Hi guys. Back with an update .Hope it lives upto your expectations . And no this is not the  the final update , had a change of heart . This will be a three shot instead and the final one will be posted on Friday .

    
         This one has No Swara as the title stated, I think it fair to let you know beforehand . 

48 hours later

Kavita stood in her guest room as his mother kept talking about how to convince her son , She didn't understand why his mother supported her over his wife but she didn't question her about it as her mind was wandering about something else .

The week has barely started but she knew she lost him . Not because he didn't love her but because she didn't know him . He has the same face , same mannerisms yet he wasn't the person she loved .

When they met in college through mutual friends. It took him one day to ask her out . They had this attraction from the first time they met which turned into love in the blink of an eye .

She loved him when she said yes to marry him , she loved him when she dreamed of a future with him but she didn't love him now a fact that was wrecking chaos in her heart and mind .

She heard his mother voice addressing her son. Then only she turned around to see him. She used to be so attuned to him that she would know he was around before he reached her but now he was standing two feet apart and she didn't realize .

" Where do you want to today kavita " he asked always so polite towards her , treated her with respect and even a familiarity of friendship but still she couldn't look up to him and see the person she loved .

" To our college " she said as she made up her mind , she believed revisiting those memories can make her realize why she loved him and maybe then she can try to change his mind .

" That a great idea " his mother chimed in which seemed to have made him angry .

" Swara is your bahu. And no one will replace her " he spoke up to his mother when he thought she as out of ear shot but she heard him and she wondered why it didn't hurt as she expected .

On the ride back to her college. She thought about why she couldn't feel the same love for him . And briefly wondered if there is no such as eternal love and all love may fade away .

" When did you know you loved her " the question slipped out as she was confined in the car with him .

" When I realized I might lose her . When she got angry at me for something I did and I thought I have lost her " he replied back .

" Is it different , the love you feel for her " she asked as she needed to know .

" I Loved You Kavita , but I Love her , right now she holds my Heart in her hands and there is no place for anyone else . Maybe if I didn't met her I would have Still loved you but I moved on and I am sorry for hurting you it was not my intention " he answered back  and she knew that was all she will get at the moment. 

          " Will your love for her fade away as well " Kavita asked a moment later . And he was silent for a moment that she thought he won't answer her back but then he did

            "  I lost you after I knew you loved me right on the day we were supposed to get married. I fuelled my pain and loss in an quest on revenge for a long time that I lost a part of myself that can feel love ,  That along the way my love for you  faded as well .

               But I never really had her love until recently , and yet I knew there would be no one else for me even back when she didn't love me back . I don't need her to love me back or be with me to keep my love for her  alive  .

             So I don't think my love for her will fade away with time . As I would love her till I keep breathing even if she is with me or not " he answered back making her feel pang of envy that he didn't love her like that .

         
                But at the same time made her question her heart when it failed to love him  anymore , she can't blame him for moving on years after he thought she died but she fail to understand why within a span of two days her heart realized she didn't love the  person before her

              When they reached the college, they were glad it was a weekend . They had the chance to walk around in silence for a long time .

             Her feet wandered towards the place they spent times together.  The library , Cafeteria , her hostel entrance where he would always walk with her , and then finally their favourite spot .  They had found it quite by accident , behind the hostel there was a tree hidden from view  yet big enough to offer shade from the scorching sun .

                     It was their secret place , the place he asked her to marry him . But when they walked around the hostel , the tree was no more in  its place .And the sight of the empty place brought in the first wave of tears she held back . 

               He held her as a friend for comfort  while she cried for a long  time . She didn't know why she couldn't love him anymore .

         Maybe her love had been fickle that it faded away when she knew his heart belonged to someone else . Maybe she was still searching for the person she fell in love in him when he changed she couldn't connect with him , or maybe she loved him enough in the past to know he really wont be happy with her .

         Whatever's her reasons might be she knew it was time to let him go ,free him from his responsibility towards her .. So she collected herself to tell him that even when she didn't know what she will do next .

        " I Loved You Sanskar .. " she spoke  and saw the flash of pain in his face for her hurt ..

       " But not anymore . I look up to you and I don't see the person I fell in  love with , you changed and I still long to see a glimpse of the old you but I realize it isn't fair to expect that from you when you heart already belonged to someone else .

             I Loved You Sanskar , but I don't love you and it is because of that I take back what I asked from you , I don't need a week . I think it time i let you follow your heart , and I want you to be happy with your wife .. " She spoke up and saw his face alight with a smile , even the smile seemed different than the one that he used to bestow on her and she was thankful because it would have hurt to see his old smile .

           As they drove back she wondered for the first time what she will do next.  She had no money of her own , had no idea how to live on her own but she knew she had to leave the hospitality of the Maheshwari house soon .

                Was she legally dead as well ,she knew her mother lied to both Sanskar and his uncle that she died , Sanskar so he would not find out she was still alive and to his uncle so she can blackmail him to part with his money .

              When she first saw Sanskar uncle , he apologized for the accident he caused which resulted in her coma , and how can she blame him still when her mother extorted money from him to live in luxury .

         If only her mother  knew Sanskar was his nephew than she would have told Sanskar the truth as she would have liked nothing better than her daughter marrying into rich family . And if only Sanskar knew why his uncle was paying her mother he wouldn't have assumed his uncle planned to kill her when it was an terrible accident 

        She couldn't very well ask more money from Sanskar or his family when they have paid more than enough to her mother who is currently in jail .. And in a world where she had no job or money she was scared to face it alone .

              She was so lost in thoughts , she didn't know it until Sanskar stopped the car before a house and one look at the house she froze . As it brought a memory back from the past .

         " How can we get married now Sanskar , we both have no job or any security if you family disowned you for marrying a Bengali . " she had asked him

        " We will find a job Kavita ,and I have a small inheritance my grandmother left me , I can't promise you riches and luxury but I will keep you happy " he had promised her than and she believed him

          Soon they were dreaming of how their new home would look when they earned enough to build one and the house looked exactly like the one they dreamed together . His voice broke her out of her thoughts .

         " I built it when I first earned enough to build one " he spoke up

        " Why ..I was dead " she asked him taken back by his depth of love for her .

        " I wanted a remainder of all I lost , what better place to wallow in guilt and revenge than the home we could have shared if you lived " he answered back and walked upto the door and rang the calling bell and a smiling very pregnant woman greeted him who seemed to know him .

        " Ajay ..Look who here " she called on to someone when the said person came to greet them .

       " I sold this house to them " he whispered to her and awhile she felt the loss but realized it was the right  decision

      " Is the woman you love , the reason you decided to sell this house " the person called Ajay asked while his very pregnant wife brought in refreshments

       " No this is the woman I loved for whom I built this house " he answered back and the smile left Ajay face .

       " You said she was dead " his wife asked and then froze when she realized what she spoke up .

      " It was a misunderstanding " Kavita answered and realized the young couple thought they are here to buy the house back .

        " I just wanted to show her the house not buy it back " Sanskar answered which reassured the couple who gladly took her around to see the house .

           It only after they took leave from the house kavita realized she didn't know Sanskar reasons for bringing her into the house . As if knowing what she was gonna ask ,he spoke up instead .

       " I decided to sell the house a day before I was gonna get married , I waited for the right couple , someone who could build a future like we envisioned and I met Ajay and his wife who could barely afford to rent the house much less buy it .

            Yet they reminded me so much of ourselves that I sold it to them , their pride won't let them take it for free , so we set the price and agreed they would pay whenever possible .  " he spoke up as he took out a bank passbook and hand it over to her .

       " And they did pay up as much as they can till now , they both have quiet decent job so I know they will  pay it back in full .  And I just asked them to put it in your account from now and I already moved the money they paid till now into your account "  he answered back briefly shaking her composure

        " So I would take money without pride just like my mom " she asked him affronted that he would think like that 

       " No .. Please don't mistake my gesture . This house was built for you and I was planning to donate it to charity when they payed back full . I was never going to use it again and what better way could it be used than help you find your way back into the world . " he answered back .She wanted to claim she dont want it but she knew she needed it ..

        " I will pay you back too " she answered him after awhile .

       " No .You can donate it to charity just like I always intended " he answered then gave  her another file which held her certificates .

      " How did you find it " she asked him taken back by the efforts he went through for her .

       " The Sanskar you loved might have been jobless , but I can do a lot of impossible things now " he answered back which brought a smile onto her face

          When he drove them back to his home , she felt it was time to say goodbye .

        " I can leave by tomorrow " she told him the moment the car stopped .

        " I didn't do all of this to make you leave Kavita , I did it because I care . You always will have a place in the house as a friend till you are ready to venture out " he told her..

         " Don't you think your wife would have an objection to that " she asked him taken back by his kindness .

         " My wife would be the one who insist on it . The reason she walked away was not because of you , it was because of me . And you need not worry about my wife reaction . " he answered back making her wonder how he could be so confident about her .

                " So when are  you are going to bring her back " she asked him as they entered the house .

            " Very soon , and I need to do something before that " with that he went inside his room as she entered her room .

                She was thankful for his kindness but she wasn't planning on overstaying her welcome as she logged into the laptop his sister lent her , she searched for job vacancies

           By the end of the night she applied for  ten jobs and all of them were in US . She knew she needed not only time but distance from the man she loved if she had to move on and as she lay awake in the bed she briefly wondered how he was faring in getting back with his wife .

           It was because she loved him and wished for his happiness , she hoped he would be able to win his wife back .

P.S : " That it for now ..Let me know your thoughts and feedback .Hit the votes if you liked it "

Love

Nita