Yeosang's pov:

I couldn't sleep properly for few days. Hongjoong hyung's story kept haunting me. I was very well aware of the feeling of loosing someone you loved.

I felt the need to confess to Seonghwa.
He was the person I loved. Since we met at the party last year, he has caught my attention. I just instantly liked him because of his looks but I knew... something about him was just pulling me closer to him. I guess that's what you call love.

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I tossed and turned in my bed that night. This feeling was just not going away. Hongjoong, Yunho, Jongho and San had gone to Seoul for business and were not going to come back for two days.
This is my chance. Hongjoong hyung is not there today. I said to myself getting up and wearing my slippers.

I glanced at the watch... 1am.
I stopped for the while. Maybe Seonghwa is sleeping? I didn't want to disturb him from his slumber.
Nah, he usually stays up. I said to myself and proceeded to go downstairs. Today I was going to tell him how much I love him.

I softly knocked on the door.
"Mingi? I'm tired. I'm not gonna prepare anything to eat now, go make ramyeon yourself." he spoke from the other side. I giggled.
"It's not Mingi, it's me." I responded.
"Oh? The door's open Yeosang."

I opened the door. He was sitting on the bed, reading a book under the night lamp. He looked at me and smiled.
"What's up? Can't sleep?" he asked.

"No, just wanted to talk to you. Are you free?" I walked and I sat on the bed.
"Ofcourse! What is it?" he closed the book and kept it on the table.

The dimly lit warm white shade of light of the lamp made his face look golden and shiny. He's just so beautiful.
I looked at him for a while and gulped.
Is he going to say yes?
My heart started throbbing. I had never loved anyone in my life except my mom. And now I know I love Seonghwa but it was just hard to let out my feelings.

"Yeosang.... You don't look well. What are you thinking so deeply about?" he suddenly spoke making me snap out of my thoughts. I shook my head.

He tilted his head in confusion staring at me in the eyes. My heart raced faster.
Alright, let's do this. I told myself. I was pretty sure he liked me. He had shown signs so many times the past year, right from the beginning.

I took a deep breath before speaking.
"Alright. I wanted to talk to you about umm... Something..." I paused. He was intently listening to me. "Go on"
"Okay, well uh you remember how we met right? At the party? Since then I - I..." I stuttered.

He leaned closer to listen clearly. I could feel my cheeks heat up. "You what Yeosang?"
"I think I like you Seonghwa. No I not just like you..But I lo-" just before I could finish my sentence, he had his hand covering my mouth.

"Don't Yeosang. Whatever you're going to say, don't say it. You are the best person I've met but we are friends. Just friends. Okay?" he said. I was shocked. Did he just--? He was the one who made our relationship seem more than friends but he's now denying? Why?? Just why?

I looked at him with complete shock. My eyes were teary. I hadn't expected this. He still had his hand on my mouth. He avoided looking at me and slowly removed the hand from my mouth.

"I'm sorry Yeosang. I didn't mean to hurt you but we can't be together" he turned to look at the window without even glancing at me. I felt betrayed.

My heart was shattered. I had so many emotions at the moment. Anger, betrayal, heart break... Everything came out in the form of tears.

I hastily got up and ran to my room. As soon as I entered, I started crying clenching the sheets tightly.

This didn't go as I planned.