People say you know the ends come when you see the white light pulling you up, but the only thing I saw was Gigi. In the last few moments of consciousness, I saw her strawberry smelling hair right in front of my eyes, I heard her adorable giggle and her stupid nickname, I felt her soft skin against mine, I felt her love.

The antiseptic is the first thing to enter my passage as the murmur of sounds becomes clearer. Opening my eyes is like digging for treasure in the Sahara, they're too heavy to open and I feel like I'm getting nowhere.

I try to speak but nothing comes out, there's something over my mouth pushing air into me. What the fuck? My limbs are heavy but the distant warmth that cups my hand lets me know she's here. I managed to squeeze the hand holding mine and silence overcomes the room.

"Colton?" Her sweet voice rings through my ears and Suddenly my eyelids seem a lot looser. Her glassy eyes look down from above. I want to reach out and touch her but as soon as I try and move she stops me.

"Don't move, I'm calling the doctor." She slips away from me and as I'm regaining my consciousness I now have a doctor standing over me, shining his fucking light in my eyes.

"Get that thing out of my fucking face." I rasp between coughs.

"Well you're coherent so I guess that's a good thing." He scowls at me, switching the mini flashlight off, " Do you know where you are Colton?" I try and look around the room but I can't yet lift my head so I can only see the ceiling.

"You're in the hospital." He answers for me.

Hospital? I rack my brain, the last thing I remember is what happened with Gigi then driving to see her-

Oh. And the car that hit me and Jayden.

"Is Jayden alright?" I try and lurch forward but I still can't gain enough strength.

"Take it easy. I'll put the bed up, Jaydens fine, he's waiting outside with everyone else." A wave of relief rushes through me until I sit up, aches and pains running through me and see my entire leg covered in plaster and most of my torso covered in gauze.

The doctor runs a few more small tests and declares I'm fine. He tells me all about the procedures and surgery's, the fact that I practically died and I've been unconscious for three days and that they were worried they'd have to put me in an induced coma.

"You have a whole hallway full of people out there at the moment. One lady has spent most of her time sat in here though, she hasn't really moved from that chair. Is there anyone, in particular, you'd like me to send in first?" He writes something on one of the charts he holds in his hand.

"Gigi," I say without question.

"Very well, I'll also get you some water, you sound pretty raspy."

Damn this guy is fucking observant. I roll my eyes slowly, feeling a dull ache in my head. A few seconds after the door shuts it opens again and a frail-looking body stands in the doorway, drowning in a hoodie, her famous strawberry smelling hair plaited messily to one side. She takes a look at me and tears start rolling down her face, she quickly starts crying, trying to muffle the sounds with her sleeve. I just want to get up and hug her but I can't fucking move.

"I'm so so sorry Colton." She runs over and sits in the seat, grabbing my hand so she can hold my fingers, " I didn't mean any of what I said, I was just-"

"Scared." I rasp and she nods with a limp smile.

"You're not a distraction, you're the complete opposite. You make me smile and keep me safe, you look after me and you've taught me what love is. I was going to fly out and apologise but then we got the call and I was even more scared then I've ever been before. I thought I was going to lose you, I can't lose you, you're my everything and there's no point waking up in the morning if you're not doing it with me. This is our journey and I can't do it alone." She cries wiping her nose on the wet sleeve.

"Baby," I stretch my arm just enough to reach her face, I wipe the tears and then taker her hand in mine, "Come here." I pat on the space of bed next to me, she hesitates.

" I don't want to hurt you."

"You won't, come here." She climbs onto the bed and falls onto my chest as I secure my arms around her, she cries violently, letting me stroke her hair.

"I was actually driving to come to apologise to you." I try to chuckle but the two broken ribs disagree with my action and shoot pain through my side.

"Why, you didn't do anything wrong" she sniffles.

"I let you walk away without fighting for you after I'd promised you I'd stick with you. Sure you're stubborn but you were scared and I shouldn't have given up so easily. I'm sorry." She kisses the back of my hand lightly.

"Are we okay?" She mumbles.

"Better than ever." I kiss her head that rests under my chin.

"I'm lost without you Colt because I love you so much it hurts more than anything to think about you not being here with me for the next chapter of our lives." She turns her head to look at me, her red-rimmed eyes go straight through me.

She... loves me.

I always knew she did but hearing it... it's something different, something more profound.

"Can you say that again... after all I have just been hit by a car," I smirk.

" Colton Jax you egotistical idiot. I love you. I love everything about you, even the fact that you put Jalapeños on pizza. I love you like the stars love the god danm fucking sky. I love you." She leans in to place a small kiss on my cheek, the tiny bit of contact sends sparks flying around my body. As she pulls away I pull her close, planting my lips on hers. As they dance together the raw intense amount of emotion becomes apparent in her kiss, the sense of desperation and passion but caring and lovingness.

I guess getting hit by a car has its perks aye?

"Never do that again!" My mom scolds hysterically as Gigi lets them into my room, after the doctor ran me through more extensive test and scans, declaring everything was good and I was responding well to the surgery, I convince him to banish the one person only rule and everyone piled into my room.

"I mean, I didn't have much control over it mom." I chuckle as Gigi climbs back into my bed. She sits away from me scared of hurting me, so I take it upon myself to pull her closer towards me.

"Don't joke!" She scolds coming over to cup my cheek, her eyes brim with tears, "I've just got you back, I thought I was going to lose you again... for good." She whispers as a tear falls down her face.

"You can't get rid of me that easily." I squeeze her hand to let her know I'm still here, when I turn to smile at Gigi, she's crying too. I pull her into my chest, placing a soft kiss on the top of her head.

"Look, I'm fine can everyone just stop crying over me, it's nothing. None of you have made this much fuss over Jayden, it's his car that's fucked." A chuckle sounds around the room.

"It's alright bro, Wills been taking care of me, haven't you, my love." Jayden leans over to place a kiss on his cheek but Will swats him away.

"Oh leave off you idiot." He goes back to typing on his phone.

"Hey, you can't be mean to me, I've just been in a car crash!" he pouts, he'd looked a withered wreck when I'd woken up, he kept apologising and pleading with me to forgive him. I just laughed at him, it wasn't his fault. If I hadn't have been so selfish and gotten so drunk he wouldn't have had to clean up my mess anyway. Now he looks so much brighter and back to his annoying self.

"Where's my love? Coltons taking it all." Elijah slaps him around the head as we all chuckle, or at least I try too but stop immediately when a sharp pain in my ribs becomes apparent.

"Aw you poor thing, come here." Gigi giggles getting off the bed, I try and pull her waist back down but she just giggles more and wriggles out making her way over to Jay, engulfing him in a massive hug.

"See at least someone loves me." He pouts wrapping his non-damaged arm around her body.

"Stop trying to steal my girl." I moan throwing a remote at him which he seemingly dodges.

"You're just jealous she loves me more than you." He says waltzing her around the room until she flops down onto my bed giggling.

"Yeah, in your dreams." I smile as she leans back into my arms.

As night rolls in I send everyone home, they all look exhausted and Jayden looks like he's in a bit of pain. Gigi obviously stays behind and snuggles with me under a large fluffy throw she asked my sister to bring when she came and did her rounds earlier. She was upset she couldn't be my doctor herself but it's obviously a conflict of interest.

We're watching an episode of Sherlock but there's one question that's been on my mind all day.

"Doll, what happened with your brother." Her slight smile immediately drops and she becomes slightly tense. She gives me the rundown on what had happened and how she went to my mom for help.

"We're still no closer to finding out where he is but your mum and Bleu are working on the guardian approval."

"How do you feel about that?" I push a stray curl behind her ear, her hair was in its natural form, wild and wavy. She hates it but I love it. She lets out a sigh,

"In some selfish way I've always wanted to be the one to fix everything, I wanted custody and I wanted to look after him but realistically Bleu is the best thing for him and I'm so grateful he's doing this."

"In retrospect, you have had custody of him since he was born, you have practically been his mom. You didn't fail him, you did what was best for him and he's always going to love you for that. It doesn't matter if you have full custody or not." I smile down at her. She places a kiss on my cheek.

"That morphine's made you wise." She giggles.

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