Nikki's POV

"Nikki?"

Dean.

That's his voice. I heard his voice. He said my name. He said it as clear as day. I heard him. I heard him.

He's alive.

I wanted to see him, touch him, kiss him.

He was here. He is here. I know he is. I freaking heard him.

'Come closer' I wanted to shout. I had no idea where we was. Hell, I barely knew were I was.

Seconds later I heard a noise. In fact I heard several noises. Feet patting against the floor, squeaky wheels rolling, and telephones ringing.

Seconds passed and those sounds became muted. I was still able to make them out, but if I hadn't been paying them close attention, I wouldn't have heard a sound.

Had those sounds been happening everyday and I've just been unaware this entire time?

Everything was still for a moment, then a low noise filled my ears. The noise was a low buzz that was steadily getting louder until it suddenly stopped.

It was silent for a few seconds longer before a shaky breath was released.

Dean.

It was Dean.

He was here. He was right here.

"Sunshine." I heard his voice say quietly, "Can you hear me?"

'Yes I can hear you!' I wanted to scream. 'I can hear you, baby. I can hear you.'

But he couldn't hear that, so the room remained silent, the only sound audible being the beeping of the heart monitor.

"I..." he commented softly, "I miss you."

'I miss you too...'

"I'm sorry." He spoke, "For this. For all of this. For hurting you...I should have never even asked you. I should have made you stay there or told you to go away, for your sake... I'm sorry sunshine..."

'Don't be sorry...'

I didn't want him to apologize. There was nothing for him to be sorry for. It was my decision to climb onto the balcony with him. I could have said no, but I didn't want to risk losing him.

He remained silent for a moment, then there was a small sigh.

"I love you." He spoke softly.

'I love you too.'

There was silence for a moment and then something happened.

My hand started tingling. It felt like it had fallen asleep, only it hurt worse than that.

Wait... it hurt?

I hadn't been able to feel anything as of late so the feeling of pain was... well I'm not sure if it was a curse or relief.

The tingling traveled from my hand all the way up my arm. With each passing second the pain growing a bit worse.

I let out a grunt of frustration but tried to suck in a breath of air to try and calm myself, only my chest suddenly felt like it was on fire.

"Nikki?" I heard Dean question, then again in a more urgent tone, "Nikki?"

The pace of the beeping in the room was on a steady rise as I attempted to catch my breath.

"Calm down Sunshine." I heard Dean's voice commented, "Its ok."

I let out a sharp yell as I tried inhale again, only to have my chest reject my decision.

"Woah there Sunshine." Dean said gently and I could practically hear my heart beating in my ears now, "It's ok. I got you. Can you open your eyes? Look at me, I'm here."

At his question, my eyes frantically snapped open, my vision blurry as my heart continued to race.

"That's it sunshine." I heard Dean commented from somewhere nearby, "Adjust. Relax. You're ok, okay?"

My breaths were still short as my eyes began adjusting to the dark room, pain surging throughout every inch of my body.

My throat was beyond dry and my skin was damp with with sweat, the cool air from the air conditioner overhead chilling me to the bone.

I attempted to recognize things as my eyes darted around the room. I could make out a chair near a window and a small couch as well. There was a small TV that hung on the wall.

I tried to move my head, only to find myself being restricted. When I attempt to raise my arm to figure out when was wrong, another surge of pain forced its way through my body.

"Woah now." I heard Dean comfort, "Take it easy there Sunshine. You can't just move around like that right now. You aren't ready."

My eyes darted to the sound of his voice and when they land on him I could immediately feel myself relax. Even relaxing a bit more at the sight of him gently holding my hand.

He smiled as I looked at him, "See? Told you I was here."

Maybe I was just in a daze but I remember him being taller than this. That is until I realize he's sitting in some sorta chair.

I made no haste to speak, but I simply closed my eyes and focused on my breathing.

There was a sound, but I keep my eyes closed until I hear her voice.

"Dean?" I heard my mothers voice ask in a concerned tone, "What on earth are you doing here? Does Roman know where you are? What's wrong with Nicole? Her heart rate is up. Did you do something? What happened?"

"No, no, no, I didn't do anything." Dean assured her, "She's awake."

"She's what?" I heard her ask immediately as the sound of heels quickly crossed the floor, "She hasn't..."

As my mother came into my sight, she immediately stopped talking, then covered her mouth with her hands and backed away one step, "You're awake."

She looked relieved, but that was an understatement. She looked like the world had been lifted off her shoulders.

"She's hurting a lot." Dean stated as he rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb.

My mother stood in astonishment for a moment before slightly nodding her head, "I-I'm going to get a nurse."

Dean made no comment as she quickly left the room, but he continued to hold my hand.

"She's gonna go get you some help." He assured me, "You're gonna be ok Sunshine. I promise."

Seconds later the door burst open. As promised, my mother had went to get a nurse, but one nurse turned out to be a 2 nurses and a doctor.

"Sir we're gonna need you to leave the room." The doctor ordered and I immediately wanted to object.

"Leave?" Dean commented, "But I think she needs me right now."

"Sir I'm sorry, but you have to go." The doctor pressed.

He stayed silent for a moment before turning in my direction, "I'll be right down the hall, you hear me?"

'Do not leave me right now!' I wanted to shout, but only a low grumble of words could even leave my mouth.

"It's gonna be ok." Dean tried to promise me but my head rate had immediately begun to spike again as he let my hand go, "Sunshine you gotta stay calm."

"Stand back." One of the nurses commented, and immediately blocked my view of Dean.

"Hey!" Dean shouted in an annoyed tone, then grunted, "I'm still here Sunshine. I'm just down the hall. I'm not leaving you here ok? Stay calm."

I wanted to listen to him but I couldn't. I couldn't calm down, not right now.

I needed Dean.

"Hold her still." I heard the doctor comment and soon felt a small sting on her arm.

"What's wrong?" I could hear my mother ask as my eyes began to get heavy.

"We need her calm." I heard someone say, "I don't need her getting too unstable."

But I wasn't unstable.

I just wanted Dean.