Wandering through the dark forest I lost track of my mission, I lost track of my goal. I lost my sense of vulnerability. To not seem weak I put up a wall for weeks. The new year has just begun.

Five months in, and I'm hurting again.
I begged and pleaded, not to feel this way, but now I'm soaked in this puddle that I must lay.

I lost my way and wound up in the darkness
My body so warm but I feel so heartless.

"I must leave; I want to leave" putting a blade to me to watch my bleed.

But wait! Think about those who will grieve
While I'm consumed with pain and greed.

I lost my way through this empty forest,
My tears just wont let me rest.
Swollen eyes pink puffy lips
I just wanna see how that blood drips.

It been so long since I've done it.
I just wanna feel pain just for a little bit
"No shut up you dumb twit" ; I continue you walking and I find nothing
Do I wanna leave or stop breathing?

Option two is better; time to go home and write a letter huh?, wait hey slow down, wouldn't it be better to drown? Life was once rainbows now it's

Grey...
For. Hurting. People . I. Must. Pay.

No!, are you okay? : heavy sigh escaping from a heavy chest
No, because I've lost my way.
It gets worse by the day.
Please just throw me away like a stray

"I can't because I want you to stay"
Hm yeah that's what they all say.
Deep feelings pouring out like rain in May

You know? it's okay to lose your way,
Because there are good people who will hold your hand and cuddle you by the bay.

A bit cliché but what can I say?
They will love you anyway.