you know, when I first saw *him* I was like "holy shit, he looks handsome". I was expecting everything but what he actually looked like when *bestie* told me about him. But I didn't have feelings for him back then. Even when we went to play dodge ball and the times we went to play billiards I still didn't have feelings for him. But when we met the second time at *besties* WG about a month ago, something just klicked. I got to know him more and first I haven't even realised. But when he drove me home and asked if the food I had was really enough cause I haven't had much of it and the way he tried to keep the conversation going, I just felt like he truly wanted to talk to me and make sure I was comfortable on our ride. I realised I had feelings for him when I went to visit my grandma cause suddenly his smile hasn't left my brain anymore and I was thinking back at our drive all the time. At first I tried to ignore it but at some point I just had to accept that I fell for him. And it's just so fucked up that I didn't want this to happen (cause I'm not blind, I saw the way he treated her) but it still happened.

Ja keine Ahnung, fand's einfach voll schön, diesen Prozess von was völlig unerzwungenem mitzuerleben und jemanden erst als Menschen kennenzulernen und dann Gefühle zu entwickeln. Ich hab da jetzt auch nicht so krass viel zu zu sagen, ich hab das einfach meinem besten Freund so geschrieben, weil wir irgendwie grad bei dem Thema waren