about this not even Jade, which I found quite funny what he actually thinking I going to discuss my bed story with a virgin like Jade.

Forth one, As long as we are in this relationship we both can't sleep with someone else..if we sleep with someone then there our contract will be declared Void...

Fifth one, If we get some one with whom we want to get settled and spend our rest of the life or any day with any reason or with out reason any one of us wants to end the contract,that party can do it,other party has no rights to stopped the willing party..

After hearing the fifth am became lil sad and felt a pinched in my heart..but I agree because there is no heart involved between us we don't love each other..but I had a counter offer for him,only three days in a week is not enough for me I want to make it five but eventually get agree on fourth time in a week

To get rid from the boredom we keep changing our places,some times it was my condo sometime it's Uea's.. some times we visit hotels also in our initial days..but in the main time I realized Uea's doesn't feel much comfortable in hotels which is quite normal for a person like Uea who always care about what society will think,and for me my top priority is my partner's comfort though we are only bed-mates still I don't like those fact which make Uea uncomfortable. So I stopped checking us in hotels now we spend our nights ether in my condo or in Uea's, most of the time I visit his condo, actually I really like the vibe of his condo it has a soothing vibe,no vibrant or dark colours,simple white wall, minimalistic interiors not over flooded with unnecessary stuff, no extra furniture..

There is only one thing which is over loaded is his wardrobe.he really have a huge collection of clothes,I alway impressed by his dressing sense but when I stopped checking us in hotels, once Uea asked me if any wrong there but I give him some lame excuse with my sweet smile and dismissed the topic..

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Uea

I come back to my sense when I heard him approaching me....

It almost going to be half of the year we started our beneficiary journey together. At first place it was only 4 times in a week when we spend our days I mean nights together but gradually it increased, although King never demand for s*x more than our quota,but now it almost every day and night we spend together, mainly its King who lil start living at my place with out giving me rent,initially when ever he feel low or over burden with work or exhausted he like to came to my condo for sleepover even we not doing anything or run out our quota for that week.but now the thing is after office if we are not going to his place he come to my place and lately he perfectly adjust himself here, he took half of my bed then half of my room, then half of my wardrobe also as he make my condo his condo too...

Not only that,In current sinario we lil started living like real couple..he divided the works too like I never eat breakfast in my entire life it's only coffee for me but he started making proper breakfast for us therefore he told me I have to make dinner for us, then if he cooking I have to do the dishes and vice versa..in this months so many things got changed I don't hate him like before,though he sometimes annoying me but I didn't get irritated that much,sometimes I enjoyed it also but I don't show this to him..now If any day I came back early or he do his OT I missed his present..

Sometimes his actions surprises me a lot,I never explore this side of him after being with him for nearly half year I realized why everyone get attracted toword him,why every single girl fall in love with him because he exactly know how make some one comfortable what to say what not to say...

But sometimes I really feel bad for him, being a free soul he used to have a carefree and happening life,he use to be the soul of the parties but now I noticed he heardly goes to party or hanging out with his friends..Most of the time he stays back with me,some time I feel because of me he is facing those things which have nothing to do with him.it really make me feel guilty but at the same time it's give a unknown pleasure to my restless heart...

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Today since morning It's was raining cats and dogs so we decided to go to King's condo as it is nearest from office . It was almost half past two when I heard him approaching me.

This is one of many issues I talking about which make feel guilty though he never complained, I have sleeping disorder and just because my habbit unable to sleep properly I make him awake most of the time..

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King

I wake up middle of the night ,seeing Uea sitting on sofa I checked my phone it was showing half past two,that means he doesn't sleep for once till now, because today is one of those days when we use our quota, we resolve our business around one'o clock then I just passed out due to tiredness,and when I slept,the much I remember he was awaked..

I know Uea is not a sound sleeper,He keep tossing and turning in sleep, sometimes he used to play game on his phone,sometimes he watched series because he is not able to sleep or wake up in the middle.some time he just look at the ceiling blankly but he never left the bed.

Lately I noticed he sleep lil well when he connected with me any how or othes,like when I hold his hand or I keep one of my arms on him or our legs intertwined,so after being one month of this relationship I intentionally start doing those things and as a result I observed he started sleeping lil better..

I was happy to see that,this problem was decreasing gradually, but in last week, we encounter with an unfaithfull event and this problem start raising it's head again..but today he is not only awake but he left the bed also which make me more worried..

In past five and half months slowly I started unfolding him, I got to know about his likes dislike, his obsation with clothes,he hate dragon fruit,this small small details, Then, how he behave in respect of a periculer situations that day when I approach him from behind just for fun, he got so scared and nervous and ran away from me,letter I found him sobbing standing in the corner of bathroom, seeing him like that my heart ached a lot that day but I didn't say anything to him,nither try to comfort him as I was scared what if it make him more awkward,but I keep waiting for him until he come and sleep beside me,sometimes letter he dozedoff, in sleep he turn and hugs me usual, then only I was comform I still have hold on him,but I give myself a warning not to do this mistake again..

I also observed Uea have a tendency to get sick easily so I minimize our outside food intake and strat making breakfast and dinner at home when ever we are together and fill his kitchen with healthy and nutritious snacks and my too,because sometimes he stay at my condo too,then his hands are running cold every now and then,and blowing his plam or holding a hot coffee into it he try to absorbed some warm,so when ever I got chance I hold his plum into mine to warm it up,I did it several time in past 5 months without letting him know why am doing it,I even replaced his coffee with hot chocolate when I found out about his sleeping disorder without making him conscious,with all this sweet and salty moments we are roaming around each other..And I really enjoy being in this world....

but !!!!

" Hey, there" I grabe one of Uea's hand, and it's cold as usual and asked " Are you ok"..

"It's raining " he answered simply

And I understood,and cursed myself in my mind,how I forget, it's raining and Uea is scared that light will goes off anytime,actually today also as always we are connected by our legs intertwined,and after completing our business I passed out quickly. In normal day I keep cheek on Uea,is he sleeping peacefully or not,generally those days when got intimated generally Uea sleep better because of exhaustion..but today is different he is scared and his fear not letting him sleep,and I miss this point...

"It ok,lights won't go out today, I promise..." I assured him

"Probably,but I can't"...uea looked at me helplessly, again he started "I'm sorry for woke you up,you go back to sleep I will sit outside..."

"Oii,don't be stupid"...I settled down beside him put an arm around him and pat my lap to tell him "come here"..

"I'm not a kid,King,that you make me sleep like this by patting me and singing lullabies"..

Though he said that but lay down on the sofa putting his head on my lap...

"Hmm, you are not a kid but still you are two years younger than me, if you don't manage to get two promotion in school and high school then we don't be in same batch in college,so don't feel shy if I patting you to sleep...." by saying this I start caressing his hair by one hand and with other one I hold his hand tightly..

"King don't you want to know why I scared of dark...." he asked

"No,if any day you comfortable to tell me about this I promise I will listen..."
This time I don't get any answers but he is awake,he is playing with my fingers by opening it one by one and the closing it again..

"Uea's what are you thinking"..again I ask him..

" Nothing,or everything"...he replied
" May be I'm just too anxious to sleep"...

I pressed a soft kiss on his forehead and keep caressing his hair.

"Are there any thoughts about me??"..

"Yaa!! All the violent ones".. Uea chuckle

His smile alway have some kind of sadness into it,and I always try to find this answer why it's so,today I can't help but asked him..

"Uea why this smile never lasts for long, why you despite yourself from being happy,and don't try lie to me that your are happy and all"...that fake smile which never comes from his heart, make me feel very anxious,I just can't stand that fact the way Uea is living lonely and far from life like he declared himself abandon from the the world, the way he torture himself make me furious sometimes..

"Aaa!!King do ever get scared of your past,that affect your future,make you emotionally lunatic,and you just stuck into a place where they make you distrubting,and make you hold yourself back from reaching the end to of the tunnel"....After thinking something he altered

" The Tunnel!!!" I asked..

" Hmm!! The end of the tunnel from where you can see the light is coming, and you know if you reach there,again you will be happy, you can be in the light,and your past thoughts can't interaped you but you are too scared to move from your current place"

" Then my question will be, from what you scared off,are you scared of falling down and get hurt,if you make a step "... I asked ..

" Dont know,but you know, nothing specific, is it not so unfair that some people dealt harder card than others "..... the hollowness is clearly visible in Uea's voice

"May be,but this is life na Uea ,and life is not always sunshine ,if we encounter with something bad that will make us more aware,if we face something difficulties it will make us more stronger, and Uea you know what, it's doesn't matter how much dark it is, there always a ray of hope,a light.. you just need to find it,sometimes you can find it inside you,and sometimes you have to allowed someone to bring to you,and eventually you will notice some day it will not feel so heavy,no darkness was there only the lights" .... I just pressed another kiss on his forehead just because I can.. he turn and lie down on his back properly keeping his head on my lap comfortably...his eyes are full off surprise..I can't help but smile back..

"You never seen me talk this seriously, right??"....he just nodded his head left to right..

" What have you done with my programmer "....he exclaim with surprised...

" Only your programmer is right in this sentence"...a big smile appered on my face with a calming feeling in my heart...

" King, thank you, you make it less dark" .... he said

" Am I? " ... hearing this I feel happy but I want to know more..

" Hmm,You know,when you stay with me or not stay with me and am scared lights goes out I always think you are with me,you are holding me tightly the way you hold me when we are in office and lights went off,like that day then we went to my condo after watching that football match,lights went off and my inverter was not working..""

" Uea!! You know na, it doesn't matter I'm with you or not, you always have count on me to be here"..I assured him

"can I ask you for something Uea"....

" hmm" he agreed

" Uea, next time if you can't sleep,wake me up ok"

" What??" He surprised

" I don't like,you been awake all alone,so if you can't sleep wake me up"

" But King,...." he is about to say something but I stopped him

" Uea for me it's important that you also rest well ,if you wake me we can do something,some activities like playing board games or watching some boring series like you,which can help you to sleep,or I can annoying you so much that you get irritated and went back to sleep "

my last sentence make him chuckle again,I rub my nose with his..

"I hate you King !!!" he chuckle again like a cute baby...

I just smiled back to him

"Uea take all the time you need,I will always wait at the end of the tunnel for you,I promise..

But Uea plz take that step..If any thing happened,I promise,I will be there to hold you,and still if you to scared to take steps then allow me to bring the light to you,atlist like a Phi(elder brother) or a friend " ...

I don't get any answer but this is the first time I see trust on his eyes instead of annoyence..though I can feel that, he is not confident enough on his emotions,he is hesitating to trust but stlist he started thinking about it,so I have a hope that, may be its can be a new starting for us...

" Uea,come on,let's go to bed,I promise u light won't get off today,and I will hold you entire night and soon it will be light outside".... I pressed another kiss on him..

And we both settle our self on bed,I hold him tight on my chest he also hug me just like a baby Kola...

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Uea

I don't know that day when I fall asleep, I just remembered I saw King put on his phone's flash and keep it on bed side table where the table lamp is alrady on..and murmuring some things in sleepy voice I was also feel sleepy in his hold but I look like he is singing some lullabies...