PS: the edit's made by me.

↳ 「Genre: Emotional, finding happiness」

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✩ Jungkook being hopeless makes a decision.

Will that decision ruin him? ✩

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Jungkook's p.o.v.

I couldn't breathe.

I was drowning beneath the waves.

Darkness engulfing me like slow bunny steps.

I knew it was over. My arms and legs felt tired, and I wasn't trying to save myself, sinking deeper into the depths.

When out of nowhere a hand held my forearm, pulling me away from the obscurity. I felt a hand wrapping around my waist. I couldn't react, didn't have the energy to.

I was drawn out towards the light, feeling the sun shining above me, but it wasn't the only thing providing me warmth. I was laid down on a scorched surface, feeling grizzled sand against my toes.

I felt someone patting my cold cheeks, the touch was exquisite which soon changed to something stronger, but still maintaining the delicacy. Hearing a deep echo in the background, I tried focusing on it, the voice sounded breathless.

Soon enough, I felt hands resting on my stomach, pushing it inwards that led to opening my chest, the salty water springing out of my mouth with every push. My chest felt light, but the heaviness still surfacing, making it difficult to breathe.

I couldn't open my eyes, wasn't able to, didn't want to. When suddenly, my lips contacted with a tender, petal soft touch. Air being blown into my mouth, a palm resting on my cheek and the other still pressing my stomach lightly. The touch never felt before, so lavish and savouring. It felt almost incomplete when the touch disappeared, but I sighed mentally in comfort when it came back.

Eventually, it became bearable to breathe without my chest tightening. I flutter opened my eyes in a slow pace as my eyelids felt tired. When my vision cleared, I saw the bright solar rays that immediately made me shriek my eyes close due to the flash.

I opened them again and saw a set of blonde hair really close to my face. The tender touch against my lips making the surreal feeling known once more. Am I hallucinating? My mouth was on someone's mouth, both of ours lip parted and air being transferred into my mouth.

I lifted my right hand and touched the dishevelled blonde locks to see if it was real, turns out the touch was true.

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Third person p.o.v.

The brunette lifted his head when he felt a hand touching his hair. He sighed in utter relief when he saw the raven head's chocolate brown orbs open. Inhaling a deep breath he retreated his hands and pushed his wet locks back. While Jungkook was still in a trance.

Did I die already? Am I in heaven?

He kept staring at the brunette who was wearing a plain white T-shirt with baggy brown pants, the way he pushed his hair back, closing his black orbs, his lips parted and wet.

Is it really heaven? Am I finally free from the burdening life?

"Are you alright?" The brunette asked, holding Jungkook's arm and supporting his back in order to make him sit.

Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows. He looked at the surrounding and saw the same beach where he decided to give up on his life. Staring at oblivion, he finally sensed the reality, jerking his hand away from the brunette's hold. He darkly stared at him.

"Hey, are you okay? What am I even asking, of course you're not okay. Is it still difficult to breathe? And what the hell were you doing in the sea, you could've died if I —-." He stopped in between when he got interrupted by the ravenette's cold voice.

"Who are you? Why did you save me?" He asked darkly, voice a bit hoarse.

"I'm Taehyung. And dude are you okay? What do you mean 'why did you save me?' Do you have a desire to die or something?" Taehyung snorted at the end with a eye roll, but his eyes widened at his own words and looked at the ravenette in disbelief.

"Don't tell me you tried to drown yourself!" Taehyung exclaimed, his eyes still wide and jaw dropping.

"It shouldn't matter to you, even if I did." Jungkook stated with a burning glare holding his knee for support to stand up.

Taehyung just stared at his back watching him tipsily walk towards the sea, his senses alerted when he realised what Jungkook was trying to do. He ran up to him, pulling him by his forearm making both of them fall on the shore, calm waves softly touching them.

"What the hell!" Jungkook cursed when his back came in contact with the wet sand. He sharply stared at Taehyung who was in the same position beside him. So they were facing each other.

Their breaths hitched when they saw each other's orbs. Jungkook's hooded eyes were blood red but still held the softness while Taehyung's doe eyes turned an alluring, ocean blue colour.

'Mate' their wolves howled in utter joy and happiness.

Tears formed in Taehyung's beautiful eyes when he realised that he was so close to losing his mate, he had waited so long for his other half and seeing him in a state where he wants to give up, makes his heart shatter. While Jungkook was stunned, he never believed he'd have a mate, it was nearly impossible to find them, but seeing his destined mate in front of him left him breathless and confused.

Just when he decided to be free from this hellish life, he'd been given another responsibility, another reason to stay. He doesn't want it, he just wants to be at peace, be free from the whole abstract of life.

Jungkook's wolf was numb due to the near death experience that revived just now because of the warmth his mate was providing, his fated partner. His wolf, who almost left him because of the dejection a few moments ago is now elated. And Jungkook is just, puzzled.

"W-Why did you—?" Taehyung's voice wavered as he broke the heart-wrenching silence, wanting to know what was eating his mate, his trueblood alpha alive.

The trueblood understood what his mate wanted to know, he knew it was his obligation to look after his mate who was a fragile omega, he knew it all, but he just can't. He doesn't have the willpower to stay longer.

Jungkook got up from the lying position and sat up bringing his knees close to his chest, looking nowhere in particular, just staring at the emerald ocean. Taehyung followed his action, his eyes vulnerably looking at his mate trying to find the answers.

"I'm s-sorry, but I...I can't be with you." Jungkook's voice cracked as he said those words. It's been moments he found his mate, but just the thought of drifting away from his omega crushed him even more.

Oh, how he wished to have met his mate in different circumstances, where he would give all the love stored inside his churning heart to him, cherish him, feel the affection and feel him.

How he wished to have a good reason to continue breathing.

Taehyung let a lonely tear fall from his eye, he'd reject him, won't he? He felt pathetic for not being able to say a word, his mind was filled with thousands of thoughts but at the same time it was blank. He wanted to help his mate, take all his miseries away, but can he? He doesn't even know him.

The mate pull wasn't making it easy either, their wolves were crying in agony at the possible separation. Both mates felt each other's melancholy through the mate bond, making them feel hopeless.

"Why? I deserve to k-know the reason a-at least." Taehyung closed his eyes trying to hold his tears, his voice barely audible.

Jungkook hesitated to reply but nodded nonetheless. After all, he owed an explanation to him. He took a deep breath, still not looking at the brunette because he's scared that those orbs would stare into his soul, finding the answers he doesn't want to say.

He took a deep breath, subtly glancing at Taehyung, his eyes held the same pain he was holding.

"I'm Jeon Jungkook." The ravenette started. "Alpha of the Crescent Moon pack. A month before, I, my parents and younger sister went on a vacation to some hilly area. While we were returning, a huge rock rolled down making the car lose control. I went into coma for two weeks, a-and when I woke up, their f-funeral was already done, none of them s-survived." Jungkook breathed heavily, tears were already gathered in his eyes begging to fall.

Taehyung covered his mouth to stop himself from letting out a sob, he's an omega, overly sensitive, hearing his mate's broken voice telling him about his tragic loss made his chest hurt. But, what he said next made the omega to gasp out loud.

"I was driving the car."

Jungkook added, his face blank, but his eyes held an immense amount of hurt and guilt. Tears were rolling down his cheeks, it was clear the trueblood was restraining himself from projecting his emotions on his face, but he knew he was failing miserably.

"Why did I not die along with them? I can't live knowing I k-killed my family. Their faces, their memories h-haunt me. I'm dying every moment because of this guilt. The responsibility of my pack is so burdening , how can I handle the pack when I can't handle my pathetic self?" Jungkook wailed, frustratedly pulling his hair.

Taehyung didn't know what to say, he can't even measure the amount of pain his alpha was going through, all he could do was grab his mate's cold hands and soothe his knuckles, feeling tingles shoot through his entire body.

"It-It wasn't your fault, there was nothing you could've done to stop the rock from falling." Taehyung tried reasoning while the ravenette laughed bitterly.

"I'm a werewolf, a trueblood at that. If only I paid attention to my instincts, maybe they wouldn't have died." Jungkook replied, eyes showing hatred for his own self.

"You can't predict what's gonna happen next, feeling guilty or giving up on your life is never the solution." Taehyung empathised, squeezing Jungkook's hands lightly.

"You don't know how hollow it feels from within when I walk into the empty house which once was home, to never have your mom cook for you again, to sit on the position where my dad used to sit without his blessings, to never have my sister who I used to rely on. You d-don't know it." Jungkook said finally breaking down.

Taehyung swallowed the lump that formed in his throat, he gently moved closer and embraced the other in a warm hug, stroking his hair with one hand. He couldn't stop the tears that fell from his eyes unstoppably.

"You don't know how it feels to be the reason your family fell apart." Jungkook croaked hiding his face in the other's shoulder but still not hugging him back.

"Don't think that way Jungkook, it's your fate that you're alive. Your family wouldn't be happy seeing you in this condition from wherever they are." Taehyung reasoned.

"You don't know that! They'd probably be blaming me." Jungkook cried on his shoulder.

"Would you have blamed your dad if he was the one driving the car?" Taehyung softly asked while the other stayed silent.

"Suicide is not the option kook, if you're alive then you're worth this life." He added.

"They were worth living too." Jungkook whispered his voice faltering.

"They were. But think of them as angels who were sent to make you the person you are today. Just because they're not here in person doesn't mean their souls doesn't look after you anymore. They're still here, in your heart." Taehyung comfortingly said.

Jungkook sniffed as he pulled away and again sat in the position he was sitting in before, internally fighting his demons.

"You deserve to live kook." Taehyung stated.

"I don't deserve anything. Not this life, not this power, not you. I don't, I just d-don't!" Jungkook weakly stammered.

"No, You deserve to be happy, to live, to take what's yours and you deserve me." Taehyung subtly choked while jungkook just shook his head, hiding his face in his palms as he bawled.

"You said their memories haunt you right? Don't let them haunt you, treasure them, cherish them as much as you can. Don't hate those memories, love them and learn to forgive yourself." Taehyung lifted Jungkook's face and softly stared at him, both having inner conflicts, their eyes red from crying.

"Live for them kook, prove that they raised you right to make correct decisions for yourself. Let me help you" Taehyung pleaded, broken-hearted .

"I d-don't feel like breathing a-anymore, this life seems borrowed. P-Please help me, h-hold me, please." Jungkook helplessly begged.

"I will, don't worry." Taehyung gladly agreed as he kissed his forehead, tears falling from his eyes, but of relief this time. "I will."

Jungkook threw his arms around the brunette, seeking for comfort as he dived into his mate's neck, nosing his scent gland to find some solace. Taehyung assuringly rubbed circles on his back while his other hand stroked his hair. Both fit perfectly in each other's arms, the sound of their harmonising heartbeats comforting them in unpredictable ways. Their half soaked bodies melting into each other's warmth, both having a sense of safety.

The crimson, orange hues dives closer and closer to the flowing green ocean, finally beginning to sink below, and into the emerald horizon. The waves crashed and danced along the shore gracefully, as if they were tasting the sand.

Although the hug didn't heal Jungkook, it made him feel a sense of support, which was all he needed in the forlorn world.

❝Because at the end of the day, we're all broken crayons...waiting for an artist, who grips it well.❞

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5 years later

"Kook stop!" The male giggled as his excited mate kept nuzzling and pecking his nape again and again from back, making him feel ticklish and giddy.

The ravenette chuckled and placed his chin on top of Taehyung's shoulder, sighing in content as his eyes held a bright twinkle, gazing at the enchanting beauty, his husband.

He pecked his cheek softly before smashing their cheeks with each other as Taehyung let out a giggle at the adorable action, while Jungkook tightened his hold around the brunette's stomach, his cheeks hurting due to smiling so big. Gentle ocean breeze rustling through their hair, pleasing them.

Jungkook looked at the scenery in front of him, pastel coloured hues blended in the baby blue sky giving it a pinkish tint, the hazy sunset glow rested upon the quiet beach causing a peaceful and almost a lazy effect while the sound of crashing waves echoed like a loud thunder in a storm.

The view reminded him of the time when he wanted to quit living, but now when he looks back, it's like he found life the same day too. How fast things have changed, the ravenette who once had no reason to breathe, is breathing in the lavishness of his mate's scent, having enough reasons to live a whole lifetime.

In the past five years, Taehyung was like a remedy that made his heart beat, a reminder that he's worth it all, a melody that he lives every day without getting bored. Taehyung didn't fix him, instead, he made him learn how to fix his own cracks, how to respond to life, that gradually filled a room for self-love in his heart.

His nightmares soon turned into wonderful dreams without him realising it, as if it all happened in a snap. He remembers how lovingly Taehyung used to comfort him, never finding the big trueblood alpha pathetic for his weakness.

He remembers how much he made the brunette suffer with his late night breakdowns, frightening nightmares and heart-wrenching memories. But, what he cherishes about the horrible past is, his mate, who never let him feel lonely in the journey from self-hate to self-love.

Flashback

Taehyung rushed to Jungkook's room after he heard loud sobs and thrashing sounds. As he went in, he saw Jungkook lying on the bed, blanket thrown on the floor as he wriggle in his sleep, beads of sweat forming on his forehead.

"Hey, Kookie? open you eyes, kook." Taehyung panically said as he tapped the ravenette's cheeks that were soaked in sweat.

"It's just a bad dream, no one's harming you." He comforted as he kept patting his cheeks trying to wake him up.

After few more trials, Jungkook's eyes shot open, fear visible in them as tears roll down his eyes mercilessly. Sensing a presence near him, he curled himself into a ball, hiding his face into the pillow.

"Leave m-me, I'll h-hurt you t-too. L-Leave." Jungkook pleaded with a cracked voice.

"You won't hurt me kookie, you're not gonna hurt anyone." Teahyung assured as he rubbed his back from his sitting position.

"No! I'm a m-monster, I'll k-kill you t-too!" He shouted as he bawled tugging at his hair.

"You're not a monster kookie, you'd never be one." Teahyung corrected, ducking his face down to come face to face with the ravenette, removing the pillow from his hold, so now jungkook was looking at him with an uncertain look.

It's one of his almost regular episodes where he sees himself hurting him family in different scenarios. It's been three weeks since jungkook was staying with taehyung in his apartment as he didn't want to return to the pack house fearing the memories, that nonetheless find a way to haunt him.

Needless to say, taehyung was having a lack of sleep that made him tired and moody, but he still tried comforting his mate knowing he was suffering way more.

"You won't harm anyone, trust me." The ravenette stared at him before moving a little closer, now curling up to Taehyung's body. The brunette could've cooed at the sight of the trueblood looking like an adorable baby bun, if it wasn't for the lack of sleep that was drowning him.

Other days, he'd just leave the ravenette after making him go back to sleep, not wanting to make him feel uncomfortable when he wakes up the next day, but today he just collected jungkook in his arms, drifting to a peaceful sleep.

Surprisingly, jungkook didn't wake up again that night, he slept calmly, for once in many days.

When he woke up being wrapped in someone's arms, he panicked but soon pacified when he felt his omega. He simply stared at him with a blank expression before moving closer and shutting his eyes again.

Since then, the ravenette started going to taehyung's room at midnight, thinking the omega was asleep, he used to wrap his arm around his waist, ducking his head into his chest, not wanting to see those horrific episodes again, and left early morning before the brunette woke up. Unaware that taehyung used to smile to himself every night feeling his mate close to him.

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Needless to say, the ravenette was so embarrassed when he discovered, that the omega was aware of his actions after almost seven months, but still continued to sleep in his arms.

He remembers how he used to be so difficult when Taehyung tried to feed him. The memory that never fails to make him chuckle.

Flashback

"Kookie please have some, you haven't been taking proper meals since forever." Taehyung insisted as he sighed defeatedly. It's been two months of them living together, and the trueblood has turned skinny then he already was because of not taking proper nutrients and medication that was recommended to him.

"No" Jungkook's go-to answer. He was sitting on the couch, zoning out as always, refusing to even pay attention to what Taehyung was saying.

Taehyung bit his cheeks to hold the bubbling anger because his mate is just ruining himself more. He took a deep breath and sat next to the ravenette, plate of pancakes in his hand.

He shook the other a little by holding his forearm, causing the ravenette to divert his attention to him.

The brunette didn't say anything and just positioned the fork in front of the ravenette's mouth with a piece of pancake on it. Jungkook shook his head with a blank face which made Taehyung to grit his teeth.

"Eat it." He said sternly.

"No." He answered nonchalantly.

"Okay then, I also won't eat." Jungkook just shrugged as Taehyung harshly placed the fork in the plate, leaving it on the table.

It was evening time when Jungkook noticed that Taehyung hasn't offered him to eat the whole day, or entered the kitchen to cook anything. But he just shrugged, yet again.

Next morning, Jungkook was feeling a bit guilty when he realised that taehyung didn't eat for a whole day because of his stubbornness.

He was guilty enough to take burden of more on his shoulders, so he, swallowing his bitchy remorse, went to the kitchen and reheated the food, placing them in one dish before going to his omega's room.

Jungkook subtly placed the plate on the bed, biting his lip contemplating to just leave.

"What are you doing here?" Taehyung asked a bit surprised as Jungkook never entered his room in his sober state, but only when he has nightmare at night.

Then he noticed the dish sitting on the bed, making his mouth agape. He smiled but again plastered a blank face as he wanted to give the ravenette a taste of his own medicine.

"I'm not hungry." He stubbornly said.

"You haven't ate for a whole day." Jungkook objected with a frown.

"Doesn't matter." He replied, not paying attention to Jungkook and just scrolling through his phone.

With a frowning face, jungkook walked closer to the bed, and shoved a spoonful of pancake in his mouth, making him choke a little, but he could care less.

"What the hell!" He exclaimed after swallowing the bite.

"Eat it before I shove it down your throat again." Trueblood muttered as he held the spoon, making the amused brunette roll his eyes.

Teahyung snatched the spoon and pushed it in the ravenette's mouth before he could protest.

"Same goes for you." He innocently smiled, making the ravenette huff subtly.

That's how Taehyung was finally succeed to make his bitchy bunny have proper meals every single day from that day ahead.

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Jungkook finally let go of the guilt that used to tear him apart every second of his existence after many dreadful nights and painful conversations with Taehyung, who sacrificed his sleep and meals often for him, while still wearing a comforting smile.

Jungkook knew he couldn't bring back who're gone but at least cherish what the moon goddess gifted him with, he didn't want to lose someone else who became dear to him with the course of time. He didn't want to be too late that he loses the place he might have in his mate's heart.

But one thing he was sure of was, that he would've loved taehyung with or without the mate bond. Yes, he fell in love with him, without him knowing. After one year and seven months, the nightmare seemed to fade away, being replaced by moments that instilled butterflies in his stomach.

So he proposed.

Flashback

"Kook I'm tired, where are you taking me?" Taehyung whined as he dragged his feet on the slope of a hill.

"Somewhere." Jungkook replied while wearing a cheeky smile o his face that amused the omega a bit.

"What's wrong with you, why are you all smiley today?" Taehyung asked with a smile that naturally made way to his lips.

"Doesn't it look good on me?" Jungkook asked with a fake pout and frown.

"It does, smile often for me." Taehyung genuinely answered, loving the shining eyes of his mate.

"We're here." The ravenette announced when they reached the hill, as his eyes roamed around the place. While, taehyung was taking deep breaths, his hands on his knees as he was so exhausted after walking for almost forty-five minutes.

"You know, we could've driven here, rather than walking." Taehyung complained, while jungkook just shook his head, looking at his omega lovingly.

He went closer to the brunette, helping him stand properly by supporting his shoulders, before lifting his one hand to his neck as he caressed it gently, shocking the omega, whose breath hitched in his throat. The ravenette's other hand went to his waist.

Jungkook gulped before closing the distance between them, lips brushing over taehyung's, their breaths fanning against each other. Taehyung couldn't react, he was too stunned by the unexpected move, almost thinking of it being a dream.

The trueblood lifted his eyes that were stuck on his mate's lips, now gazing at his orbs while still maintaining the intimacy. The omega could see the hesitancy present in jungkook's eyes, feeling high, he grabbed the other's collar, breathing heavily as he pulled him a bit closer, but still not connecting their lips, the action gesturing the trueblood to do the deed.

Jungkook without any further ado, connected their lips in a gentle but passionate kiss, both closed their eyes in bliss, forehead and nose touching as they started to move their lips slowly. Taehyung's hand slid to his mate's nape, while jungkook's hand roamed around his back.

The both could feel their closed eyes turning teary, as it was their first kiss. The last time their lips touched was ages back when taehyung performed CPR on Jungkook. But this one was way different, as it wasn't just a mere touch but their feelings too, the unsaid being told.

They pulled back after a while, arms still tightly wrapped around each other as they stared into one another's eyes, forehead pressed together as they breathed heavily.

Jungkook turned his eyes to somewhere else as he pointed in a particular direction, taehyung's eyes followed him, now staring at a random narrow roadway on the hill, furrowing his eyebrows as he looked at his mate uncertainly.

"This is where they died." Jungkook told, making taehyung bite his lip in anxiety.

"Koo—" taehyung started, but the raven head stopped him by placing his finger on his wet lips.

"I'm not breaking down today, don't worry." He assured the other with a small smile, the brunette nodded unsure.

"This place changed a lot of things for me, in a bad way." He began, now looking at taehyung's moist orbs again.

"But I don't want this place to be an end of something bad, I don't want to hate the place where I spent the last memorable moments with my family, but start a new life with my only family now. I want this place to be a start of something beautiful, with you." Taehyung let out a sob, tears falling down his eyes as his grip on jungkook's shoulders tightened.

"I love you tae." Jungkook confessed as fresh salty droplets streamed down his eyes, this time the tears were not of misery, but relief of finally letting go of all the burden and a hope to start afresh with his beloved mate.

Taehyung couldn't stop his tears, his mate loves him, he doesn't know what to do, he wants to dance and laugh in joy, but he can't stop these tears. So he pressed his face in jungkook's chest while sobbing and whispered a faint
"I l-love you so m-much" while hiccuping.

Jungkook laughed with tears streaming down his face, he lifted his omega's chin and kissed him deeply, tasting saltiness but the amount of love poured into the kiss dominated it. The touch was so pure, like one was the rain cloud and the other was the thunderstorm.

That day marked the beginning of their eternal love. Under the starlight, their story started to breathe.

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Unknown to him, his omega fixed him. Now he smiles showcasing his bunny teeth, an action he never thought he was capable of doing again.

The pack house he abandoned, was once again a place where he could reminisce his childhood memories without feeling tears stream down his face. Smiling towards his family picture before going to start his own family. Yes, he took over the Alpha position, ruling it alongside with his Luna.

They made love and marked each other after six months of the confession. The sense of feeling each other from so close made them moan in ecstasy. And since then, it just takes one look to turn them on.

Even now, standing in each other's arms, in front of the ocean makes them feel things. Taehyung turned towards him, wrapping his arms around his mate's neck as he kissed him, knowing what the other was thinking. Jungkook smiled in the kiss, he loves it when taehyung initiates the kisses.

"You're my oxygen." Jungkook cheekily whispered as taehyung laughed at his cheesy mate while shaking his head.

Jungkook touched his belly and crouched down a bit to peck it.

"How's my princess doing?" He asked in a baby voice.

"Your Princess is doing well." Taehyung answered in a baby voice too, the voice of laughter filling their ears.

So, the omega is four months pregnant, his soft baby tummy showing, that the trueblood talked with for hours, never failing to make his mate coo at the sight.

The ravenette felt so complete, drowning into his mate's beauty. He feels like a kid when they're together, it's like the whole world is spinning backwards, and they're just falling dizzy with laughter into love.

The love he has for his alluring omega, outlasts this beach, this ocean and this whole planet. Whenever the judgement would fall, he'd just take him along, back to heaven, he promised when he marked him.

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