my dad woke me up fucking 20 minutes late so i missed my bus

my alarm is probably broken and now i cant use my fucking phone after school

sometimes i don't think my parents understand how lonely i can be without the internet

like yeah it sounds like im addicted to technology

but i have more best friends online then real life!

i have no friends that live close to me. and one that does is currently on the other side of the fucking state!

and my fucking brother doesnt understand half the shit i like so what good is that gonna fucking do

no one understands me more then my friends.

not even my parents

"jena i know you more then you know yourself"

just because you're my parent doesnt mean SHIT.

i only don't say certain shit and in my eyes i look fucking retarded.

if i had the ability to say whats on my mind with no hesitation, she would actually probably think i know what im doing.

hell i had three secret crushes for months. and did she figure out two? yes. but for a year now she still doesn't fucking know the first and im NOT telling her.

I'm just waiting until im a adult.

im waiting until i get that power

to.just be as blunt as fucking possible to these older human beings

cause wanna know why i cant do that now

cause im a fucking coward

so im.just waiting

fun how this chapter went to how my morning was, online friends to parental smarts.

im.fucking done