"Do you have anything you'd like to confess?" The cop looked me dead in the eye.. He seemed to see right through me, through all the lies, and the games.. I thought about my summer, and how I got here.. Do I have anything to confess.....? Yeah... I got confessions, Im sure the guys will tell you.…
Before I begin with... everything, I might as well catch you up on some recent events that have been occurring.. Think of it as the "Last Time On..." part of a show you see before every single episode.I've been thinking a lot about what happened to me over the summer lately.. I think all the trauma is coming back to me. I've heard that happens sometimes. I haven't really told anyone about what happened to me, especially not the details. The only people who know are Alyssa, Lauren , Serenity, Jana and Gabe. Thinking about what happened tears me apart, makes me feel worthless and scared. Honestly I am scared all the time.. I don't know how to prevent myself from it.Usually the only solution is Gabriel, he makes me feel safe, most of the time. There was that "one" time that he caused me to panic. No means no, it does not mean push me until I break. It was the weirdest feeling, I was scared, scared of the one person I love more than anything in the world. It still makes me sick to my stomach to think about. Anyways I don;t think you are ready for that story quite yet. How about we move onto something else that has been happening in my head lately..... The Dreams.…
When it's 3 in the morning, I lay awake thinking of her. Her slightly tanned skin, her brown eyes that always had a glow in the light. Even though I know she would never think of me I memorized every curve, every facial expression for every mood. She is unable to love, she is reckless, care free and absolutely beautiful.She isn't a friend nor a lover. You can't even call her your acquaintance. She is Lola Jenkins nothing more, nothing less.…