Guys I'm very sad. I cried three times today. I just don't understand. Why why can't I be perfect like my family wants me to be. I'm a worthless useless peice of shit. I can't do anything. I can't be perfect like my sisters. They are good at everything looks check, studys check, physically check. And me nothing. My parents cares the most of them not like my parents hate me. They are very sweet and nice. They love me like i do. But sometimes they break my heart. Today I asked my mom if i could make maggi. And she said " stop eating that you are getting fat eat fruits, be slim". Like seriously, why can't I be myself. If I'm getting fat then I'm fine. I have no problem in that. Right now I'm getting kinda thin so my mom says that i shouldn't lose weight then i won't be cute but then she says that i should lose weight. Like i don't know what to do. I am so tierd of keeping everything inside. I have no one whom i can share my feeling with. I feel like i should end my life. And then i become angry and just say anything bad. Then i feed bad for saying that. I can't be like what my parents want. I feel like I'm getting depressed, maybe I am.

*Sighs* hopefully everything will be fine.