*wanting to show your cosplay like*

So, I was tagged by hikohiroXharuhi and xxxLouxxxx (you better be happy, Tsundere boy)

Why are you doing the love me challenge

I got tagged, got nothing better to do, have the boy that loves trees nagging me to do it so yeah here I am

One positive word that describes you?

I'd say 'imaginative'

Write a letter to your past self

Hey buddie.
You can smile, it's alright. Like, really smile. Tell your dad to fuck off, at one point, you'll realize how indifferent he makes you feel and how much he doesn't care about you, it's alright, you have mom. Your godmother, I know you love her more than your own life but don't listen to her, she's just trying to make you sad and get you down, as well as your mom. You can love her, it's okay but keep your head cool, guard up and think rationnaly. Your mom, listen to her. I know it's hard between you two, I know she can get .. kinda angry sometimes, but she does all of this because she cares and because, let's face it, you're a crying bitch. She had a hard life, you know it, yet she did everything for you. Try to think about that before saying anything or go against her. Thé only thing I regret in my life and I mean ONLY THING, is how I acted towards her. Even if you want to say thanks to your best friend, you don't need to, you'll give her back what she gave you later, and tbh, the 'thanks' she says to me pisses me off. I'm here for her because that's how it works and I'm sure she feels the same way. Don't say stuff to people you don't trust just because you feel like it's how you create friendship. It's not. You create friendship first. Oh and, being in a relationship doesn't mean you have to give total trust, a bit is fine, cheaters and murderers are everywhere. And relationship don't always last forever. You're sick Pauline. You really are. But keep trying, you'll be fine. I don't like you the way you are because of how bad you did. So it's okay. I love myself now but it's gonna be pure hell, nothing more, nothing else, get through it. Keep going. Try controling your sickness, your emotions mostly. Have dreams and keep trying to make them true. Things happen and your mom will trust you. Just not right now, 'cause you're not worth it. Totally not. You don't realize it, but she knows. Mothers know best and yours more than anyone else. And family can be shitty persons. Wheter they are by blood or by choice. You know who I'm talking about. I know you think they are the best. They aren't. And stop thinking you are misérable compared to them, it's false. You did and still are doing bad things, but the same goes for them. Your errors are just more flashy, you just need attention but it's alright, everyone wants it. Everything will get better but before that, it'll have to get worse. Go back to your feet and don't hide away from your sickness, fight it. You might think, "But I am not sick". I'm talking about mental illness Pauline. It won't go away but you'll control it.
I love you for the errors you're making. It helped me loving myself.
Thank you
Stay strong
Pauline.

Write a note to your future self

YO YOU FREAKING BITCH
How's life doing?
Are you still acting like a mom towards your bff? Think about you too! I know we tend to be too kind but come on, you need to think about yourself.
How's mom doing? Is she happy now? Is she proud of us yet? I know we made her proud, she will be as long as we do what we want to and are happy. That's just how great of a mom she is.
Please, tell me dad is dead. I know it's bad to ask the death of someone but oh well
Are you in Japan? 'Cause like, you're supposed to. Be happy there and enjoy! Just try to be a French teacher as soon as possible, mom can't give you money forever! And your sciences sociales degree in Belgium won't help you there!
I hope you didn't let people drag you down or abandon some dreams to stay with some friends or even a lover, did you? 'Cause that's not how we works gurl! A queen accomplish her dreams without looking back at what she leaves behind!
Oh and don't forget: poor and happy > rich and sad.
I love you.
I hope you still know how to handle your sickness.
LIVE THE WAY YOU WANT TO YOU BITCHY QUEEN! EMBARASS YOURSELF AS MUCH AS YOU CAN, REGRET THINGS, GET ALWAYS BACK TO YOUR FEET AND PUT YOUR DAMN CHIN UP, YOU COME FROM A LONG WAY
Thank you for everything,
Pauline.

What is an object of yours that you love

My phone I guess? Oh and that pen my ex-boyfriend's grandpa gave me before he died. He treated me like his own grand-daughter even after we broke up. What a great man he was.

What os your quote about beauty.

Someone can really be beautifull only once they start liking themselves.

What ks a fear you overcome

Thé fear if being alone. I've realised being alone has its avantages too now. Lonely and alone are two different things boys and girls!
Dentist still scare me tho

What is something you like about yourself

On the inside: I like how I can be a real child sometimes, be impressionned by everything I see or laugh about everything and other times I can be the most mature person you'll ever know
On the outside: my damn legs boi

What is something that makes you beautiful

How open minded I am.
I would treat you like my equal even if you killed someone or tried to killed me for that matter
And the fact that I now love myself and I always -And I mean always- do what I think is right to do

What is something you like to wear

Everything that can be use as pyjamas.
Oh and my BTS t-shirt as well as my anime t-shirts. I'm such a weeb.

What makes you unique?

Thé way I think as well as my imagination maybe?

What makes you happy?

Life. As cheeky as it sounds. It's because I'm living that I can feel, eat, think, discover new things, travel, dream, have friends, have good times and it goes on and on ..

What makes you beautifull?

Sorreh I stop listening to one direction.
No joke tho, the fact that I'm unique?

Tag 15 people

*Crack my fingers* now that's the fun part

CinderHalo
ExtremexWritingQueen
mroue15
potatoejung_
NagisaDragneel
jongindreams-
MmeZaynMalik12
Neko-Niko-San-Neiko
myotpisabsolute
Demon Kit

I'll stop here, sorry for those of you who I tagged randomly without knowing them btw