Maria : Alright so you should have caught onto this story.

Sinbad : *looking away* Why is it-?

Ja'far : MARIA! *chases Maria*

Maria : *curses* Bye, guys! Gotta run away from this asassin! *screams* Karma-nii! Itona-nii! Ja'far is chasing me!

Ja'far : *yells* COME BACK HERE! I AM SO TORTURING YOU ONCE I GET MY HANDS ON YOU!
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I feel like crying.

I feel like laughing.

I feel like dying.

Which one seems appropriate for a guy like me?

An advisor to the King?

To King Sinbad?

To Sin?

Everything is hectic. I don't know what the hell is my problem.

All I can say is this is crazy.

Insane.

Laughable.

How pitiful seeing me in this quite confusing state.

I am even surprised I can fool myself this long.

That I love girls.

I am disgusted at myself.

I love Sin.

I love him.

He's the most precious person to me now.

But, I can't be with him.

I gave him up.

I gave him to someone he now loves dearly.

He is married to the woman of his dreams.

The future Queen of Sindria.

I should be happy, right?

Or should I be angry?

I shouldn't.

It was my fault.

Why did I give him to another woman?

Why couldn't I accept his feelings!?

Why can't I stop lying to myself?

It's not that woman's fault!

It's somehow my fault.

Not her's.

But still...

Why can't I help but hate her?

Is it because I just want to blame her?

Because she stole Sinbad from me?

Or...is it because...I just hate her for no apparent reason?

That seems to be approriate.

"Ja'far!"

I snapped out of my thoughts as Sin placed a hand on my shoulder. I brushed it off as I turned to him.

"Yes, Sin?"

With closed eyes, I can only hope what I heard is not what I am thinking.

"She gave birth, Ja'far! I'm going to be a father!"

I cringed slightly at that excited tone.

I didn't want to open my eyes.

But he would suspect.

I opened my eyes.

And I wish I could be dead on the spot.

He was smiling happily.

"Congrats, Sin!"

I said happily, forcing myself to smile happily.

"Tha- Ja'far? Are you okay?"

I realised tears were rolling down my cheeks.

"Y-You're..."

"It's nothing, My King. These are happy tears."

I watched as he doubt my excuse but finally accept it and left the room.

My knees finally gave way and I started letting out choked sobs.

Why!?

Why did I now realise this!?

Please!

Sin!

Sin come back to me!

I couldn't stop these painful tears rolling down my cheeks and I yelled out profanities.

At who?

Me, obviously.

I couldn't stop it.

It was overflowing.

These feelings of sadness, regret, anger.

I wish...this was all some nightmare.

I wish...that he wouldn't leave my side.

I wish...and I hope...that this is all some silly dream.

But no.

This is reality.

And...

I just have to continue the flow.

To fake smile at the person I loved so much.

To act like myself.

But of course, it would not change the fact that I am not happy.

That I am devastated.

That I am angry at myself.

That I am feeling this regret.

I let out a raged cry one more time as I fell asleep.

Extended ending:
"I'm so sorry Ja'far."

Sinbad got up as he grasped the cup tightly. He really didn't expect his best friend and adviser would return his feelings. That's the reason he married her.

He had thought that he would try to object the marriage but he didn't.

Sinbad finally felt salty liquid rolling down his cheeks.

"Great. Now I'm crying."

He muttered as he walked away, wiping the tears he had shed.

He hope...that this wouldn't affect his close relationship with him.

Hopefully it won't.
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Maria : Hi guys! I hope you enjoy this drabble or oneshot.

Ja'far : Now that I read this story.

Sinbad : *cries* It's too much.

Ja'far : *shocked*

Maria : And here I thought my singing and recorder playing would make people sad.

Sinbad : *sobs* That! Is not making it better!

Ja'far : *pats him* There, there.

Sinbad : I LOVE YOU, JA'FAR! LET'S GET MARRIED!

Ja'far : *knocks his head* You're crazy! *blushes*

Maria : Yussssh! My OTP!!!

Ja'far : *glares*

Maria : *smirks* Bye~ *yells* Sinbad and Ja'far sitting on the tree! What are they doing? K-I-S-S-I-N-G!

Ja'far : *growls* COME BACK HERE, YOU LIL' BRAT!*chases after Maria*

Maria : *runs away*