i want to sleep now, since i feel really sleepy
but i decided to write here more, i can never be steady
i don't know what to do anymore, my schedule's a mess
i can't do all the things i must, now it's getting harder lately

there's no reason for me to procrastinate
and no reason for me to hesitate
to do the assigned task before its due date
i can't risk getting it all late

but my body says no, and my mind says so too
whenever i try to start one, all my thoughts would  suddenly go "shoo"
so i lay my head and bump it hard
'til i get all the ideas i need, yes this happens it's true

but whatever i do, nothing ever comes out
so i ended up procrastinating even more than i thought
i'd lay in my bed and stare at the screen for an hour
clueless about my surroundings, will only move if i'm asked

i can do some of the chores and whatever my parents tell me
but all these assigned projects and duties from the school, i'd somehow flee
then i'd try to find some reasons on why i'm acting like this
everything looks so simple in my mind, everything looks so clear

but whenever i do it all in reality
it would end up as a mess, and just seriously ugly
i'd pass it anyways, then anxiousness would visit me
and tell me, "what about your parents? don't you feel guilty?"

i know it's about me not giving my best, though i know that i tried my best
to all the projects and assignments, wait- why's this just like a test?
i'm writing this right now, in order to get a clear view of my emotions
not having any different intentions, i know this will end up as a nest

where i can put my thoughts and clear them all this night
yes, i'm hoping i would do that and give all my might
why am i giving my best in this poem that i write?
but when it's all about school, everything's just out of sight

all these words i'm writing are now all making no sense
but i hope i learn from this, even just a little bit
i will try and sleep now too since it's getting late, it's two
in the morning already, i need to charge my phone as well

ps
i know i have a test tomorrow
but i think i can handle them all in a row
actually nevermind, i might be in sorrow
i'll just let myself sleep for now,
and be ready for the show

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