Sweet Dispositions

-Chapter 26-
Feelings Of Forever

4 oclock... ish. Late afternoon.

It used to be uncomfortable tightening throughout her entire abdomen with little pain. The babies stretched and stretched in her stomach then the agitation and discomfort came on. Then it was a little stinging and burning. The pains have a commencement and a conclusion. To put it in perspective, Hanabi- if her abdomen was a hand, contractions felt like her stomach making a very tight fist.

Hours ago, it hadn't felt wretched. It wasn't as if her cells were trying to split and neglect her body.

That was then and this is now.

All she could do is breathe.

As she was in pain, Someina helped Hinata through the hallways after two solid minutes of demanding to hold his hand during the contractions. Hinata groaned and clutched Someina's knuckles, trying to calm down.

She was red, feverish and sweating. Her face was flushed and she felt so ready to just throw in the towel and quit. "It's so hot. Am I the only one? Someina- it hurts. My water's broken and it hurts so bad,"

Someina nodded, understanding. "I know. It's just a muscle and this is natural. Say it with me, it's just a muscle. This is natural,"

Hinata grit her teeth and reiterated after Someina. "This is natural. It's just a muscle. We've been preparing for this. Now it's time to meet my babies,"

Someina grinned. "Good. You're doing so amazing," Without watching, Someina apprehended Hinata rolled her eyes. "Come on, you're doing better than I would,"

Hinata attempted a dry laugh. They belatedly proceeded to the living room. Sasuke and an ANBU were disputing. On a rug, Benjiro played with blocks and kept to himself. His tower was pretty high. Mitsuyo was missing in action.

Sasuke noticed Hinata and held a hand up to the ANBU. "How are you holding up?" he inquired, anxious but euphoric. He also wanted to see the babies.

Hinata felt like laughing but she hid that. Someina claimed that Hinata was doing amazing.

"Natsukawa-san, you must to be taken to the hospital," The ANBU shook his head. "Under the Raikage's orders, you must have your birth in the hospital,"

Hinata winced. Hospital? Or here... She didn't give a damn about what the Raikage had to say.

Benjiro gasped and his block tower crumbled. "Sasu? Why Nata huwt? Why hopital?" Benjiro asked, standing up and running to Hinata.

Hinata presented a wry smile to Benjiro and said, "It's fine, baby. Just having a baby,"

"The tummy mango babe come out? What?" Benjiro asked, eyes wide.

Sasuke nodded. "She's in labor. The babies want to meet you," Sasuke whispered.

"Can I kiss it betteh? Her ouchie betteh. Nata kisses my boo-boos an' they huwt no more," Benjiro asked and kissed her stomach. He placed a hand on her stomach and loudly said, "Baby hurt Nata? Bad babies. Come out so I can give kisses!"

The ANBU leader shook his head. "It's safer if you go to the hospital. We do not want the next Uchiha twins to be delivered in an environment that is not sterile-"

"Just- just hold up a minute," Sasuke looked at the ANBU begrudgingly then made his way over to Hinata. She sighed. He's being her therapy.

Standing by Benjiro, Someina previously slinked away, giving them space. "You're doing amazing, Momo. Don't forget," Someina called out, encouraging Hinata.

Hinata felt gross- not amazing. She's in distress. She doesn't want Benjiro to see her like this. He'll reject his siblings! What if- what if they take their babies away? What if she doesn't see them? She flinched at the fiery burns of the contractions.

He stood close enough that it took her breath just how much relief she got from him standing near. The space between them was charged with purified electricity. She just couldn't act tough anymore. She lowered her head. She pressed her forehead to his chest, and released a wordless sigh with the subtext of, "I'm in pain,"

She didn't care that it was silent and that everyone was watching.

The surroundings dwindled away. She likes him best with just the two of them, naturally. He put his hand on her shoulder and squeezed three times. Then his fingers curled around the nape of her neck. Compassionate. "I know," he breathes with his own wordless sigh.

"Do you want to go to the hospital?" he asked, out loud.

She doesn't know. Maybe. She cringed internally. It's ridiculous. A shinobi... a kunoichi can take death blows and hits from others but not what comes from her own body. A kunoichi that can't take the pain?!

"Be gentle with yourself," he said softly, lowly... perceiving she'd beat herself up over this.

It doesn't feel like a menstrual cramp. It feels like she's getting stabbed in the stomach. The babies really want out. "I can't- I want a hospital," she said, defeated. There's pressure in her pelvis and a dull, throbbing ache in her back.

Sasuke sighed and looked at the ANBU. "It's unanimous. She will be at the hospital,"

"Natsukawa-san will receive the utmost care from staff and ANBU alike,"

"Just shut up and take me to the hospital," Hinata snapped.

Sasuke smirked.

"I got the bags ready," Mitsuyo said, showing up with luggage for all of them. "Let's go have some babies,"

-x-

Once she was at the hospital, it was hell but sweet. Despite seeing her in pain, he was hyped up to see his kids. He does admit that he feels the same when he sees Benjiro but- going through labor. Seeing it all come together... Is a real blessing. You'd never catch him praying about this.

In the comfy blue chair beside her bed, she sat on his lap, shaking. He whispered sweet nothings to her while he cuddled her up and held her in his arm. His lips were basically pressed against her neck.

"It feels like I'm getting ripped in half. I bought a sword to a bomb fight,"

"The expression is I brought a knife to a gun fight," Sasuke said, arching a brow.

"You're playing a dangerous game, Uchiha. Do you really want to argue about this? Now?!" Hinata squawked. "At least look guilty,"

"You're focusing on something else," Sasuke shrugged. "Mission accomplished,"

"What's the mission?"

"Keeping you happy and safe,"

"Is that... a purpose?" she asked.

He nodded.

"Purpose fulfilled," Hinata said then laughed.

He rose an eyebrow.

"I do adore you but I want to slice you up with that same sword," Hinata threatened, cutely.

Sasuke found himself amused. Even she makes murder sound harmless. "You can't do that to the father of your children," he said, confident.

Hinata tutted her tongue, just like Mitsuyo does. "I can so do that but I'd miss you too much. Who else do I have to listen to my stupid rants? I'd never want to have little talks with someone else. I say nonsense,"

"Yeah. You do. You still make sense to me,"

"As do you to me," she chuckled softly. "You're always fascinating me in little ways. I have a list of your fundamentals; four-hundred and sixteen facts about you,"

"Kami Hinata. Did you scrapbook about me?" he grumbled.

"No," she laughed. "Can I though? Benjiro looks so darn cute in pictures with you,"

"Will it make you happy?"

"Of course," Hinata poked his cheek. "I never said... Even after all your battles, you still have clear, scar-free skin. Very soft," she said then traced the skin on his jaw. He hasn't shaved. He's too stressed about her. The good stress.

"What did you expect- snake scales?" he said, trying to keep things light.

"No... although I would like you the same. I am glad you had someone to heal you... I used to think you were the scariest wanderer then I learned you were built like a daydream,"

"You think I am a daydream?" Sasuke asked. Hinata nodded without hesitation. Then, then that light feeling came back. Why does she say such flowery things? Things that make him feel like he'll melt. She used to scream and ignore him the first day they spoke. "We came really far,"

"From where?" Hinata quizzed.

Sasuke nodded, looking away. "From strangers at a liquor table to this. Laughing at birth and lists. At the wedding- when you were drunk, you asked me to dance and you'd call me 'sweet moves' I said I don't dance. I still owe you a dance,"

"What did I do?" Hinata said, having a tomato face with a mortified tone.

Sasuke nodded and thought for a moment. "You said something like, "Don't save this for a rainy day so come on and dance with me,"

The izakaya room beside them had loud music. Obnoxiously loud music but they took the room anyway. She just took off her dress and ignored how it briefly rained near midnight, opened the windows and took swigs of the rum. He just collapsed onto the bed and watched her. Her laughed was perfect to listen to while the lights were off. She decided that rum could dance. The curtains were open, the streetlights falling into the cool room and she was dancing freely and slowly to the beat. She stripped to nothing but her underwear and said, "Why aren't you dancing?"

He said, "I don't dance,"

"Everyone can dance. Come on and dance with me. Don't save this for a rainy day, sweet moves,"

Druken, he remembers thinking on the mattress; I'd fall for you. It would be sobering.

She laughed, pulling him out of his musing. "You always make me want to twirl in my nightdress. I can't walk but save me a dance. Now that we're revealing stuff... I have written letters to you and Benjiro. One of my poetry books has a list... it has all the things that I know about you. There's a list of things I like as well. Read it and in those pages hold me," she said.

Suddenly, the doctor barged s in and went off on Hinata and Sasuke. The doctor specifically said for Hinata to not get out of bed.

Hinata was ushered back into bed with Sasuke joining her. They were face to face, on their sides.

It was like what they did months ago. Them looking into each other's eyes. Except, something feels different.

Perhaps it was the fact that he likes her. He had an internal battle since December but he caught feelings. It is different. Or maybe that her hair fell everywhere. Perhaps that her skin was not as pale but so silky. She looked undoubtedly beautiful today. Or that his mind was colored by her. Maybe it was that he really couldn't live without her.

There was no awkwardness... it was all replaced with affection. It feels different from the way she looked at him then. Her big doe opaline eyes were wide, tinted with a lilac shade he liked. She looked at him like he was everything she needed and he wanted to run. Run fast.

After all this time, she got interested in him. Sasuke understood it from the look in her eyes. As Hinata said months ago, "For us, our eyes are the windows to our souls. They show mirrors of how the soul feels,"

And he... She probably likes him back.

She just came out and said the unexpected. "You mean everything to me, Sasuke. My hearts beats for you sometimes. Mitsuyo says our hearts don't break around each other. You make me want to twirl in my nightdress cause my demons like yours,"

He suddenly felt cold. This has the undercurrent of saying goodbye.

Sasuke had to look away. He was overcome with feeling. That wasn't good. He looked away and flipped onto his back and looked at the ceiling. "It's good like this. Maybe I need an arm. I know you. Our kids will be child prodigies with balance problems. They'll be precocious and very fast. I need a second arm to keep up,"

She looked pleased then sent him a privy smile. A teasing one. "I know you," she whispered. "That's not the reason. You can do anything with your eyes closed while asleep. It's something else. Something deeper,"

"I... worked on forgiving myself for years. I haven't. I thought I didn't need my arm 'cause I lost a part of myself already. My clan. My sanity. My will to live. I just needed physical evidence. I needed to take it with me when I died," he said bitterly.

"Sasuke... you're a mess,"

"Maybe I need to get some pieces back. I should... be whole. I don't deserve it- peace after what I've done. But I should have it. Unbreak broken you say? Mend the soul in a black in a white nightmare," he said in a hushed tone.

She opened his eyes to a world of colors and all the things he could have... should've seen. "You know... my second goal was to forgive myself and stop the self-punishment,"

She smiled. "Yeah. You did too for me. After birth... I'll bleed. I know my body, I know it will happen. Even then, after birth, I'll meet you there,"

"Me too. I'll meet you there, as well,"

Sasuke nodded. Good. The pain was like concrete. Now it's all wet sand on the beach he'd like to take her to.

Sure, he lost his way and maybe she found it for him. He wants to burn his guns, his swords, and ammo because maybe the war isn't over but he's done fighting. War is in his head but she said don't keep it there.

Perhaps she should have been the only person he thanked in his life.

-x-

9:30 pm. Night.

Her favorite numbers are 8:57 and 9:06 p.m.

The room was crowded and she was clean out of air. Her mouth tasted like talc, her face was red and sweaty.

After around eight hours of struggling with contractions, Hinata knew she'll never complain about pain ever again. Nothing compared to the feeling of two angels escaping her womb.

Labour hurt. It was just a blur of agony, shots and various voices of different pitches telling her she was doing so-so, so amazing.

Although Someina, Mitsuyo and all of her doctors sang the same chant of mellifluous praises, all she heard was Sasuke's voice.

His encouragements. His praises. His support. His affection.

He shot chakra through her and made her calm. And in that moment, she couldn't have asked for anything more.

Her knees were at her ears. She went from five centimeters dilated to ten centimeters so quickly, she forgot to feel the pain from the adrenaline rush. The doctors told her to push. Pushing hurt.

She felt herself getting weaker. She hid it. Hinata probably broke Sasuke's hand with all the squeezing. Sasuke did look like he might faint or throw up from the exertion of it all.

And her babies were beautiful. Kami. So beautiful. All the insomnia, agony, mornings and nights suffering- it all disappeared into a puff of smoke. The hell evaporated and heaven was with her twins.

Aside from Sasuke's laugh, ironically, their cries was her favorite sound.

The boy was older with Sasuke's slightly tanned skin. He had tufts of her navy blue locks. He was bigger, at 7lbs. The girl was smaller but louder at 6.2lbs. Her cries erupted out of the room.

Hinata burst out into tears, yelling like a madman about whether or not her babies were alright.

They were. She only believed it when Sasuke said it. "They're beautiful," he echoed, looking at them they were the most precious thing in the world.

And she saw his smile. He was still stoic but happiness poured out of his every pore. She smiled too, feeling it everywhere. She felt like passing out, kissing him, dying, screaming with joy and sobbing because of all the stress-

But- but her babies were fine and she had them. They're in the world after the cord was cut!

They were so beautiful. Her beautiful girl, her beautiful boy!

Sasuke was the first to hold them. He saw them in the new and perfect light. Then, she was handed her miracles. They were frantic and tiny! They were perfection with their tufts of hair and tiny feet. Then they laid the babies on her chest-

She's never felt more alive in her life. She felt everything- hate, love, frustration, bliss and she let it all go. Tears sprouted from her eyes. "Hi, my loves. I'm- I'm your ka-san! I love you both, so, so much!

They stitched her up after some bleeding occurred. She knew it would go smoothly so she didn't panic.

The relief she felt was tremendous

Finally. They finally have a full and complete family.

1 a.m. Early morning.

The babies were taken away to be inspected and tested. She needed rest as well. She was depressed about that. Obviously.

They were healthy, they just needed to be checked out. She argued but she hadn't realized it was around one a.m and she's already spent near five hours with her babies.

She was too lonely, greedy for their attention. To hold them, to love them, to be with them. She would never be satiated. Never.

Hinata laid in bed, panting. Sasuke was at her side, just breathing easy with her, herhwrapped up in his arms. She was recovering from the exertion. She hersfeltelf losing ground with reality. Hinata looked dazed, tired and pale. Paler. She looked kind of gray.

Sasuke gazed at her, worried. "Should I get the doctor?" he inquired.

She just gave birth- the relief of the fiery pain of bringing two beautiful infants into the world was ebbing away. She's supposed to be shining, glowing but she feels like she's one step into the grave.

She felt the security- the silent ease that came along with breathing less. He was wrapped around her and that was the way she wanted to go.

"It's so... quiet," she gave a susurration ... looking at the tiny hospital room with slit for eyes. Everything's so blue.

Naruto's sky blue used to be her favorite color. She lied to Sasuke that night, really, she didn't want to offend him. Now her favorite color is probably the shade of Sasuke's skin.

He just moved away and Hinata reached for him. "Stay. Stay. Stay here," Hinata panicked, still having a hard time moving. After her practically begging, he slipped back onto the bed.

She sighed, smiling. "Kami! It's over! The babies are here, we're alive and safe. I can go on peacefully,"

"You're not going anywhere," Sasuke scolded.

"Oh but I am. My mother... she died due to childbirth complications. I took after my mother more than my father. So I am going... I just don't know where,"

"Why the fuck haven't you told me?" Sasuke hissed, gritting his teeth.

Hinata just shrugged. "It's better to think that everything would go alright,"

"It's not practical," Sasuke looked at Hinata. "Why do you keep on looking at me like that?" he snapped, angry.

"Just wanted to remember this. Us. This. Our babies,"

"Why? You'll have plenty time,"

She was hooked up to I.V bags, a heart monitor and a bunch of other machines her slow mind was still labeling as semi-important. She sat up even though everything in her protest against the volatile action. She reached over and smiled.

"Come here, I've got a secret," she slurred, feeling heavy and sluggish.

She leaned in close. She would have loved making up new numbers while being happy. She wanted to say that... she lied when she said she didn't like when he shaved in the mornings. That when he told her she followed him blindly she should have said something. She wanted to tell Sasuke- there's nothing blind about it. His affection in the apocalypse is bliss.

Say that he was the way she dealt with everything. That she hates, hates when he lets go of holding her. That she was so glad that they drowned the same drink at that liquor table. She would wait so long, millions of years just to see him happy.

Say that she'd walk on rusty nails to see him smile. They still had so much to talk about. But he looked too panicked to consider her words.

"What are you talking about?" he yelled, untangling himself from her limp body. She was almost inert but breathing hard yet getting no air. Were sandbags on her chest? Kami. It hurt.

But she was so- so calm. Thankful she wasn't alone. Her babies wouldn't be alone. They had Someina and Mitsuyo.

Sasuke did let her in, she broke his shell, temporarily at least...and permanently after the pregnancy and she, she tried to explain despite feeling like hell. "'M not gonna to make it. My stitches! Dilated too fast and ripped,"

"Hinata-"

"Shh. That's not the secret," she whispered. She threw in a hand grenade when she told him this; "My kami. Amazing that we got so far. If we had more time, all of my affection is for you,"

"Come closer,"

He hesitated.

"Closer,"

He leaned.

She kissed him.

Her finger traced the edge of his jaw. The world went a bit sideways as well. This was her first sober kiss as well. His lips were so smooth and cold. The kiss was flavorful... whatever Sasuke tasted like, she had that taste in her mouth. He tasted like tea or flat rum or something. Something sweet and sour... Something distinctly Sasuke. It was like... like one hundred and twenty volts. It wasn't soft and yearning. She thought that this kiss would be soft and yearning-

She pulled away. "Wow. I should have done that often. Regrets... regrets," Hinata sighed against his lips.

They broke apart and Sasuke just stared at her, also looking regretful.

Then she felt cold and the stitches no longer held.

His eyes widened in horror. He paled and the room fell two degrees. "That wasn't a kiss. That was a goodbye. What the hell, Hyuuga?" he hissed.

His mad eyes stopped roaming her face. He held his ground. "You're bleeding," he stated simply.

That was about the time when she lost eight pints of blood.

And Sasuke said something but the darkness pulled her under. Someone held and shook her. She knew he said three words. She never knew what he said. She wanted to.

The nurses burst into the room, Someina screamed at Sasuke and it became a blur-

She didn't even get to say goodbye to her babies.

It was alright cause she loved them. And it's bittersweet because... she had affections for Sasuke.

But she closed her eyes and she left.

-x-

May 15th. Late afternoon.

She felt like crap. Everything hurt.

Hinata came to. She heard shuffling. Her eyes were unstuck and she looked around.

A hospital room. She was hooked up to a heart monitor, there was a tube in her mouth that made her teeth feel... displaced. A ventilator.

Why does she need a ventilator?

She opened her mouth and choked on the tube. It was jammed down her throat and she didn't need it. It was warm and her mouth was dry. She hated this feeling. Then she tried to get it out of her mouth but she felt gloved hands stroke her face.

The blur was a blur when she heard a feminine voice scolding her. "Natsukawa-san, please do not touch it. We are removing the ventilator," the nurse/doctor figure said.

The ventilator was taken out and Hinata released a sigh.

She had cotton mouth and her throat was sore...

"Water..." Hinata croaked out. She felt drugged... like she had surgery or something.

The doctor nodded and handed her a glass cup. Hinata hesitated then the doctor said, "It's safe,"

Then, forcing herself to sit up a bit, she clasped her hand around the cool glass and finally remembered.

The twins! Benjiro! Sasuke!

The glass cup shattered when it slipped from her grasp.

She has to go and find them. She has to go and see them. They can't survive without her. Who fed them? Who clothed them? Who was the one who soothed their cries? She wasn't there. She was the one who was supposed to.

The doctor shook her head. "Natsukawa-san, you are too unfit to see your children at the moment. Wait for a little and I promise you'll see them. Take some time to rejuvenate and rest,"

Like hell, Hinata would. Without unknown strength Hinata never knew she had, she whipped the blankets off of her and pulled out the I.V cords.

The door suddenly swung open and she stared face to face with Sasuke.

Her eyes softened and the pain left... just a bit. Instead of the medical high she felt, it was replaced with Sasuke's warm feelings.

They had two babies together. They kissed. And now she was awake...

His lips parted and she sighed."I came back. I met you there," she whispered, expecting him to embrace her... Congratulate her.

Instead, he just stared at her, scoffed then turned around. She gasped, offended. He... he just turned around and left. What? Why would he do that?

She couldn't care about that.

She suddenly heard shrieks and hoots. That sounded like Benjiro... She moved closer. She has to see her son. Both of them and her daughter.

Where are they?

She moved forward and the doctor blocked her. "I suggest you return to bed," she ordered firmly. "Now. We have not been able to access you, alright. Your babies are safe and taken care of. Uchiha-san is taking care of them, so is Mitsuyo-san and your caretaker Someina-san. They are alright but you are of no use if you are not well enough to take care of them,"

"You all haven't done anything that isn't included in the medical protocol?" Hinata asked. The doctor nodded.

"They are in the care of Uchiha Sasuke?" Hinata asked and the doctor nodded.

Hinata stopped being stiff. "Did he name them?" Hinata asked. The doctor shook her head.

"Are they beautiful?" Hinata asked.

The doctor nodded. "Very,"

Hinata nodded. "Thanks..."

Hinata sighed and climbed into bed. When she settled down, she saw everyone flood in. Benjiro, Taiyo, Mitsuyo, Someina, Miyana and even Suigetsu was there.

But there was no sign of Sasuke. She did get to see Benjiro again and he squealed, going a mile a minute about how happy he was to see her awake and how he loved his siblings even though they cry incessantly.

She hummed and let everyone fawn over her. Just why did Sasuke just- leave... like that?

-x-

May 17th. Evening.

She went in and out of consciousness.

She came to again. He was in the room and she kind of felt fuzzy. Her head was filled with cotton balls and pain danced around her pelvis. Her nose had cement in it and her head pounded like a beatbox. She felt like crap but at least she was alive.

Her babies were so beautiful! She knew it and he knew it. Sasuke, however, did not want to spend time with her.

She spent so much time with him. She knew what made him so angry. She knew what made him smile. She knew how to make him laugh. She knew what made him... run.

But she... she felt so guilty. She almost... made Sasuke raise them alone. And she kissed him. It was wonderful and felt like one hundred and twenty one volts. She still feels his touch on her lips.

"Damn it, Hinata," she heard him say.

"Sasuke," she gasped, sitting up in bed.

"Just- just shut up,"

"Sasuke-" she pleaded.

"Shut up," he snapped.

Hinata furled her eyebrows and crossed her arms, scowling at him. "What's your problem? Explain not explode-"

"Fine," Sasuke shook his head and his voice was dangerously cold. "I held you when your chakra signature faded, when your heart almost stopped and you were... dying. You can't just leave like that. That wasn't the damn deal," his voice, once again, harsh like a blizzard.

"It wasn't that I planned this. It just happened. I never meant to worry you," she told him.

"Books can be written on why I want and should be left alone. But never, never would I expect to met you. You are nice, normal, disturbingly domestic and I make a bond. At least three and realize, everything is temporary. It's a basic understanding that dawns on you. Everything dies young, despite how much you promise and care. Suddenly, I wished I heard your characteristically neurotic and insecure disquiets about anything at all at night," he was getting louder with more words.

"It didn't happen the way I wanted it to. Then fine! I won't sleep. I'll be a night owl insomniac with you. Kami-" she raised her voice.

"That's not good enough," he shouted.

"I promised you a lifetime," she hissed. "How is that not good enough?! Why are you yelling at me?!"

"I almost lost you," Sasuke yelled, so deafening loud that it made her bones shake.

Suddenly, all the mal feelings she had turned to dust. She stopped clenching her fist and... she sighed. "Sasuke..."

"I almost... lost you," he said, sounding lost and confused. Hinata was in a state of bewilderment.

His face is crinkled up in worry and there were stress creases between his brows. "I hate that. Making attachments was never fun or necessary or life-sustaining before you," he finally met her gaze and let a sigh of his own escape his mouth. All the fear, sadness and worry was communicated.

"And I sat in that stupid plastic chair for six days and nights not knowing if you were coming out of this. I didn't know if you'd ever be able to name your own damn children. I almost put you in a grave or I just lay awake all night waiting for your life to start again... waiting like you waited for me,"

"I'm sorry," she said. "Sasuke-"

"Just- just shut up. You... you should be sorry,"

He then hesitated and climbed into bed. He was face to face with her and she scowled at him and turned over. She was pleasantly surprised then bothered. Instead of going away like she'd hoped, he slung his arm over her waist and pulled her against him. His breath tickled the back of her neck and he was warm. He wasn't being delicate and held her so close, she thought she might suffocate but it felt good. "Don't scare me like that again," he scolded.

"Actually," She pushed him away and ignored how he drew patterns on her exposed skin. "Sasuke- let me alone,"

He narrowed his eyes. "No,"

"Sasuke," she breathed, a little sigh escaping her mouth.

"What? Don't be like that,"

"Huh? You want space. So go. Have your space," she said and shoved him off of the bed. With a thump, he fell.

"That's just harsh," Sasuke admonished, standing up and brushing himself off.

"I wanted it to be painful," she said flippantly. "You do this thing when you listen to me but don't you hear me. So have your space,"

"I don't want space," he said roughly.

Hinata stood her ground. "Go clear your head and cool down. You do not start yelling and talking to me like that. Not now and never ever in the future,"

Sasuke was quiet and he sent an apologetic look at her.

"You walked out. I wanted you there and you walked out. That's not what we do, Sasuke. You don't sleep on the couch and when I'm injured you don't walk out. You and I both lighten the load, touch away from the problems and lessen the pain. We make each other see the light. I respect your silences and you respect mine. You promised to come back,"

"I'm here now. I wouldn't walk out for real," Sasuke said. "I needed to process you being alive again,"

"You couldn't process it with me? We just had children together and you-you left. I don't want that," she said firmly. "Not when I'm sick or I'm- I'm fine,"

"I'm here now. Be patient with me," he said.

"I am. Sasuke, Kami, are you even thankful for that? And why stay if we're just going to argue?"

"Because I'd rather fight with you than be with someone else,"

Sasuke sighed and she felt heartbreaking disappointment. "What are you doing?" she said.

"Leaving, like you want," he said nonchalantly and made for the door. A fraction of a second later, Hinata was up.

Then, Hinata wanted so strongly for him not to go. For him to hug her, rock her until he knew Hinata would feel okay.

She slid her arms around him and hugged him from behind. Her forehead was pressed to the space between his shoulder blades. He paused, momentarily tensed but she didn't back down.

She shook her head and he felt the kneading motion. "No- not when we're trying to talk about us. I- I may say it but I don't mean it. I never mean it and I-" she held him to closer. "Stay. Don't go. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want you there. I'd be lying if I said anything remotely related to that,"

He nodded.

"Join me?" she asked. "In... whatever?"

"Are you going to argue?" he asked.

"No," she whispered.

"Truce?" he said, a question.

"Truce," she responded, confirmation.

"I'll join," he said, finally. Relaxed.

He turned around and she gave him a body-crushing hug. It bordered on the fear of losing him. She didn't care because she squeezed every drop of air out from between them. He returned the same sentiments. His arms wrapped around her waist and she allowed it. There is that feeling of a nice fit.

Inside a hug, Hanabi, you could do anything. Smile or cry. Resuscitate or die. Or you could stop time and stay there forever. She stayed there forever.

He just held her closer, sighing in relief as she maneuvered herself so they were pressed together. She missed this- the silent companionship that meant... the world to her. On a whim, she let her eyes shut and absorbed the affection, like a nearly dried sponge.

"I'm glad you're alive," he admitted quietly.

"Vice versa," she whispered.

The time they spent standing like that was unknowable. She'd rather much stay here with Sasuke. They stood, swathed on each other and in that moment, she knew that their sentiments were understood. Sorry, it said.

He leaned back and their foreheads touched. It was a moment of peace and warmth. A plea for closeness.

"You know... you always find a way to make me feel better. I'll be here. Even if you throw out your shoes to not run or break your kneecaps. Once you decide to let me in, I'll be here," Hinata said, closing her eyes.

"I've let you in,"

She nodded. "You know this thing we do... it's for the purpose of getting through this life together, not just this week or this day," she said.

"Is that why you kissed me?" he chuckled.

"You're insufferable," she said, hiding her face in the crook of his neck.

"I can't be too bad 'cause you kissed me," Then there was a strange look on his face. Like he was hit with a realization and bravery. "Hinata- I have something to tell you,"

The door suddenly opened and Sasuke scoffed. It was a nurse with a worried Someina. "Leave us alone," Sasuke growled. Hinata laughed.

The nurse blanched, intimidated by Sasuke's tone. "Oh- oh, I am sorry Natsukawa-san and Uchiha-san," the nurse squeaked and ran away.

Someina was too used to the hostility to be fazed. Someina looked at Sasuke and Hinata, dumbfounded. "Oh," Someina said, taking a step back. "You both were yelling so loud and it went quiet. I thought you murdered each other,"

"Someina, just leave," Sasuke deadpanned. "I would never murder her. Notwithstanding, I have no problem killing you,"

Someina shook her head, her green hair flying. "I have to congratulate Hinata and stop playing- Sasuke, you adore me," Someina scoffed playfully.

"No, I don't. I wish for us to be better strangers," Sasuke sneered.

"You have to like me sooner or later because I'm the twin's godmother- you'll never get rid of me," she grinned.

"Her?" Sasuke asked, offended. He shot a look of disappointment to Hinata. "Why her?"

"And Mitsuyo," Hinata nodded. "They love our children very much and she's very dear to me,"

"I'm dear to you? Thank you... I forgot to say that I would die for you. But I would. And for Benjiro and the twins," Someina said and bowed to Hinata. Someina nodded. "Speaking of children, Benjiro is with Mitsuyo- they're stealing rice pudding from the cafeteria. The twins are being moved from the NICU,"

Hinata nodded, wondering what to say to Miyana. They've... not been on good terms. That's a problem for another day.

Someina perked up and said, "Now that you're not pregnant, Hinata... do you want to get drunk indoors or out in public?"

Hinata thought for a moment. "Public," she said, surprising herself.

"I have to get back to the babies," Someina winked at Hinata and made for the door.

"If you come in here again, I'll break your kneecaps," Sasuke called after her.

She left.

Hinata swirled back and gave her attention to Sasuke. "What were you going to say?"

"Thanks," he whispered, pressing their foreheads together again. "Thank you, Hyuuga Hinata,"

She smiled, shy. "What are we?" Hinata asked. "I... I kissed you. I'm sorry-"

He just shook her head. "Thanks for that as well,"

She may or may have not kissed him again.

-x-

Benjiro jumped all over the room, excited and beaming. He mentioned to random nurses and doctors that he had siblings and that his Nata and Sasu were just people in the world (which was just Kumo to him). When they finally got him to settle down and finally meet his brother and sister in front of Hinata, he was nervous and shy.

He couldn't see over the bed's edge so Sasuke picked him up and held him in his arms so he could see the tiny humans breathe.

He stared at the two bundles of joy in her arms. Benjiro crawled onto the bed and laughed. Benjiro stared at Hinata and said, "Nata... you need a shower but you do look pwetty,"

"Only you know how to make a girl feel special, handsome," Hinata laughed and said, "They're very delicate so do not wake them up. Or drop them. They're very small for a reason, Benjiro. If you drop these babies, Nata and Sasu will not be happy,"

"Okay, Nata," Benjiro nodded. "They so small an'... an' blue! Cool. I wan 'em forever,"

Hinata smiled. "Yeah, Ben, they're going to be your siblings. You can keep them forever,"

"Is that Mango sister? An'... Mango broder?"

"They're not mangoes-" Sasuke argued, shaking his head. Hinata shot him a scolding look and he rolled his eyes. "Yeah. They're mangoes," Sasuke nodded. "What do you want to name him?"

He shrugged. "Mango sis and mango bro or Nata baby giwl and Nata baby boy or- Sasu baby boy or Sasu baby giwl or Mango Sasu baby giwl or Mango Sasu baby boy or Mango Nata baby giwl an' Mango Nata baby boy," he pointed to the two grinned. "Whacha think? Nata an' Sasu?" He asked, proud of himself.

"That's... that's going on the birth certificate," Sasuke chuckled.

Hinata threw another dark look at Sasuke. "We'll take that as a middle name,"

Benjiro lit up. "Which one? Mango sis and mango bro or Nata baby giwl and Nata baby boy or- Sasu baby boy or Sasu baby giwl or-"

"It's fine- Ben... baby, it's fine," Hinata interrupted him. "Baby, what fruits do you like?"

"Mangoes... an' pears!"

"Amarante Nashi Uchiha... and what's his name?" Sasuke asked.

"It has to start with 'h' and... How about..." Hinata paused and looked at Sasuke. "Hiro... mitsu?"

"Hiromitsu... Ichirou Uchiha?" Sasuke nodded.

"Welcome to the world, Hiromitsu, and Amarante," she announced. They really were beautiful. That's all she could say... perfect...

She nodded and smiled. "We're basically an Uchiha clan,"

"We're not all Uchiha. Not yet," Sasuke said thoughtfully.

"Not yet?" Hinata asked.

"Someday. You'll be one. That's just in our reality,"

"Is that a promise? Will you ask me to be one?" Hinata said, biting her lip.

"That depends on you and your answer," Sasuke responded, blasé.

Benjiro suddenly looked scared and he looked between Hinata and Sasuke. "Nata... Sasu, can I call... you Otou-san and Ka-san? I heard kids call they Nata an' Sasu... otou-san an' ka-san,"

"Maybe you don't need the genjutsu after all," Sasuke said.

Hinata squealed and nodded, tears welling in her eyes. "Honey... of course. Of course you can,"

Benjiro whooped. He looked at Sasuke. Sasuke nodded and Benjiro began laughing. Benjiro cheered and Hinata grinned at Sasuke. "We're a Uchiha clan!"

-x-

May 21st. Three years later.

A lot... happens in three years.

The pregnancy and labour was a breeze compared to raising all the kids

She loves them but they're so crazy.

First of all, Amarante, Hiromitsu and Benjiro Uchiha are the best things to happen to her. She loves them like no other and cherishes more than any other thing on earth. However, she finds herself wondering- why parenting was so damned difficult.

She never goes to the bathroom alone, her name is always shouted, never spoken and there's always someone in her bed at night. Maybe one, maybe three.

The three year twins- oh how she adores them.

Amarante was a little devious sweetheart. She was the opposite of what Hinata was growing up. She's boisterous, confident and intelligent, not being a closet chatterbox. She's the burnt charcoal-haired with black ringlets darling with lilac-tinted byakugan eyes and Sasuke's slightly tanned skin. She was more carefree- instinctively experimental, living her toddler life on the edge and always smiling.

Hiromitsu was also a shy devious sundance. He was curious and observed the world carefully. He was the quiet impulsive type that was just as willing to play schemes with his counterpart. He fussed over the small things that and didn't talk often, choosing to communicate with affection and significant looks. He had her midly waved hair, Sasuke's black eyes and Sasuke's slightly sun-browned skin.

While they did make for entertaining conversations and occasionally the good laugh, they were loud, writhing maniacs.

Benjiro was sweet. He was a bit taller and so precocious, all of their kids were. Perhaps the atheletic abilities came from Sasuke, the reading skills from her, the intelligence from him, the chakra-control from him and the ability to be so freakin cute- was hers. But... his facial structure belonged to Mitsuyo. They looked so distantly similar. It was strange- if Mitsuyo had a son and this son had a son, it would be Benjiro.

Benjiro's past needed to be explored. She decided to talk to Benjiro's uncle and aunt when she found them.

The twin's birthday was on May eighth and Benjiro didn't have a birthdate so she said it was on December second, the day she found him.

Anyhow, Uchiha Aoi Benjiro, was seven now and she absolutely adored him. He loved Kumo, he was even going to the Kumogakure academy in the fall. He was probably more advanced an all the students combined, the Raikage said one day after a tea encounter. Benjiro loved to read, be ourside, and he loved sports (fishing and kunai-throwing was his favorite).

Taiyo and Miyana were at the house more often. As the years went by, Taiyo spent half the week at Hinata's house due to the increase in missions Miyana had to perform. Miyana.. has been going through a rocky patch. She divorced her husband but used substances and working excessively to get through it... It was hard on all of them.

For the past two weeks, Taiyo has been waiting for his dear mother to return from another mission. Taiyo did, however, enjoy being with her kids. He acted like a big brother to Amarante and Hiromitsu. They think he's their older brother, even when Benjiro and Taiyo gang up on the twins.

Someina worked at the hospital with Hinata. Someina was merely a second year resident. She wanted to be with Hinata at all times. Her training was cut in half after Miyana and Hinata taught Someina all the basics of being a doctor.

Mitsuyo was at home with the kids and Sasuke. She... let Hinata in. Sasuke did go on missions but they regulated their schedules so that they were both at home to spend time with the kids.

It was a good life. A good routine.

Three years ago, right after the babies were born, things changed.

After two months of total isolation- the number of ANBU (who observed them constantly) depleted considerably after the Raikage spoke to Sasuke. The first encounter landed in more than sixteen front page newspapers articles because the two shinobi created waves when they broke two mountains.

They fought for three hours until Hinata broke it up. She healed the Raikge first since Sasuke threw the first punch. Sasuke was hurt but inflicted the most damage. In gratitude for healing him, the Raikage and Hinata had a tea lunch with a brew Hinata specifically created.

To keep the peace and discuss all things Sasuke, Hinata met with the Raikage. Kakashi and the Raikage agreed to protect Sasuke in Kumo, which was awesome. They were all on better terms... even if the occasional fight happened. Kakashi and Sasuke were at odds, she didn't know why. Hinata has to accompany Sasuke to his meets with the Raikage and other ANBU interrogations so he won't kill. Period.

She was amicable to the Raikage for her children and for Sasuke's safety. With the official citizenship certificates that both Hinata and Sasuke received, they were legally permitted to stay in Kumo.

With the history of Kumo pursuing the byakugan, she needed to take measures of her own. She became friendly. The Raikage eventually made laws in Kumo about how the byakugan would be sought after. Hinata and Amarante (the only two byakugan users in Kumo) would be protected by the Raikage and his laws.

The second reason why she was nice was for the Raikage to trust her to eventually ease up on the amount of ANBU guarding her. She meant to appear trustworthy. It worked because he lessened the security detail surrounding Mitsuyo's house.

He also knew that she was Hyuuga Hinata, which was in of itself, a predicament.

He hadn't told anyone of her real identity. He hadn't told Hiashi either. He allowed her to rest and be happy in Kumo. She owed him.

He trusted her with personal struggles with his wife (it was his assistant) and Hinata confided in him with her own troubles.

They were freer but... not allowed to leave.

This came with pros and cons.

Pros: the kids are safe with the ANBU, they are officially permitted to reside in Kumo, they can roam Kumogakure freely, Hinata is allowed to work, she became a close friend of the Raikage, she had some political allies and they weren't under house arrest.

Cons: people know that the Uchiha live in Konoha and she wasn't particularly allowed to leave Kumo.

To defend her children, she trained a lot. The minute the babies were born, she felt the chakra running through her veins. She felt powerful again- like she wasn't missing a part of her skills. Since she had her chakra, she had her dojutsu, fuinjutsu and taijutsu.

She would never admit but being around forces like Sasuke... made her feel inferior as a kunoichi. She couldn't help it. He was so powerful and he had nothing to prove.

She still had so much to prove.

With her tattoo seal band around her arm and the flower tattoo on her lower back, she knew she had to improve her fuinjutsu. If she were a master, she could undo the seal.

The ANBU who guarded her all used swords and their lightning affinity. She learnt to counter their asses.

She trained more than she had before in fuinjutsu and with her byakugan again. Her technique became rusty after ten months of not having chakra.

She trained with Sasuke and Suigetsu, becoming an expert swordsman. She was his sparring partner. He mostly won but she got better. They learned attack duo formations. They combined the strength of the byakugan and the sharingan. He was deciding whether or not to let her use the chidori.

She got two swords. The sword's name was Inazuma meaning lighting strike and Ikazuchi meaning thunder. Her double katana blades conducted electricity and cut people at the thought of it.

She could uses electric healing (she stimulated electrons to regenerate cells). She used an electric aura (a vortex of chakra around her while being laced with lightning). It was fun.

Hinata also got in touch with her electric side. She felt unstoppable with her serpent summoning animals and her blades.

She trained with Mitsuyo and became a master at fuinjutsu. It was hard but worth it. The span of byakugan was wide and she can almost see a cell. She got her taijutsu back and was so quick. She improved and became a renowned Kumogakure surgeon, being the chief of trauma.

She would go to work, do missions. She can laugh with Someina like sisters.

Karin moved to Kumo after Suigetsu was condemened to remaining in Kumo. She couldn't live without him. Jugo wasn't seen ever since the attack on Kumo. Sasuke was angry and blamed himself, so did Suigetsu. Sasuke and the kids stayed together at home with Mitsuyo.

All was simple. She woke up, went to work and spent so much time with her lovely kids. She fought, laughed and talked with Sasuke. She was at peace.

She got home and smiled when Benjiro, Amarante and Hiromitsu rushed to give her kisses and hugs. Even Sasuke may have kissed her cheek or lips. She could stay here forever.

End Chapter

Ovidae here!- A/N... (Long one)

We're moving to part two of the story. It's shorter but more action packed. This could be the end of Sweet Dispositions and onto the continuation Hinata's Nonsense but I'll just merge them together- why not.

The first part was the first three-ish years in Konoha/ Kumo. And the next 100k words will be about the next two-ish years in Konoha. Part two will advance quicker and have less Sasuhina moments- since some think I drag this on too much. So- eh, i'll shorten the 400k story to 350k. Long story with more fluff or short story with more action? Tell me in the reviews.

I could do either story- it really depends on what you guys want. If I go on a like break, would you guys like for me to release the 13 chapters that could be in the plot but I cut, since I dragged on too much?

Some readers said that my story is hard to follow so I went back and after every line break, I added the date the section takes place and the time of day. It wasn't a writing style, apparently.

Also, the last chapter. Wowow. Some people liked it but others. Meh. Not so much. I thought it was good then some sighed. I was proud but like it made me reconsider a lot of things... so I revamped the story like a lot. Yeah.

But yeah- this time, I promise double uploading Tuesdays are back in effect.