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               Sujatha Maheshwari  had always believed that she was the only one who knew the truth that could shatter her son heart ,so she held on to the secret and believed that nothing will change. 

                Until she saw her son face and the words that were uttered ,he asked her to get out . And she knew her secret no longer remained one as she saw the depth of understanding in Swara face as she tried to console her son. 

             Yet Sujatha feet refused to move ,she didn't want to lose her son ,hadn't she mourned for him years thinking he was dead because of her crimes ,hadn't she believed he lost his mental facilities because of her actions .

                   And when she finally had him back ,she didn't have it in her to tell him the truth and lose him once again and yet she lost him as he continued asking her to leave .

                     The sound of his scream made her husband and daughter enter the room as well ,and she realized while her husband accepted lot of her faults and continued to love her ,this one will not be forgiven and she may lose her entire family as well .

           " Uttara ,please take mom outside " Swara voice echoed in the room and Sujatha found herself being dragged out by his daughter . And her husband soon followed then out as well .

         " Now what did you do ?" her husband asked sujatha and she remained silent not willing to speak up and lose him as well.

            But being silent didn't make her problem go away because an hour later Swara emerged from her son room and Sujatha knew she had lost her family  .

             " Why is bhai acting like that bhabhi ?" Uttara voice spoke up as she rushed towards Swara in search of answer .

              " He heard some distressing news ,I just got him to sleep for sometime . " Swara answered back refusing to speak further than that .

            " Is it because of his mom " Ramprasad voice echoed in the room and Swara only nodded her head in answer but refused to say no more . 

            " What did you do Sujatha and how long will you remain silent " her husband asked her yet again and Sujatha knew she can't stay silent in front of Swara. 

    
            " I was the reason Kavita died " Sujatha made herself say those words and see the shock in her husband face who shook his head as if unwilling to believe her

                 " What did you do mom" Uttara asked her this time shaken by what she heard and yet sujatha refused to say more , she already lost her family and she refuses to say more .

           " Mom was the last one to speak to Kavita and it distressed her so much ,she walked on the ongoing traffic and got into the accident . " Swara voice echoed in the room, once again making her remember the words that shouldn't have been uttered .

         " How can you ,I asked you not to interfere didn't I " her husband was speaking to her and yet she refused to say more about it .

          " Oh Bhabhi ,how can mom do this to bhai " Uttara began crying in earnest and Swara was consoling her daughter . Sujatha noticed the flicker of hurt and anger in her daughter face and yet made herself stay silent .

             For someone who speaks non stop this was hard ,she wanted to ask them to forgive her but she always knew her mistakes can't be forgiven.

       " What should we do to help beta ?" It was her husband voice talking with Swara and sujtha listened in because she wanted to help her son as well  even if it was because of her ,he was in pain.

        " Dad ,I think he needs sometime to come to terms with what he heard and I don't think he can handle seeing mom right now " Swara spoke up and hesitated from saying further but she knew Swara was asking her to leave politely unlike her demands last night. 

          " We will leave beta " her husband promised swara and the next flight they reached back home . On some sort of accord her husband and daughter didn't say a word to the rest of the family which enabled Sujatha some breathing space .

            Because she was tired of feeling guilty ,tired of losing everyone she loved all because of one foolish mistake . She kept thinking and rethinking how it would have all changed for the better if her son didn't meet Kavita. 

              Her son had been so in love that he didn't notice he didn't hide it from his family ,and when his thoughts turned toward matrimony sujatha had to step in ,she tried to warn the girl that her son wasn't meant for ,she asked kavita to let him go and instead she planned to elope with him

                     While his son tried to keep it a secret from his entire family ,she knew from the way he glanced at the family longingly as if he may lose them the next day ,she noticed his packed bags tucked under the bed and she wrestled with the information for a whole night .

           Finally she sought her husband help to change his son mind ,instead of agreeing with her . He asked her to remain silent. His words were in show of support to his son and yet he refused to stand up for his son to his brother .

             " Is this how will it be ,will Sanskar lose his voice in the house to laksh because he married someone your brother didn't approve of ,even now you want sanskar to lose his respect in the house ." Sujatha protest fell into deaf ears ,her husband refused to stand up or interfere and it left sujatha to do something. 

         She went to the register office to stop the wedding and when her eyes landed on Kavita ,she decided to speak with her ,but she choose the cowards way as she called her instead .

            Sujatha still remembers the words she uttered calling her a low born ,gold digger and all sort of names . She wanted kavita to know she will not be welcomed in the house by anyone and then she finally gave her an ultimatum , if she married her son ,she will die right before her eyes and it will be on her shoulders .

  
             Sujatha knew the precise moment kavita saw her and believed sujatha words and then sujatha saw her desperate attempt to leave really believing Sujatha would do as she claimed and  because of that  she walked into the on going traffic with out looking .

        Sujatha knew she was dead and all it took was one moment for sujatha to become a murderer . The words she carelessly uttered caused a life and the words became true as every single day sujatha feels the guilt of her death on her shoulders . 

             Her son distraught with kavita death went to live with his friend in Mumbai for change of scenery . Then he went missing after Nikhil death ,that what she heard from Keerthi and she believed her son died as well .

            Until she had him back without full mental facilities, she believed her son was paying for her crimes until she found out his need for revenge . Each time she tried to speak up and claim it wasn't bade papa but she who was responsible the words died in her throat .

            She refused to lose him , she knew it was her guilt but she hated how the rest of the family accepted laksh choice of bride and she knew she wouldn't have gone to such lengths if they accepted her . And so she tried to snatch Laksh happiness as well .

    She kept justifying herself . She couldn't find herself support swara has Sanskar wife . It made everything worse ,it felt like she was betraying kavita in a twisted way . Kavita and Swara weren't really different and if she supported swara it meant she was wrong to push kavita away .

              It got so twisted up in her mind that she behaved recklessly ,believed everything will work out if her son married someone else until now . All her secrets were laid in open and for once she couldn't justify herself.

          
                  Her husband silence, her daughter refusal to acknowledge her ,gave her plenty of times to dwell on her mistakes and the person she changed into was so despicable that she really didn't know how she alluded herself to think that everything will be okay . 

               In the end she knew it was time to admit the truth to the one person she destroyed the most . She dialled the number and waited for her to answer .

         " You were low born , and the only reason you set your eyes on my son was because he was rich and I refused to stand by and let him destroy his life.   If you didn't leave this instant  ,I will die right before your eyes because I love my son and can't see him destroying his life by marrying you  and let see if my son will marry you over my dead body . 

            That why she walked on to the ongoing traffic to save my life  and now you know ,I am sure my son would want to know what I told Kavita . Tell him and don't spare any details.  Also I won't ask for forgiveness because I don't deserve one . " Sujatha voice didn't waver as she expected and as she ended the call without a word from the other side of the call .  She knew if there was any hope for her son happiness it rests with Swara .

                And Sujatha Maheshwari waited for her husband to return because he deserves to know the truth as well and then she will walk away from her family because she won't remain and haunt their happiness .

P.S : " That it for now . Let me know your thoughts and feedbacks .Hit the votes if you liked it . And we are reaching towards the end  Two or three more updates to go excluding the epilogue. 

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Nita