It's 7:30pm more or less rn

He literally says I can't go upstairs til it's fuckin 9pm at the earliest

I'm so fuckin tired and emotional and I'm almost in tears

Like literally I feel the normal sign of crying other than my throat closing up

I,  luckily,  know how to cry both silently and keep a straight face

But ig this is the day my body decided to break down

So I'm both extremely fuckin tired so that I have to force myself to fuckin stay awake, 1 hour and 30 minutes

Also have to deal with something that I can't fuckin control

And throughout this stop myself from breaking down til I'm alone and sob quietly into some thing

Yknow I wasn't even gonna break down til he fucking added to my fucking time

It was after dinner

NOW I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER HOUR AND A GODDAMN HALF

ISTG I WANT TO STRANGLE HIM

JM so fucking tired and I need to fucking cry

I don't even have an appetite to eat and in they will force the food down my throat one way or another

Fuckin hell I'm so upset and sleepy

Thanks for listening