So almost a year ago my sister posted something on facebook about me and I think its time for me to share it with you guys.. now here is how its going to go.. I am going to have the pictures of the post first then im going to type it out that way you dont have to read the images.. here we go..

what it says

I've been working on this for a few days now, sorry for the late post

So I am a college student amd I go to college about five hours away and as soon as i walk out the door my little sister texted me this "I really want to see you one last time this weekend because the next time i will be in a crap load of pain. I dont like you seeing me in pain. I always think that im your tough little sister and the only thing keeping me that way is you. So please drop by soon. I know I dont say these words often but i love your pathetic self so darn much!"
Now while try not to laugh at the last sentence of that message  it almost put me in tears because that is the harsh truth of having a sister with severe health problems. A few months ago I went to her yearly check up with her and she looked at her docter and said "I dont care how many surgeries i have to have or what you have to do I'm just sick of people making fun of me." Me and my dad sat there and tried to hold back the tears and stay strong.

Put your tounge on the roof of your mouth. Do you feel that hard palate there that makes it easy for you to talk. Think about if you didnt have that. Think about if you had a hole in the top of your mouth . Think about how hard it would be to talk. to eat. to breathe right. From growing up with my sister I can tell you that it is pretty difficult not for only her, but for her family. We all were around hospitals for a good three years straight, missed school, holidays, and birthdays from the ICU to the ambulances to the operating room's.

Is this sad to think that my sister is willing to be in as much pain as possible just so little bratty kids will not make fun of her? It's horrible. It really is.

We live across the nicest playground in the area. It's a hotspot for the kids. I cannot tell you how many times my sister has came home in tears so bad she can barely catch her breath because of a kid making fun of her. Or how many times me or my dad have had to walk over and talk to parents or the kid on how to be a nice person and keep comments to themselves. My sister has speech problems, hard for her to say certian words and is often difficult for her to be understood. And she is made fun of something that is way out of her control.
THAT IS the problem. Right there. Why should we have to walk across the street  and tell the kids. Not even only kids. Teenagers also. Maybe i am over exaggerating. But my heart is sad and heavy.

People need to be more educated on special needs children. SCHOOLS need to educate on being different, diversity, being unique. And maybe that "no tollerance for bullying" that i can tell you is SHIT, because i've been bullied to the point where I wanted to end my own life and all they did was send me home for "mental health". Kids are horrible. Parents are horrible teenagers are horrible.

Good thing my sister had a big heart and is willing to put up with all the shit she goes through. But the next question is, why should she have to go through it? I know life isnt easy. But seriously Im still lost at where the guidelines are for bullying and where all the education is for these certain types of children.

Today i completed 6 HOURS OF TRAINING for my new job working with special needs children and I think that it needs to expand to not only teachers and workers, but how about the society. Because its not just my sister thats crying and i can promise you that. And thats a problem. A big problem. Why cant we realize. And accept.

Something needs to be done.I came from a great community and loving friends and family. It's upsetting and devastating to not only my family but many others. Sit your kids down and talk to them. Have more assemblies at schools and talk about these  things that go on. Follow the no bullying guidelines you have in place. My 13 year old sister should not be scared to read in class and have to come home in tears, and no other child should endure pain because they are different or unique. This world is sick.
Rant over.

Now there were some parts that she left out that she didnt know herself.. like anxiety. My dad says i have a little anxiety and that its not as bad as hers.. but its more then a little anxiety. Since i have a hole in the roof of my mouth.. most of my anxiety happens over food.. mostly pasta noodles. Also im in choir and since im going into 8th grade and my school makes sure that solos are in every consert.. i get scared to audition for them.. also in band im in percussion because i am unable to do wind instruments.

Now i would love to give some honorable mentions who have helped me tjese past few months..

blottie_forever - my RP buddy/ best friend

Little_Jacquelyn - overprotective best friend/ younger sister figure

Cherry16123 - also overprotective best friend/ younger sister figure

Everyone on the YoutubeWierdo account

Scar_Smith - supportive irl best friend and older sister figure

My dog.. look at this photo i found of him when he was a PUPPER!!

HES SO TINYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! AHH! i love him.

Also to Jessica B/ Aphmau for helping me by making funny videos.