[taeseok] [angst] [2.5k words]

— where taehyung has a rare disorder that his boyfriend doesn't know of —

warnings : xeroderma pigmentosum (a genetic disorder in which one is highly sensitive to the sun), curse words, major character death

inspired by the movie "midnight sun"
—-> watch it guys, it's really good, i fucking cried. then again, i'm really REALLY emotional ((:

MY LIGHT

the boy smiles softly as his eyes sparkle with happiness from seeing his boyfriend.
he giggles softly when he feels the fingers of his lover tickling his sides.
the older smiles fondly at the boy in his arms.

the chestnut brown locks of the boy looks soft and it's fluffy to the touch.
his doe eyes shining ever so brightly showing childlike innocence and a hint of playfulness.

the soft features on his face glows beautiful from the moonlight that seeps onto his room through the window covered with the baby blue translucent curtains.

"n-no! h-hyungie!" tae giggles, wiggling around in his boyfriend's devil fingers.

hoseok smiles fondly and stops, he then leans down and captures tae's lips in a sweet kiss.
all emotions of love and passion overflow from just that one kiss as they smile throughout.

tae pulls away with his cheeks dusted with a light pink and his lips in a soft smile.
the ravenette pecks his lips once more before laying down beside the younger.

the couple were engulfed by comfortable silence of hoseok rubbing soft patterns on tae's slim waist and tae listening to his lover's prominent heartbeat that beats only for him.

"you're so cute plum." hoseok whispers, patting tae's ass lightly causing him to blush.

tae giggles and snuggles closer, wrapping the blanket around them and falling asleep.
the older smiles.

"i love you so much sunshine."

"i love you too hobi."

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"you've got to tell him! what the fuck tae? you've been together for like – what five months, almost half a year. and you haven't told him?" yoongi snaps, glaring at his best friend who's currently staring at him.

tae's eyes water, his bottom lip quivers and the boy begins to fiddle with his sweater paws.
yoongi sighs and curses himself for making the younger cry and pulls him into a hug.

"i'm sorry taebear. i'm just worried. he, of all people, should know baby." yoongi explains, placing a soft kiss on the boy's forehead.

"i-i'm s-s-scared yoonie." tae looks up at his beat friend, his eyes glistening with tears.

"of what baby?" yoongi coos.

"h-him l-leaving me. w-w-what i-if he j-judges me? w-what i-if h-he-" tae gets cut off by yoongi shushing him.

"if hoseok truly loves you, he wouldn't leave. he would love you for who you are. like how i did."

tae looks back down at his fingers, zoning out of his surroundings and goes dee into thought.
the older stands up and ruffles his hair.

"i have to go to school taebear. i'll see you tomorrow, love you brat." yoongi chuckles.

"meanie head. love you too." tae pouts.

once yoongi leaves his room, tae sighs sadly.
staring at his desk in the corner of the room, the boy walks over to settles down.

he opens on if the drawer's of his desk and takes out a light brown folder.
flipping the cover, he grazes his fingers of the first page as tears brim at his eyes.

xeroderma pigmentosum
— a rare genetic disorder that is still being studied and has no cure
— in which one is highly sensitive to UV light, in other words, sunlight
— this affects ones daily life, causing them to completely avoid the sun
— will also cause one to have a weak immune system

kim taehyung, patient 3012, has tested positive for xeroderma pigmentosum.

* if he were to go out, kim taehyung must be back before 6 am. this is to avoid any sort of contact with the sun.

"h-how am i s-suppose to t-tell him?" tae whimpers softly, pulling his knees to his chest and crying into them.

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"a-ah! h-hobi ~" tae whimpers as he feels hoseok sucking harshly on his sweet spot.

his fingers having a grip on the ravenette's silky hair as the other hand hugging his neck.
the older's hands wrapped tightly around the younger's slim waist as he decorates him.

hoseok then locks his lips with tae's emoting soft moans from the boy as he bites down onto tae's bottom lip asking for an entrance.

his lips part and hoseok explores every nook and cranny of tae's hot cavern, and his hands roam his soft body.

pulling away, tae's cheeks were flushed and his lips swollen and red, parted as he pants.
hoseok chuckles and flips the over for tae to be straddling him.

"how was school hyungie?" tae asks, playing with hoseok's fingers.

"yoongs came in sleepy, nothing new." the younger giggles at this statement of his best friend, making a note to tease him about it.

"jiminie complained that he's alone. and i have an essay to write." hoseok shrugs.

tae begins to laugh loudly as he imagines jimin whining about wanting a boyfriend.
leaning towards hoseok's chest, his body shakes as he continues to laugh.

"i still don't get why you can't come out of the house in the mornings lovely." hoseok furrows his eyebrows as tae's stops laughing.

the brunette chews on his bottom lip, his mind screaming at him to spill the beans but his heart weeping for him to say nothing.

"my d-dad d-doesn't l-like it hobi." tae stutters.

hoseok hums and plays with tae's soft hair.
he suddenly stops causing the younger to whine and look up at his boyfriend.

"want to go to the beach plum? it'll be fun." hoseok smiles brightly, his eyes showing all emotions of hope, pleading for an approval.

"let's go ask my dad!" tae smiles and the couple run down the stairs.

"dada! canigowithhobitoseethewaves? puh-leaseeeeee?" tae squeaks.

hoseok chuckles at his hilarious but precious antics and mr kim laughs along and nods.

"before 12 seok. bring my prince back safely." mr kim ruffles tae's soft hair before placing a soft kiss on his head.

"thank you dada!" tae giggles and runs up the stairs to grab his coat.

"i've never seen him so happy since five months ago seok. thank you." mr kim pats hoseok on the back. "but, please don't hurt him. he's my only prince and my precious boy."

"i won't mr kim, i love him too much to hurt him." hoseok smiles sweetly.

"let's go hobi!" tae waves at his dad and drags his lover out the door.

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8 pm

"catch me if you can!" tae squeals and waves his arms around as he shakes his ass.

"come here you dork!" hoseok laughs and runs after his beautiful boyfriend.

the boy screams and runs away, the beautiful dunes of sand accompanied by the calming waves of the sea welcomes the couple.

"gotcha!" hoseok wraps his arms around the boy, trapping him in his arms.

tae giggles and locks his arms around hoseok's neck, their foreheads touching.
the older of the two smiles and presses a soft kiss on the boy's addicting lips.

9:30 pm

"w-warmmmmmm." tae smiles and buried himself deeper in the embrace of hoseok.

"and you're soft. like a teddy." hoseok chuckles and hugs the boy tighter.

tae blushes and hits the ravenette's chest lightly but laughs at the statement.

"a-am not!"

"am too."

"nu uh."

"yuh uh."

10:45 pm

tae's eyes begin to feel droopy from the amount of warmth coming from hoseok and the bonfire in front of them as he fights to stay awake.

"sleep my sunshine." hoseok kisses both of tae's eyes allowing him to sleep.

the older smiles and cops softly at his precious boyfriend sleeping in his arms.
but he soon furrows his eyebrows wondering what's the actual reason he can't come out in the day.

he soon falls asleep.

~ time skip ~

5:45 am

the younger groans softly as he flutters his eyes open, rubbing them to get rid of the sleep.
looking around, tae stands up with a start when he sees the beach and hoseok.

"h-hyung! hoseokie! hoseok!" tae shakes his boyfriend harshly.

"w-what?" hoseok slurs sleepily.

"what's the time hoseokie?" tae asks, frantically hitting his watch as it doesn't seem to work.

"um it's five forty-seven. why lovely?"

the boy's face pales as soon as he knows the time and he grabs a hold of hoseok's arms, yanking him off the sand and running towards his car, fear lurking in his eyes.

"p-plum slow down! what's wrong?" hoseok asks as soon as they get in the cat.

"not n-now hobi! please, drive!" tae practically shouts at his boyfriend.

"okay! okay." hoseok immediately starts the engine and speeds off to tae's house.

the younger glances nervously at the digital clock in the car, fiddling with his fingers.

05 : 50

"h-hurry hobi, please." tae pleads, his eyes filled with tears and fear infusing his words as well as his being.

05 : 55

"three minutes tae, almost there lovely." hoseok explains to calm the boy down.

however, tae looks through the window and his heart begins to beat erratically as he could see the bright rays of sun peeping out.

"h-hurry." tae pleads.

05 : 57

the car comes to a halt and the younger immediately jumps out of the car.
tears already pouring down his cheeks as he runs through the gates of his house.

5:58 am

he could clearly see the sun already coming out, ready to show off to the world.
the brunette bangs on the door of his house, cursing to himself for not bringing his keys.

5:59 am

tae glances behind him, nibbling on his bottom lip when he sees the door open.
he rushes into the house and mr kim shuts the door harshly before hoseok could ever ask.

6:00 am

"is he back? seokie?" yoongi asks, his eyes holding all the emotions of fear.

"y-yea. he's inside." hoseok says.

yoongi nods his head, a few tears already escaping his eyes as he walks to the front door.

"w-wait. hyung, what's going on?" hoseok asks, his voice faltering and scared.

"he hasn't told you?" yoongi raises an eyebrow.

"told m-me what?"

"he's sick seokie. he has a severely rare disorder called xeroderma pigmentosum." yoongi explains before disappearing into the house leaving a confused hoseok behind.

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"you have approximately one week taetae. i'm so sorry." the doctor, jess, wipes a stray tear.

tae begins to shake his head rapidly, he curls himself up as he lets out heartbreaking sobs.
yoongi, who also had tears running down his face drops to his knees at the news.

mr kim, however, looks so lost.
his eyes glistening with tears and his breathing hitched as tears stream down his cheeks.

"n-no. t-this can't be. my precious p-prince." mr kim whispers brokenly, walking over to his son and engulfing the boy in a hug.

he also pulls the boy who was still kneeing and crying to the hug.
the trio cry their hearts out as jess also tears up from the sight and also at the fact that her favourite patient/person is going to be gone.

meanwhile, the ravenette's eyes filling with tears as he reads more about this rare disorder.
tears freely flow from his eyes when he realises when could happen if tae were to come in contact with the sun.

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– day 3 –

for the past four days, leading up to this present moment, hoseok has been with his boyfriend throughout the visiting hours.

never wanting to spend a moment without the younger, his heart weeping silently.

"why didn't you tell m-me p-plum?" hoseok's voice cracks as tears pool at his eyes.

tae looks up at his boyfriend who had his [hoseok] arms wrapped around his slim waist.
his skin now paler than usual, already lost the beautiful golden tan.

"i w-was scared you'd leave me." tae explains, intertwining their fingers.

hoseok closes his eyes and his tears fall one by one as his bottom lip quivers in pain.

"i w-w-would have n-never." hoseok whispers.

he lets out his cries, stuffing his face into the younger's neck, seeking love and warmth.
tae couldn't help but to feel bad, and so he starts to cry as well.

"y-you c-can't leave m-m-me t-tae." hoseok pleads helplessly.

"me n-neither." a voice makes the couple look at the door where they sees yoongi with tears.

– day 6 –

clasping the boy's hand tightly, hoseok's heart feels nothing but sadness and fear.
his mind blank.

"i-i'm not ready to let you go." hoseok whispers to the pale sleeping boy.

yoongi sniffs and places his forehead on tae's other hand, learning his tears fall.
sorrow and sadness blankets the entire room when the fact that tae is leaving his them.

tae suddenly wakes up and he looks around, tears already brimming at his eyes.
he then returns the hold of his hands to both his boyfriend and his best friend.

"i love you guys so much. yoonie, you've been so supportive and i can't thank you enough for keeping my secret. thank you for n-not leaving and for a-actually c-caring. i c-couldn't have asked for a better b-best friend. and hoseokie. my sunshine, i'm so so s-sorry for not telling you. i c-can apologise a million times, b-but nothing w-will change. you've been the best boyfriend ever and i'm s-so happy to be a-able to call y-you mine. you two h-have made m-my life brighter and so so happy. i c-can't thank you enough." tae breaks down crying, hoseok taking the boy into his arms as yoongi kneels down, holding onto tae's hand.

"i-it's my fault plum. i s-shouldn't have t-taken you out." hoseok presses his nose into tae's soft hair, inhaling his scent.

"it's not h-hobi. i should've told you."

the younger begins to relax a little too much in hoseok's hold causing the boy to stiffen.
he pulls tae out of his embrace and looks at his boyfriend with concern.

"k-kiss." tae smiles lazily, puckering his lips.

hoseok cups the boy's cheeks and kisses him with so much love and passion.
tears added to the mix as they pour all their emotions into that one, last kiss.

they pull away and tae lays down, still holding onto both their hands.

"i l-love you guys, so damn much." tae whispers before smiling weakly.

"i love you too my s-sunshine."

"love y-you too taebear." yoongi cries softly.

"ujima ~" tae closes his eyes, breathing out his last breath.

🙈🙉🙊

hey lovelies!
feeling sad, so some angst.
okay so, this might seem really REALLY similar to the movie, but like it is but it's not.
idk how to explain, i pretty much wrote a scene in the movie but changed it up a bit.
also, i will not be doing ant of these at the end of chapters anymore.
but if i'm feeling good, i will give a little fact about myself ((:
kay byeeee 💜

fact : i have long legs but a reeeaaallllyyyy short body *pouts*

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