Dreaming Of Beauty
"Tell me what's keeping you up at night? What's bothering you?" The doctor convinced me to tell her what's wrong. I was afraid. "I can't tell if it's my Psychotic disorder messing with my head or not, but it feels real enough that it has me crying at night and waking up with bruises on my arms. But He lives in my head. I can't seem to get him out. I don't know who he is, or why he's there. But he frightens me. He gives me chills that tremble up and down my spine. In my dreams, when I touch him he's freezing cold. All I know is that he's mournful and afraid. He tells me he's here to help and he's terribly sorry for what he has caused. He says he can't help it because it's who he is and he was created to frighten me. He whispers in my ear and says, "I have a urge to just grasp you by your neck and rip your head off with my naked teeth. But every nerve in my body is telling me that your the only thing keeping me from becoming a monster. We will encounter one day...Elizaveta.."…