I just yelled at my good friend... I'm a horrible friend... I don't deserve a new dog! I don't deserve my boyfriend! I don't deserve any of my friends!!

I know I'm going to upset everyone reading this but I don't know if I can live with myself anymore!! I'm an absolutely horrible person....

I can't handle it anymore!! All the horrors of life coming after me!! Multiple people lying to me!! I'm tired of it!! Not only that I'm tired of how I act when I'm upset!!

I put the people I love in danger when I do get angry!! I get them mad at me! I'm tired of it all!! Every last bit of it!!

I'm going to leave my family! I'm going to leave my friends!! And I'm going to leave my boyfriend!

Ian..... I'm so sorry..... if your reading this.... I'll miss you.... so much.... goodbye my love....