It was a cold white room with a light lamp hanging from the ceiling. It was as if I was in a movie I was just watching a few days ago, but now, I felt like I was living it. Umayos lamang ako nang pagkauupo at habang hinihintay si Officer Bloom. If I wasn't here for such a thing, I could be hooking up with him, but I don't think he was gay. But the way he looked at me earlier, meant something.

Or maybe I was just hallucinating and I was just trying to put my attention away after what happened.

It was gruesome. It was crazy. It was unforgivable.

Saglit lamang ay dumating si Officer Bloom. His tight uniform significantly made his muscle prominently visible. I tried not to look at him because I was here for some reason and not to suck his dick. I could suck his dick if he wanted to do it. I could just crawl down under the table and put his zippers pants down and put his cock inside my mouth.

I was imagining doing it and how much pleasure he got from it, but I got snapped back into my daydreaming when he snapped his fingers in front of my senses, pulling me back into the hard reality.

"Mister Burrow, I'm sure you have a lot of information you can share with us, but as you have requested, a lawyer will come to meet you soon. For now, you may answer me with things you are comfortable in answering. Can we do that, Mister Burrow?"

Tumango naman ako. Napatitig na lamang ako sa labi niya.

"Okay. . . Let's begin with how did you meet Mister Ezekiel Almanzar?"

***

Pagkauwi ko sa bahay ay hindi ako mapakali. I can't get it out of my head even though I wanted to. Hindi maalis ang mabilis na pagkabog ng dibdib ko. Nang makita ko silang dalawa sa kwarto na 'yon, I knew I've been fooled by them. Pinoproseso ko pa rin dahil ang hirap niyang isipin lalo na kung hindi naman iyon ang unang papasok sa isipan ko. I didn't even think Zeke could do it to me. It was an unbelieavable sight.

I am heartbroken and was lied to.

I guess, I wasn't the only one.

Wala akong mapagsabihan. Hindi ko masabi sa mga kaibigan ko kung anong nalalaman ko ngayon. I could possibly tell it to Renee, but I knew they would come after me once they found out that I told Renee. I wasn't sure if they realized that it was me who found them inside the motel room. They were having sex, and I think it wasn't the first time it happened.

Hindi ko maiwasang maiyak dahil kung aalalahanin ko ang lahat nang nakita ko, kinikilabutan ako. Binuksan ko ang TV at sinbukan kong ibaling sa iba ang atensyon ko. But whenever I remember their name, I couldn't forget about it. Para bang nangangati ang katawan ko na may gusto akong gawin, pero hindi ko magawa. I wasn't horny, it was the realization from the lies crawling in my skin. I can't get it off. 

Tumungo naman ako sa kwarto at sumilip ako sa kwarto. The blackout curtains were on the back blocking my view of their bedroom. But knowing all the things I just discovered, it would be more painful for Renee to accept it.

Later on, I heard knocks on the door. Nagdadalawang isip naman ako kung pagbubuksan ko ba ng pinto kung sino man ang taong nando'n. Could it be Zeke? Sinundan niya ba ako sa bahay ngayon? May gagawin ba siyang masama sa akin? If he would threaten or kill me, it was a good ride for me, but here I am, praying that the person behind the door wasn't the person I was thinking in my head.

I slowly attended the front door and opened it with my eyes closed. I was ready to be stabbed, killed, murdered, or whatever this person intended to do to me, but nothing happened.

"Hey, Mitch. Are you okay?" I opened my eyes up when I heard this familiar voice.  I felt relieved as well when it wasn't Zeke and Gio was the one I was seeing now. "Hey, are you okay? Are you feeling good?" He placed the back of his hand on my neck just to check my temperature. "It seemed like you were fine. . ."

"Gio. . ." I uttered his name. "It's you. . ."

"Yes? It's me? What's up?" he asked, creasing his forehead. "Isn't this a great time for me to visit? I can just come back later if you want me to."

"No, no. It's okay, come on in. . ." Hinawakan ko siya sa kamay niya at ipinasok sa loob ng bahay ko. "I wasn't doing anything. Mag-isa lang din naman ako."

"I see. . . Okay." Hinarap niya ako. "It seemed like something was going on. Anong meron?"

Umiling ako at tumawa nang bahagya. "Wala naman. . . Does your Mom know you're here? Umuwi ka na last week. Did you see her ba?"

Umiling din naman ito sa akin at may mapaglarong ngiti ang lumitaw. "No, she doesn't know I'm here yet, but I thought I would see her if you weren't here, busy, or didn't want to entertain me. . . But I guess, I'm all yours now."

"What do you mean by that?" I asked, seemingly knowing what he meant.

Dahan-dahan naman itong naglakad papunta sa akin hangga't sa wala na akong maatrasan at pader na ang nasa likuran ko. Napangiwi naman ako, pero kinuha niya ang magkabilang kamay ko at itinaas niya sa tabi ng ulo ko. He pinned me to the wall and the he pinned himself against me. Hindi nagtagal ay mga halik nito ang bumuhay sa akin. He was so aggressive and he wasn't stopping in kissing me until we are breathless.

Hinubad niya ang shirt ko at dinilaan niya ang utong ko. I couldn't help it. Napatingkayad ako sa sarap na ginagawa niya. Sunod ko namang hinubad ang t-shirt niya, and his chest was a little hairy now. I giggled as I saw it. When I mentioned to him na gusto ko sa lalaki ang mabalbon ang dibdib ay ginawa niya ang iyon at hindi na niya shine-shave ang dibdib. It was some kind of a fetish. I think it was very manly and hot for a guy to be covered with hair.

Pinasadahan ko ng halik ang leeg niya hanggang sa bumaba ang halik ko sa dibdib niya at unti-unti akong lumuhod. He was looking down at me while I was on my knees. I pull his cargo pants down and I put my face over his underwear, sniffing and licking his junk. He was moaning out loud and I thought he would help me wash the thoughts out of my mind because, in the meantime, it was just me and Giovanni.

It was a different feeling when I shared an intimate moment with Gio, it was like I've never had this with anyone before. He made me feel so cute and excited. For Hayden, he made me feel like I was a lost dog, and he would take me to his home and take care of me. For Zeke, it was rough, I had a whole experience when it came to him. They all have different things to make me feel satisfied, but I don't want them anymore. I don't want to put myself in a situation where I can't have peace of mind anymore.

I suck Gio's cock, and when he made me get up on the floor, he was the one who got onto his knees and pulled my shorts down, and suck my cock. It was rare for me to encounter in my hookups that men would like to suck my cock, there were a few of them who tried it, but they said, they didn't like putting a cock in their mouth instead bringing their cock into someone else's mouth was more reasonable.

When I told Gio to let me suck his cock again, we lay down on the floor and we both did a sixty-nine where we enjoy sucking each other's cock. I got hard so easily, especially when the person I've been with made me feel satisfied just by looking at them alone. I thought this was enough for me. I don't need anyone else in my life. Gio was fine for me. His Mom was very supportive of us, and I thought, there was likely a chance for me to end up with him if he chose me as well.

As we move on to the next thing, Gio wanted me to fuck him. Nag-alangan pa ako dahil hindi ako nag-to-top, but if the other person who would want to do it, I'd give it a try. I told Gio to go to the bedroom. Pumwesto naman kaagad ito sa kama. He put his knees and hands and arched his back so I could see his hole perfectly. Kumuha ako ng condom sa drawer at nang isusuot ko na ito ay tinanong ako ni Gio kung bakit pa ako magsusuot ng condom kung nag-sex na naman kami noon. He took the condom from me and threw it on the floor. He wanted it raw and I gave it to him.

I slowly inserted my cock in his asshole and there he moaned out so loud, next door neighbor could possibly be hearing us. But he didn't bother if he made a loud noise. I thrust my hips and his butt cheeks wiggled every time my hips hit on them. It made me so horny that when we changed into a missionary position, it was easy for me to get into the action and also kiss him torridly.

I had to stop when I knew I could be coming soon. That was the moment when Gio flip us up and turned to fuck me. He was huge—bigger than me, and every time his cock entered my asshole, the sensation I could feel was so immense, it made me cry out.

"Who. . . Why does your neighbor's watching us?" he asked while he was still fucking me.

Natigilan naman ako nang ma-realize ko kung sino ang tinutukoy niya. Nang pagkatingin ko sa bintana ay nakita ko si Renee, pero mabils niya ring sinara ang blackout curtains. Natawa naman si Gio sa nangyari. Parang wala lang sa kanya 'yon dahil patuloy pa rin ang paglabas-pasok niya sa akin habang puno naman ng kaba at takot ang dibdib ko.

When I asked him if we could go back to the living room and finished what we are doing there, hindi naman ito pumayag. Wala naman daw siyang pakialam kung makita ng ibang tao ang ginagawa namin. He added, it made the situation even hotter. Napaisip naman ako na baka fetish niya iyon. Ang panoorin siya ng ibang tao. I knew it was hot, but I've never done it before. Well, I'd like to watch other people, especially in the last few months. . . But now, it all changed in an instant.

Gio and I were having the best time until he finally released himself inside of me. When I asked him if he could shoot his cum in my face, he didn't comply with it, but I let it go. As it was my turn to cum, he jerked my cock out and suck it at the same time. As I announced that I was coming, I shot myself all over his body. Hingal na hingal din naman ako saka ako bumagsak sa tabi niya.

"Is this your underwear?" he asked as he pulled something under the pillow, and I didn't even get to say a thing when I saw him wipe my cum all over his stomach using the boxer briefs I stole from Hayden. It has been a long time since then, but I've never washed it, and now it was full of my cum, and Gio's sweat.

He threw the boxer brief on the floor while we lay down on the bed together. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong magalit sa kanya o hindi. Wala naman siyang ideya na pagmamay-ari ni Hayden ang underwear na iyon. If I told him a thing about it, he would have an idea what was happening, and I don't want to put him in this situation where he had to deal with this issue.

I rested my head against his arm while I was hugging him.

"Would you tell your Mom about us?" I asked him.

Napangisi naman ito. "I think my Mom knew what was going on between the two of us. She saw us last week together having fun and all. . . I think she really liked you for me."

I giggled as he mentioned it. "Do you think there's a chance for us to be together? Like boyfriend-girlfriend?"

"Of course," diretsyo nitong sagot sa akin at hinalikan ako. "I would love you to be my boyfriend. I think you're hot, handsome, kind, and everything. . . I got to know you and Mom was right, there was so much in you I need to know more. . ."

"And what was it?"

"Well, we'll figure that out together," he said. "But I can't stay for the night. . . I have to leave."

"Oh, I see. . . Are you going to see your parents first before you go?"

He shrugged off. "I don't know. They didn't know I was here. I'm only here because I wanted to fuck you and you to fuck me, so I guess it would be odd for them to know that kind of reason. But I will be back, I promise. . . And maybe that time, we could make it official?"

I chuckled. "Sure. . . Let's see about that."

I watched Gio put his clothes back on, and I really don't want to see him go, but he had to leave. Pasimple rin naman ang pag-alis niya. Nasa tapat lang ang bahay ng magulang niya kaya tumalon na lang ito sa bintana para mas madali sa kanya. That was what Hayden usually do when he came over to my house.

Sa ginawa niyang iyon ay akala ko makalilimutan ko na sila, but it flew back into my head. I tried knocking it out of my head, but the only thing I could turn off thinking about it was sleeping, and I hoped I won't dream of it.

***

When the morning came, it was unusual for the past couple of days, I wasn't hearing any loud noises of screaming and shouting. There was serenity and peace in the neighborhood. I get up on my bed and stand by my windows. It was quiet. It seemed like Hayden didn't come home last time. Nakakalungkot pa rin kay Renee dahil wala siyang ideya kung anong ginagawa ng asawa niya ngayon.

I moved on from Hayden. Ayoko nang idawit pa ang sarili ko sa kanya. I wanted to help Renee get over him, at hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya kukumbinsihin na maniwala sa akin. She would probably hate me. Inisip ko ang mga bagay na pwede kong sabihin sa kanya. Kung aamin ba ako o hindi. Marami akong alam na pwede kong sabihin sa kanya at maraming buhay ang maaapektuhan kapag nagkataon.

Was I ready for it?

Sisirain ko rin ba ang buhay ko dahil lang naaawa ako sa asawa ng taong pinili akong parausan noon? It wasn't my choice to get down with Hayden. Sumunod lang din naman ako sa mga kagustuhan niya. Bumigay lamang ako sa tukso.

I went to the kitchen and made some coffee. After that, I took a shower. I have no idea how long it took me to get done. I put some clothes on and prepared myself to talk to Renee, and probably tell her some of the truth—leaving out some of the details I was a part of. While I was in the shower, I thought I wasn't ready to ruin my life for someone else's sanity. 

Huminga ako nang malalim at binuksan ko ang front door, pero natigilan na lamang ako dahil may taong bumungad. Hindi ko siya inaasahan na darating ngayon. I was about to shut the door right infront of his face, but he stopped me from doing it.

"Mitch, can we talk?" he started. Hindi ako sumagot. Nanatili ako sa likod ng pinto. Hinaharang niya ang legs at kalahating katawan sa pinto. Hindi ko naman siya iniipit. "I know it was you who went to the motel room last night. It is you, isn't it?"

"And what would you do if I told you my answer about it?"

"Keep it a secret," he said. "Do what Hayden asked you to do. Take that to your grave."

"No." Matigas kong tugon. "I can't lie anymore, Zeke. You lied to me. Both of me. . . How come you and Hayden were hooking up in that motel room? Has it always been like this? Why are you doing this? Especially with Renee?"

He smirked. "You think I was the only one who played you in this game, Mitch?"

"H-Huh? What do you mean?"

"Your favorite married-man has been a part of it," he said. "And you can't tell his wife, Renee, what you saw last night. Don't tell a single soul about it. It was our secret. . ."

"You can't keep my mouth shut anymore."

"Oh, really?" He smirked. "If you would let me fuck you, can it shut your mouth again?" Hindi ako sumagot sa kanya. "I thought so. . ."

Tuluyan naman siyang nakapasok sa loob ng bahay ko. Sinarado niya ang pinto at mabilis niya ako pinaluhod sa sahig. He pulled his pants down and put my face in his cock.

"Suck it, boy. . . Suck it. You can have it anytime you want as long as you don't tell anyone what you've seen last night. I could ask Hayden to fuck you if you behave and do what I said. . . Do you want to get fucked by Hayden?"

Hindi ako sumagot, but I slowly put his cock in my mouth. "Yeah. . . Ugh. . . There you go. . . You could have my cock and Hayden's cock all the time, just don't say anything or you will be dead. Do you understand?"

I looked up to see his eyes.

"Do you understand?" he repeated, clenching his jaw.

I nodded. "Yes. . ." I uttered while his cock was in my mouth.

"Very good. . . Now, work on my cock, and I'll tell Hayden to fuck you tonight. . ."

It was at that moment I gave into temptation and pleasure once again. I'm sorry, Renee, I got to put myself first. You can handle yourself, and I will handle my issue privately. This has nothing to do with your baby, but as long as I could have Zeke and your husband's cock, it would be fine for me. . . Just as long as I'm not dead.

***