Andressa put on her coat and boots walking outside. She needed to take a walk to think everything through. Today she got to know a bewildering secret about Kael. The rogue man feared by every one has a bitter past. He is fighting against his own emotions, memories that bring out the monster he has turned himself in to.

"He witnessed his father shot to death in front of his eyes, he was only a eight year old boy Andressa." Izabel said making it was shocking new to her ears.

"Come to think of it, how would you feel if you were in his place?" Andressa managed to shake her head in a 'I don't know' motion. Her voice was lost in her throat.

"He saw his mother's lifeless body hanging from the ceiling of a room.He witnessed all those tragic events at a very tender age." Izabel's voice agitated and her expressions full of hurt.

"He shut off his life entirely after those incidents. He never had a normal childhood as I suppose you had." Izabel gestered her hand at Andressa. "He learned to fight while other children of his age played. He did not make himself a monster Andressa, the society did. He was just a boy. He was bullied and abused to a far extent that it evolved his cataclysmic nature." A tear running down Izabels eye.

" You may see him as a stone cold man with no remorse from outside but from the inside he is screaming for freedom from the memories that he relive every single night." She said walking up to the window folding her hands to her chest.

"His PTSD was far worse several years ago, he attempted suicide at the age of fourteen. So he was kept under supervision for a very long time until he recovered gradually." Every single world Izabel said hit Andressa like a thousand daggers. In her brain she only want to hate the man who took away her life from her by threatening to ruin her family instead her heart said otherwise. Andressa was confused hurt.

"He is alone in this world with no one except for the very few people around him. I am only one of them and I love him dearly as my own brother. Would you believe that Kael hadn't had a good nights sleep for the past twenty years except for one exceptional day. The day he kissed you at the beach. Yes, he told me that and he relish that moment Andressa." Izabel chuckled, Andressa felt her cheeks heat up at the memory ' so he remember it ' she thought.

"There is also some bad news, He says he has these feelings when ever he see you, hence the reason that he stay away from you, because he does not want to have any gratification by hurting you." Izabel walked back to Andressa sitting beside her on the couch she rested her hand on Andressa's shoulder.

"Darling he is confused, he can't chose between love and lust, what is right and what is wrong, he act out of impulse, he is sick Andressa and I believe you can help him recover. " Andressa stared at Izabel. The words she said was low yet inwardly they were deafening her.

"He is sick, so he hurt others. It doesn't make sense Izabel. People don't go hurt others just because they are sad or sick or hurt or whatever" Andressa said in a low voice.

"He has no right to hurt or kill any one at all. He may have had a traumatic childhood but that is no justification for all the bad things he does, if he think so then he is just making a pathetic excuse out of his sickness Izabel" Andressa said to Izabel in a agitated voice.

"All of this is overwhelming to you I know but I am sure that in time you will realise that Kael is suffering from a sickness yet he is fighting hard to keep away from you only so that he wont hurt you. The choice is yours Andressa. Either to heal him or kill him." Izabel said puzzling an already shocked Andressa.

"Why would I help you Kael WHY!!"She screamed out loud and threw a stone away in anger.

"I don't want you but I want you, I am so confused" Andressa cried.

GOD what test are you putting me through. I want to hate him instead I am caring for him. I want to run away instead I am sitting out here thinking about him. Please give me the strength to hold on, to make up my mind and go through this noxious valley of blood, pain, hatred, lust and love. Andressa shut her eyes tight and lay down on the grass, the wind humming nonchalantly.