Over the next couple of weeks, life was made up of going to the studio, planning the boys tour, planning special guests for the tour, celebrating a late birthday for Ash, celebrating Luke's birthday and just mentally preparing for almost a year on the road but on the bright side. We decided to go back to Sydney after tour which was exciting and we'd planned a trip to Italy which was super exciting. What could potentially happen on tour?

My phone buzzed and I groaned. I grabbed it and noticed it was ten o'clock in the morning and Lena, the tour manager was calling. I picked up. "Hi Lena. What's up?" I said groggily and sat up in bed. Luke was starting to move a little. The sun was shining through the curtains and the day looked wonderful. 

"Good morning Fae. This is just a wakeup call. The bus will be with you in an hour and a half. Please be outside with Luke and Petunia. Are Serena and the others with you?" She asked.

"No. I believe Michael and Calum are at their own places and Serena is at Ash's house". I said as I tried to wake up a little. 

"Oh okay. You, Luke and Petunia will be the first ones we pick up. We've set out little areas for you guys in the bus and I hope that you like the one that we've picked!" Lena sounded excited to show us. "I've got to call the others now so see you in a bit!" She explained. We said our goodbyes and hung up. I stretched, grabbed my glasses and headed straight for the shower. I had some relaxing music on and tried to prepare myself for tour. After spending twenty minutes in the shower, I got out and wrapped a towel around myself. Luke was awake, on his phone and I went into the wardrobe to pick my outfit out today. I picked out a pleated skirt, a Green Day shirt and my black high tops. I popped back into the bathroom, ignoring the fact that Luke was showering, to pop my towel back. I then went to my carry on and grabbed my makeup. I put on some concealer, mascara and some tinted lip balm and popped the makeup back into my bag. I made sure that all of the bags were downstairs, including Petunia's special bag, and organised our important documents for when we needed to travel out of the States. I made sure that both mine and Luke's sets of instruments were ready to go and made something to eat. Luke then came downstairs with my phone charger and headphones whilst I fed Petunia. 

"Goood morning Fae!" Luke came up to me, twirled me around and kissed me. He was wearing a pair of black tracksuit bottoms, a Adidas hoodie and some boots.

"Morning Luke. You seem excited!" I grinned and laughed as he skipped around the kitchen. Petunia was hot on his heels. 

"We're going on the Sounds Live Feels Live tour and I am beyond excited!!!" He said and I decided to skip around with him. Luke then did some vlogging as the idea of Tour Diaries was entertaining. "Hello guys! This is Luke and I am checking in with Petunia, my faithful steed!" I checked my phone and stopped. 

"Luke. We need to be outside with the stuff now!" I ran to wheel some of the suitcases out the door. Luke saw my urgency and helped me grab the suitcases. After about ten minutes, the suitcases were outside and I had Petunia in my arms with her cute harness on. Luke locked the door as the tour bus approached. It was a double decker and I was beyond excited to get on it. "Look Petunia! It's our home for the next few weeks!" I said to her and kissed her. She was wagging her tail as she knew that something exciting was about to happen. The bus stopped in front of me and Lena came out. 

"Hello Fae!" She ran to give me a hug which was difficult as Petunia didn't want to go down. Lena introduced me to the driver. He was a middle aged man and his name was Robert. I smiled at him and told him which bags we needed out and which ones were to go in the storage of the bus. Luke helped and made small talk. "Luke! Check the bus out first! I hope it is to your taste!" Lena shouted enthusiastically. Luke went on the bus with his carry on bag and I stood by talking to Robert.

"Fae! Get on this bus! It's insane!!" Luke shouted from the bus. I ended my conversation and walked to the steps of the bus. I popped Petunia down to let her have a look, grabbed my carry on and Petunia's things and got on. I climbed the steps and looked into the bus. It was beautiful. The carpet was a dark red and the bus walls were black. Behind the driver's seat was a dining area.

"It converts into a bed for me to sleep in", said Robert who had gotten on the bus. Right by the stairs was the kitchenette which had a microwave, a kettle, a few cupboards and a sink. The surfaces were black. The dining area had a relatively large window that I could definitely see myself sitting at and looking out of. Next to the dining area or behind it, if you were looking from the front of the bus, was the bathroom. It had a lockable door with a toilet, a sink and a small shower just in case. Across the aisle from that was the stairs leading to the second floor. There was then a three tiered bunk bed. One bunk for Lena, one was for Jasper, the Amicorum bodyguard and one bunk for Steve, the 5 Seconds of Summer bodyguard. At the back of the bus, there was a door that led to a lounge area. Two large sofas and a table in the middle. I also noticed an end table on the side of the sofas. The windows were large but tinted with curtains. "Michael and Calum will be sleeping here. There is a button that turns those sofas into queen sized beds and if they get tired of seeing one another, they can slide the curtains in between them. They can also move the sofas to make a bigger bed and make their room more like the ones upstairs. There are also TVs that come out so that can watch movies and such". Robert explained. I then decided to walk up the stairs. I came into a really relaxing space. There was a large television with all sorts of games consoles that I knew that everyone would like that was closer to the back of the bus. There was a countertop with a microwave and a mini fridge for all of our snacks next to the TV. Moving towards the front of the bus, there was a VR headset and a computer that Lena had set up for us with a lot of games for us to play. Most would not be out for another year to two but she somehow got them early. There was also a toilet next to the VR sofa as I am now calling it. It was exactly the same as the one downstairs so it was nice to have 5 people per shower. "The back of the bus is for Serena and Ash. They can choose to sleep in a king sized bed or they can choose to seperate the beds and have a curtain between them". Robert explained. I went into the room that Luke was in and he was lying on a king sized bed with Petunia watching the television front of the bed. I gasped. This room was like an actual room in a hotel. There was a whole set up. The bed was on the right of the bus with the head on the wall of it facing inwards. There was about a foot of space between the bed and the TV/clothing unit and in this unit was a mini fridge. There was two bedside tables either side and a very small desk. The bedding was grey with white dots and it was beautiful. I noticed on Luke's side there was a ramp for the dog to get up onto the bed and there was a huge window. We also had fully functioning lights and plugs for all.

"This bed turns into a couch believe it or not. We can all sit up here with a beer or something and just enjoy the views. There is also something that I've found out that you'll see when we go to bed tonight". Luke said as I clambered onto the bed, going in for a cuddle. 

"Guys. We are going to get the others now. Just letting you know in case you freak out or something!" Lena shouted up the stairs. 

"Okay!" We both yelled back.  The bus started moving and we were on our way. Off on tour we went.

-TIME SKIP TO THE FIRST SHOW-

Serena and I jumped on stage. Me wearing a white t-shirt, black ripped skinny jeans and black converse. Serena wearing leggings, a Maleficent t-shirt and her pink high tops. She had very basic makeup on but I had some colour as I was feeling random today. I was raring to go and get this concert done. We started off with a bit of Hey Violet, added a cover of Desecration Smile by the Chilis, wound it up with a little Basket Case, brought it down with A Ballad of Closure, written by Lee and kindly given to us and we ended with A Little Piece of Heaven.  The boys got up on stage and began to do their thing as we watched from the sidelines. After a few songs, I hear the words. "This song is dedicated to my amazing girlfriend, Fae". Luke looked over at me, smiled and said. "You guys have heard this song on the album but let me explain something. The first person to hear these words come from my lips was Fae. I sung it to her on Christmas Day". I started to cry as he continued. "It was my song to her. It still is my song to her. She's insane and I wrote it as a way to show her that I wanted her to think differently of me and I can gladly say that she has". I laughed when he said that. "So Fae. I know that you are watching us preform for these insane guys and girls in the audience tonight". He looked at me. "Come up here". He motioned for me to come up. The crowd was screaming. I looked at him confused and he grinned. I walked over to him and he took his guitar off and kissed me. I blushed heavily. The crowd went NUTS! We broke off and he said in the microphone. "This one's for you". I walked off red in the face and Serena winked at me. 

"You've got him wrapped around your finger and he has done the same. Fae. I knew it. You'd be good together". I blushed as she said that and went off to cuddle Duke and Petunia. I gave them treats and just tried to hang out with them as much as possible. 

-About Three Days later-

We had left California at this point. We had just gotten into Seattle, Washington. I was so excited to get on stage and preform for the fans. According to the tour vlog that Serena and I had posted, we had a lot of fans from Seattle that were desperate to see us. It was the 6th of October so we were getting ready for Halloween, my favourite time of the year. We had gotten to the venue and I was preparing. Doing my vocal warm ups and deciding what I wanted to wear in mine and Serena's joint dressing room. We had also decided to livestream this concert as promotion for the EP and album. Bzzz bzzz. I heard my phone go off and ran to grab it. It was my mum. 

"Hey Mum! What's up?". I asked, glad to see that it was her calling. I heard a sigh.

"Fae. I've got some awful news". She said, holding back tears. I began to panic.

"What's going on?". I asked quite abruptly. My mind was racing and my heart was pounding.

"It's about Gu". Those words that came out of my mum's mouth meant only one thing. "I'm sorry Fae. She's passed away". Mum said crying. I went numb. 

"I'm so sorry Mum". I said. I knew that the day would come. I knew it was soon. She was 95 but I was still in shock. Serena walked in and her face went from a smile to a look of concern. "I'll be home as soon as possible. I don't think Lena would mind if I missed a few days on tour".

"Fae. Please don't worry. We are all trying to cope honey". Mum said. Still crying.

"When Mummy?". I could feel my voice begin to crack but tried to hard to keep myself from breaking down.

"6am my time yesterday. The care home phoned Grandma and Guda up. They rushed over and she was gone. It was in her sleep so no pain". She cried out. I heard the stage manager tell us we had 10 minutes to prepare for opening. There was a little known band called In The Afterlife playing first so Serena and I had around 40 minutes to do our makeup, get ready and get psyched up for the show.

"Mum. I'll be home if I can. I've got to get ready for this show. I am so sorry. I love you so much. Please give everyone my love". I said and she understood. After I hung up, I sat down on the sofa. Mentally numb. Serena sat next to me. She knew what I was like when I was having a crap day. 

"What's happened Fae?" She asked me and gave me a hug. I stayed silent. Serena left the room and I picked out an outfit. It was a black swing dress. No patterns with a sweetheart neckline. I put on some black heels and some sheer tights. I put some waterproof mascara and put my hair into a bun as Luke walked in. He looked at me whilst I was doing my hair. I looked at him as he walked over. He put me in his arms and I broke down. He held me for a long time. Serena walked in, noticed that I was wearing all black and joined the hugging. Soon, Ash, Michael and Calum all came and hugged me. I was crying the entire time. "Did what I think happened happen Fae?". She started crying. I nodded.

"My great grandmother passed away yesterday morning". I sobbed. Everyone looked at me with sympathy. Lena rushed in and hugged me.

"Your mum just told me what happened. We are going to postpone some tour dates so you and Luke can go back for the funeral Fae. I knew she meant a lot to you". She said. 

"You don't have to go up tonight". Michael said. Calum then chimed in.

"The fans will totally understand". I stopped hugging Lena and shook my head.

"We're changing the set list tonight. Can I play Let It Be tonight?" I asked Serena who nodded.

"Violet loved the Beatles. It would be a fitting tribute to her. You can sing Hey Violet alone as well. You penned the song for her. It's your song. I'll just play the music with you". She said and I nodded. AMICORUM. 5 MINUTES. GET TO THE STAGE SIDE PLEASE. The announcement was made. We all put our hands in the middle. 

"For Violet!" Ash shouted. We all repeated it back, myself trying to not to cry. We ran to the stage side to have our guitar/bass sorted. The crew members gave their condolences. Serena had decided to wear a black dress anyways but it was nice. Amicorum it's go time. Good luck and on behalf of everyone Fae, we are so sorry the stage manager said into our earpieces. I tried to keep composure as I ran out on stage, smiling slightly. The crowd were screaming their heads off and I felt quite overwhelmed.

"Hey Seattle!" Serena shouted and the crowd went wild. I practised my chords while she greeted the crowd. Serena ran over to give me a hug. "I think they want to hear from you". She whispered in my ear. I went closer to the microphone.

"Hey guys". I said, not as enthusiastically as hoped, The crowd seemed happy. "I'm sorry if I seem off today guys. I still love you all so much". The crowd screamed. I began the chords for Jasey Rae and began to perk up. Serena noticed and laughed.

"THAT'S THE FAE WE LOVE!" She shouted and I laughed. She started singing and I sang backup vocals. I sang the bridge, played the guitar solo and played with more passion than I have ever done. The crowd were loving it. I stopped for a minute.

"Serena. Sing this. I don't think I can". Serena looked at me shocked as I started playing the chords to Hey Violet. She mouthed Are you sure? at me. I nodded. I walked around the stage playing as she sang. Looking for excuses not to just break down. My heart began to break. During the guitar solo, Serena came up to me and said.

"Sing the last chorus. You've got this". She said and I nodded. 

Hey hey Violet

Yes sweet Violet

You're so far away from home

Do you know how far you've roamed?

Hey there Violet

My darling Violet

No one knows where you have been

So tell me all that you have seen

Please please take me down this road

The only one you've ever known

We'll either win or lose the fight

So can you take me there tonight?

I had tears in my eyes as I finished the song. The stage crew brought the piano out as we were playing Check Yes Juliet. I finished playing and popped my guitar down to sit by the piano. "Please excuse me today". I said to the audience. "Today's been a bit shit". Serena came over and placed her hand on my shoulder. I smiled and started to fiddle with the keys. "One of the most important people in my life has passed away today". I said with a sigh. I paused to regain composure. "If I can sing this without crying then I get a pat on the back but if I cry. God save you all as I look like Kim Kardashian crying". I chuckled at my own joke and the crowd laughed. "To those who have your phones out and are recording this concert, I hope this gets you views. Please, if you are to upload it to YouTube, call it 'Chic from Amicorum cries on stage'. Might be funny in the future". I then began playing the chords to Let It Be. 

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it beLet it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

It was at this point where I could feel tears run down my face. I was crying. I stopped for a second until the crowd did something that I didn't expect. They put their phone torches on. Then I heard them. "GO ON FAE! YOU'VE GOT THIS! WE LOVE YOU!". That lone voice set off some cheering. 

"I've got it if you sing along with me". I cried out. I started to cry/sing.

And when the broken hearted people

Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it beLet it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it beLet it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it beAnd when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it beAnd let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

When the song ended, I cried out. "Gu. I miss you so much. Thank you for being the best great grandmother I could ever have asked for". I slumped into a mess on the floor and Luke ran on stage. He spoke to Serena quietly and then spoke into the microphone.

"Sorry to all Amicorum fans. Their set is ending early as Fae can't do this. She found out right before they came on. We all said not to do it but she was determined to see you guys. Give her a round of applause for doing so well". I just sat and cried. Luke sat on the floor with me. "You're alright. Want me to carry you back into the dressing room? Serena is going to stay with you whilst I'm onstage. We are going to delay the tour dates. We'll be back in Wales in about four days". He said and I nodded. I stood up and he picked me up bridal style. Serena spoke to the audience whilst Luke carried me offstage.

-SERENA'S POV-

I had never seen her in such a state. She was a complete numpty for going up but she did so well. Ash came on and spoke into the microphone. "Sorry guys. Fae loves you so much but she couldn't do it". I looked at him and a tear formed. "We will be going back to Fae's hometown for the funeral. All six of us". I looked at him stunned. "Fae's mother has said that we need to be there to support their family so the next few tour dates are going to be delayed for a week or two". I jumped in on the other microphone. "Yeah. Fae has never been this upset about something so please. Give her some privacy. Also, to those watching in or near Fae's hometown. Her great-grandmother's funeral is NOT a Meet and Greet. If you do decide to attend to meet us or the boys, don't. We will be hiring security so do not attempt it". 

-ANOTHER TIME SKIP TO THE DAY OF THE FUNERAL-

I got up in our Wales house and felt like utter shit. The weather was awful but that meant that my great grandmother's soul will go to heaven. According to superstition. I popped my glasses on and went downstairs in my pyjamas to eat something. The boys were downstairs and smiled at me sympathetically. Ash, Calum and Michael were wearing black suits and Luke was in his. "We are going to walk to your grandmothers Fae. Is that okay?" Luke asked. I nodded. Luke had been asked to come in the limo with my family except my sister who was in school as well as two bodyguards who were in a van behind the limo. The others were going to drive the minivan to the venue and take us home. After my breakfast, I took a shower, dried my hair and got dressed. 2 inch black heels, nude stockings and a black dress with lace around the bottom. I heard the others leave and put my hair into a bun. I popped my ring that Luke had delivered to me. It was my great grandmothers. I then put the mourning veil on. It was a requirement for the women in our family. I popped my phone, wallet keys and some tissues into my black handbag. I looked at myself in the mirror and psyched myself up. I was going to be okay. I checked the time and left my room. Luke was by the front door. I walked down the stairs and to him. "You look beautiful. Are you ready?". He asked and kissed my hand.

"As ready as I'll ever be". I sighed. He opened the door for me and I walked out. I could hear some quiet screams. "Are you fucking kidding me?". I looked at Jasper and Steve, our beloved security guards. Luke locked the door and held my hand. We began walking with Jasper and Steve and could hear the cheers. Luke looked at me and I got pissed. I saw the culprit. It was four girls who looked about sixteen.

"Want us to deal with them?". Steve and Jasper said.

"I've got this guys". I let go of Luke's hand and stormed up to them. 

"CAN WE GET YOUR AUTOGRAPH?!" They were screaming. They had their phones up to my face and seemed to be recording me. I looked at them with a 'did you really just ask that face'.

"Girls. Did you not listen to what Ash, Calum, Michael, Serena and Luke have been saying for the last two weeks?!". I was trying to be calm. 

"Why would we listen to them?! We love you!". One of them said. I was beginning to lose it.

"You guys are fools! I am on my way to watch my great grandmother get buried!". I began to yell. "DO YOU THINK THAT STALKING ME OUTSIDE MY HOUSE, ASKING ME FOR AN AUTOGRAPH WHILST I GO TO A FUNERAL IS A REALLY SMART IDEA?!" I was full on yelling at this point. They were laughing. I wasn't going to rage on them until one of them said.

"OH MY GOD! WE'LL GO TO THE FUNERAL TOO!! THAT WAY WE CAN GET ALL OF THEIR AUTOGRAPHS!". I was about to tackle that girl. I felt someone grab my arms. Jasper was holding me back whilst Luke spoke to them.

"Read my lips. Jasper will let her loose. She will attack you and she will do damage. We said multiple times not to do this and you've done it. Stop being fans of us". Luke said sternly. 

"God. I'm gonna kiss you Luke". The same girl said. Jasper let me go and I ran to my grandmother's house. Luke, Jasper and Steve ran after me. I'm pretty sure the girls followed. The limo was waiting and my grandmother was waiting outside of it. 

"Fae! So glad you made it. Everything okay?" She said as I ran up to her. 

"Get in the limo grandma. Please. Fans are on their way. Please please please". I helped her into the limo and got Luke in. Steve and Jasper got into the black car behind and I jumped in. Luke gave me a pair of sunglasses. I greeted my family. I then saw the fans. Steve and Jasper got them handcuffed and into the car. 

"Who are they?" Quinn asked. My family looked confused.

"Some fans didn't listen to what we had been saying". I cried out. 

"Steve and Jasper have asked for bumped up security. The police will be arresting anyone for harassment". Luke said. I sighed with relief and knew that this would somehow go smoothly.

"I'm so sorry". I said to my family. "I didn't mean for this to happen". Mum put her hand on my shoulder as a sympathy sign. We rode through the village and met up with the hearse by the local pub. I could hear my grandmother cry silently. They had lilies, orchids and roses on top of the coffin and I began to cry, knowing that those were her favourite flowers. We drove along for about fourty minutes until we got to the chapel where the funeral was to be held. Grandma and Guda had told Luke in the car that he was to be a pallbearer with my uncle, a very short man compared to Luke, my dad, my great uncle and my second cousin. A lot of people were at this funeral and it was a bit overwhelming. We walked into the chapel and sat down. I had my notes ready as I was to speak and sing a hymn with my cousins. The coffin was brought in and placed in front of us. The vicar then talked about losing a loved one, said a prayer and my uncle went up to recite my great grandmother's favourite poem. The Isle of Innisfree by Yeats. It was then time to sing Amazing Grace with my cousins. My cousins went to sit back down and I stood in my place behind the coffin.

"Firstly, I would like to thank all of you for coming on behalf of my family. It means an awful lot, especially as some of you have travelled far to be here. Violet Oakes was known by many names. Vi, Mrs Oakes, Mum, Granny but to myself and my cousins, she was known as Gu. She was an extremely talented woman and always had a crack at anything that came her way. She was a nurse in the Army in World War Two, an amazing artist, a beautiful singer and the best Gu any girl could have asked for. One of my favourite memories with her was playing Monopoly with her, Grandma and Guda in the front hall of the house when I was a little younger. We would all get so mad at each other so we'd have to take a couple of minutes to calm down, only to get even more mad. I believe one of those games, Quinn and Jacob had a fight and Gu had to stop them". I heard people chuckle. "She would always comfort you if things weren't turning out alright and always helped out if you were stuck on something. Whether that be a homework problem or, in my case, when I was struggling with my music career". I paused for a minute trying to compose myself. "If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be where I am now. I sent her texts and called her all the time as she was so curious about what I was doing. When Serena and I had the first few copies of our EP in our hands, the first person I sent it to was Gu". I could see Serena cry slightly in the pew behind my family. Ash and Calum gave her a cuddle and I saw Michael give her a tissue. Luke had gone to sit with them and he looked at me reassuringly. "Grandma and Mum helped her FaceTime me and Serena. Her face when she popped up on my laptop screen was a face of pride and joy. She was so proud of what we had accomplished and, although our music was NOT her taste, she still loved it. I explained to her that Hey Violet was about her and for the first time in my life, she cried. She was overjoyed and it was the sweetest thing I had ever seen". I smiled when I said that, a tear coming down my cheek, I wiped it and continued. "Violet Oakes. The most amazing woman all of us have ever met. You will be missed". I picked up my notes and walked back to my seat. No one clapped and I was completely okay with that. Luke, who was sitting behind me, gave me a shoulder squeeze. After the funeral, we went to the burial which was the hardest part. Luke held my hand as the vicar said another prayer as my great grandmother was lowered into the grave. Forever resting with my great grandfather who had died when I was a lot younger. I started to cry silently as she was lowered. Grandma and Guda put the first handfuls of dirt in the grave. I went last in our immediate family as I wanted to do it with Luke and Serena. We stood in a line and put our dirt in and went to stand with my family.

"You did great Fae. She would have loved that eulogy". Serena said to me and hugged me. I nodded but could feel myself going off. I walked over to a different part of the cemetery and burst into tears. Luke ran over and held me. Mum and Guda came over and gave me a hug, all four of us in tears.

"We need to stop crying. We've got one more thing left". I held my Guda's hand and my Mums and walked back to the crowd. From the corner of my eye, I could see Luke pick up his phone and talk into it. I gave everyone a hug. All of my family and we talked. Calum and Michael looked behind me towards Luke, concerned. I turned around and could see he was getting cross. I ran over to him and looked at him confused. He came up and whispered in my ear. What could possibly have gone wrong at a funeral? What could have stressed Luke out?

Chapter Thirteen is out!!!! Also, want to give my condolences to my partner who lost his grandmother during the writing of this chapter. Funnily enough, when I started to write the funeral portion on the 15th of June 2020. I know he doesn't read or even know what Wattpad is (he's not that interested in this stuff) but in the 0.0001% chance he does read this. I'm so sorry for your loss. Also, Serena, do not tell him that I write fanfiction as I know that you know who he is xx Thank you x Stay strong my rebels xxx This is Gwen signing out!