No!

That is not true and can't be true. I had to stick to my feelings and get my head out of seeing Travis as nothing more than a friend. I have been with guys before and I knew what that feeling was. It freaked me out having that with him though. I numbed it down with him being very upset and that my body just wanted to help him in some way.

We are older and its just hormones Kendall, that's all. I thought about him getting close to my neck though and started wondered if he was having feelings for me now. No way could this be happening, I don't want it to be a (one thing led to another moment) with us.

"Thanks for making me laugh Kendall." He said and got up off the bed to walk up to me.

My stomach was knotting up from him getting close again.

CHILL THE SHIT OUT!!! JUST ASK HIM!! GET IT OVER WITH!!

I grabbed his arms before he got to close, like we were before and shook him.

"Are you sure its all out now?" I chuckled.

"Yes it is." He reply and tried to get out of my hands that were holding his arms and give me a hug. I was scared of  hugging him now, but I knew he needed it, so I let go, so he could hug me.

BAD MISTAKE!!

He came up slow. His hands were to close to my hips when he went in to wrap them around my waist. He pulled me in by my lower back. I had no choice at that moment to put my arms around his back. My breast went into Madonna mode, feeling his chest pressed against mine. I felt weak and hot. The fucking room was now a sauna. I had to stop him and ask. Before I let a word out though he continued to speak.

"Thank you, that was exactly what I needed."

I suddenly felt so much better right after he said that. It was still hotter than a oven in the room, but I was no longer aroused by his touch. This was my friend nothing more nothing less and I need to be honest with him how I feel or was feeling. I also was curious if it wasn't just me feeling this way.

 When he let go, I walked to his bed and hopped on it, propping myself up on his headboard. He turned around and leaned into his dresser looking at me. He had a happy expression on his face and looked more relaxed.

"Was it just me or did we just have one of those, one thing led to another moments?"

We both knew what that was. There was a kid in school last year that got a girl pregnant after quote: "Consoling her after her mom died and one thing lead to another."  It was funny asking him about it and I laughed. I was relieved to see his head go back into  laugher himself.

I calmed my laugh down to ask him though.

"Seriously!? You were going to kiss my neck, weren't you?" I said, grabbing his one pillow he had on the bed and threw at him. I aimed it at his face and he caught it to quick though, still laughing.

"Ha ha ha, oh don't go there, you were going to let me." He said, throwing the pillow back at me. I dodged it and it hit the head board instead.

"I'm just going through a bunch of shit right now, sorry you felt good rubbing on me and all." He smirked and then smiled. "I took Lexy home Friday to her house before going to my dads and before I had time to turn the engine off she jumped on me. We started making out and she quits in the middle of getting me all worked up and says, "Lets wait and finish this after the prom." So that left me blue balled for the whole day, not to mention what happened later with my dad."

"I understand, lets just forget it."  I smiled at him then busted into laughter again, thinking about what he had just said.

 "Blue balls."

He ran up to the bed and I screamed. I knew what he was going to do and I tried to get away but it was to late. He grabbed my sides hard and dug his fingers into them. Tickling me hard. I couldn't breathe from laughing and the pain in my sides. He was so strong, I couldn't get his grip off of me.

"What did you call me?"

"Ha, ha, ha, blue- Ah!- Stop! ha, ha, ha."

"What Kendall? I seem to be going deaf."

"Blue balls now stop!! I'm going to kick- ha, ha- you!" I raised my leg and almost did. But he stood up after I said that, panting looking down at me all wide eyed. He knew my legs were stronger than him.

 We once wrestled eachother and he could pin me all the time unless I used my legs on him. He knew I would mess him up if I kicked him.

"No name calling, otherwise you'll be called clench clit from now on." He laughed and turned around, walking out of his room. He put his hand up over his head to wave me into his direction.

 "Lets go raid the kitchen."

"Good Idea."