Uh
So

Lmao

Uh, in grades 4-7 I barely ate and barely spoke, only spoke when i was talked to basically
I still am that way and even if its online courses i try my darndest to keepy mic muted and stay quiet
Even if its typing in the chat
I just hate drawing attention to myself
Anyway, so

For food i literally ate at lunch a bit -- yknow whatevers edible and not wasted -- and at home, sure it was a little bit but i still ate

I was skinny then and I didn't really care about my weight -- plus i never got hungry enough

So, one day, my stupid ass decided to eat a bit more than usual

So that day, ig ppl finally saw i was malnurished

I dont think they completely realised it was of my own accord lol
Either way, so they called my parents

Or, at least, the principal called for a meeting

Now, i was really apathetic then -- though not as much as i am now (just enough where it basically drove off any "threats" -- so i was vaguely like "wait, did i do something?" Then dropped it

So meeting came, my mom goes "so what happened?"

The principal dismissed her and simply stated i looked malnurished as thats obviously a concern for growing students

...ever since then now my parents have been hounding me to eat one meal a day

Even before then, i could never skip out on meals

They just made me eat more bc at the time i didn't really speak much even irl

Like most of my interactions went like this;

Mom: [Real Name]?

Me: *looks up and briefly shows I'm acknowledging her -- usually by blinking a bit slowly-*

Mom: *says what she wants or something*

And uh before like the whole principal thing she didn't really care all that much? Like as long as i was eating it was cool since she's hyper aware of anyone trying to starve themselves

But uh yeah

Im saying this bc I'm reading a story about a malnurished deku thats also a vigilante and its basically an all in one angst deku au but add muteness (in school) and literally no emotion plus add a spice of vigilante (and general ed deku)

Also he's got a quirk that heals life threatening injuries so he basically cant die til hes an old man lol

It inspired me to write abt my experience

Tbh I'm still particially malnurished bc i literally have to think if i want to eat

And my family has to remind me

I have literally like zero instincts ._.

Or, if I do, they don't register correctly

Lmao-

My father's the same way tbh so-

On that note

Me and father had a nice chat today
And i decided as a grandma I'd like to go by nana

And he'd already decided that when I get older and married n all that shit when me and my spouse -- he said husband bc he strongly believes im heterosexual -- have kids he'd want to go by papa

Plus Nana just sounds old and wise -- as well as papa

I legit don't remember my grandparents -- other than my rude ass ex abusive one to my dad and consequently hates me and my brother along with my mother
Won't dive deep into it bc thats a train wreck

Well, goodnight

I tried to sleep tonight at 9pm but uh i only daydreamed pretty much til 12

I just KNEW i was awake

It didnt feel that way but i was most definitely awake so therefore my dreams if you call them that are simply daydreams

Have a nice day!
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