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                Swara got herself seated in the couch in his room and waited for him to speak up , she expected him to let her know she crossed a line today even if he didn't chastise her in front of his family , she fully expected to bear the brunt of his anger in the confines of the room . 

                    After the initial shock of seeing his family ,she was glad to see them . A part of her heart already accepted them as her family and the initial surprise turned into a disappointment after Sanskar mom expressed her dislike for her. 

           " Are you trying to get back into his life ,after claiming you did all of it for your parents. you now want my son as well " his mom accusation continued to rang in her head and it was because of that she blurted out. She only came because he was injured .

        Which was strictly not true as she used it as an excuse to stay with him.  Which resulted in an hour where his family rushed to his room to see him ,she hoped seeing Sanskar will alleviate their anger towards her but it didn't when it comes to his mother .

           Swara stayed outside in the living room  not knowing her place in his household , if she should walk inside his room or not and she only heard his mother cry to see her son bedridden.  

                 And when his mom finally came outside. It was to ask her to leave . " Now that we are here. You can leave " those cruel words hurt more than she let on .

         It was surprisingly Uttara who came to her defense. Who stated it was already late  and where would swara go.  It may have not brought a respite for the future but it did bring temporary relief .

                Dinner had been a quiet affair ,choosing to avoid facing Sanskar and seeing the same unwelcome in his face. She gave the food to Uttara instead to give it to her brother .

      " Have you  been feeding him well ,he looks like bone and skin " was the one sentence said during the quiet dinner  and swara refused to answer it ,as she already know his mom will choose to blame it on her.

      Just when Swara thought the day will end.  A problem arised due to the sleeping arrangements . The house had three bedroom, Sanskar room had been occupied by Raj who helps him. Sanskar refused to let her do the heavy work and made his secretary hire someone.

       She stayed in the room next to him ,and it held a single cot that she knew she couldn't share with Uttara and ended up giving the girl her room , the other room hadn't been used for a long time though it was  clean  .

        And yet  it took almost a hour to make it habitable for his parents to sleep  ,it was in that process of cleaning the room . She had yet another confrontation with his mother .

       " Where will you sleep ?" Sujatha Maheshwari asked her and for once swara had no idea. It was at the moment Raj who made himself invisible throughout the family drama spoke up , she forgot she asked him to bring new blankets from Sanskar  room.

           " You asked for the blankets . " Raj voice spoke up and seeing him made swara aware there was another way .

          " Raj can you sleep in the living room today ,you can move the cot from Sanskar room to the living room , I will call you if he needed anything " Swara spoke and when Raj nodded her head and left ,she knew it wasn't him who she needs to answer to but Sanskar mom who was glaring at her .

        " You are not staying  in the same room " Sujatha Maheshwari spoke up not caring when her voice raised a decimal louder .

        " I am ,we did it before and we can do it now " Swara answered back ,the need to stay firm and not relent her part in Sanskar family made her decide to speak up. 

         " No ,I forbid it . You can't sleep together   " Sujatha Maheshwari lashed back and Swara almost relented but she didn't want to admit defeat either. .

         " Why we did when we weren't even married and now I am his wife " Swara spoke up hating the fact though it was indeed her right to sleep in his room ,it wasn't fair .

          " No ,My son will divorce you soon . I won't have you warming you way back into his heart" Sujatha Maheshwari spoke up and Swara didn't want to let the words affect her and yet it . She was saved from further arguments at the arrival of Sanskar dad .

               After the declaration. She couldn't change the sleeping arrangement either . And even then she wasn't ready to face Sanskar. And only when she was sure he would be asleep did she enter his room to find him wide awake with a file on his hand .

             And she was a coward because she choose to sit in the couch silently and let him have the first word then speak up .

               Sanskar knew his family arrival had been hard on Swara. Because the moment his mom realized he was not seriously injured ,she started on the inappropriateness of swara staying with him .

                As far as Sanskar was concerned his mother words held no effect but Swara avoidance and refusal to see him  after their arrival bothered him .

                For a brief moment ,he thought she already left , but his sister soon clarified it when she brought in his dinner  and stated Swara wanted to give it to him .

            But when  she didn't make appearance after an hour or so , he thought his mom had forbidden her from visiting him ,and yet a little later Raj told him about the change in sleeping arrangements

            He couldn't believe it , until she entered to room just now.  And yet not a word was spoken as she sat in the couch and kept starring at him. 

            " Are you gonna leave now" he hated himself for asking that question but a part of him knew it was bound to happen soon and now that his family is here to take care of him .There was no longer a need for her to stay. 

           " No , Do you want me to leave ?" Swara spoke up ,she knew he might be angry at her ,but she didn't expect that he would ask her to leave .

  
          " Swara ,I Know you love to fix people up but that isn't going to happen between us.  We can't be friends as you want and we can't be what I want either . So where does it leaves us . No matter how long you stay here ,you can't make me forget I love you and go back to being friends " Sanskar carefully spoke up ,confided to bed for days gave him plenty of  time to think .

               Swara knew it was the moment to tell him ,she doesn't want to remain as just friends either. Seeing his family made her aware that with Sanskar ,she just doesn't want friendship but also wants to be part of his family. 

           Yet unlike Sanskar ,her heart isn't clear either . She knows she had unexplained feelings  for him , more than a friend but still she is scared to give it a name . And the three words he uttered makes her worried as well .

           Does she like him , love him . She didn't know but she refuse to raise his hopes when she didn't know her mind . She knows she wasn't a kid to he unsure of her heart .

                But with Sanskar. She didn't get to have the normal stage , they pretends to be married first ,then they were forced to get married and he loved her and there was no way she could ask him ,if she can take time to come to terms with her feelings .

          Because she didn't want to raise his hopes and crush his heart when she was unsure of her heart , it was because of that she remained silent when Sanskar told her in no certain terms that there isn't a way to fix them .

           " Who lived in this house before you ?" Swara made herself speak not willing to acknowledge what Sanskar told her ,she hoped he would take the bait for a change in conversation and let herself remain with him for now. 

        " Swara " Sanskar began speaking trying to make her understand they can't go on like this but something about the way she looked at him ,gave him a pause it was as if she was desperate not to talk about it. 

       " This was Keerthi house and how did you know I would know those who lived before me" he asked instead and her shoulder slumped in relief as if she didn't expect him to let himself be diverted to a different topic.

         " Because you only occupied this room and yet all other room are furnished and every aspect of the house reminds me that someone used to live here as you haven't changed a single thing in the other rooms , But you said this house belongs to keerthi . What about her family ,I have never  tried to ask her about them. "  Swara kept talking trying to keep her mind occupied with the house then on Sanskar. 

        " Keerthi dad died few years ago and her brother Rithvik was my best friend and he died two years before his father . So she has no family " Sanskar spoke up and swara realized there was a hint of guilt in his voice at the mention of his friend .

           " No one is without family , she has you and me . Blood doesn't have to define a family " Swara answered back as for the first time she realized keerthi loss must have been so hard to endure .

          " Is that how you met keerthi ,because of her brother " Swara asked after a moment of silence. 

           " Yes ,she wanted to introduce her best friend to her brother and that how I met keerthi and " Sanskar didn't finish is sentence but Swara was aware of whom he meant the girl standing close to Sanskar in the picture keerthi had on her desk. 

         " Kavita .." Swara finished his sentence , she should feel a deep sadness for the girl who died so soon but she only felt a spark of envy for the girl who is still remembered fondly by those she known.

             " Yes.  Keerthi wanted to play matchmaker between her brother and Kavita . If only I had not chosen that day to Visit him ,then keerthi would have succeeded and both of them would be alive now " Sanskar replied with a deep sadness that swara moved towards him on her own accord. 

          She only halted when she was beside him and she didn't knew how but she wanted to comfort him just like he did for her ,so she sat beside him and held his hand in an show of support only then did she speak up .

          " It not your fault Sanskar , Kavita wouldn't have wanted you to blame yourself for loving her . " Swara spoke up and yet her mind taunted her that she did blame it at first for doing the same .

           " I don't blame myself for falling in love ,I blame myself for not finding the one who took her life ,it was what killed Rithvik as well . " Sanskar spoke up and swara realized he hadn't stopped in his quest of revenge yet .

          " You still want revenge ,but bade papa ." Swara tried to speak as she feared the Sanskar she knew and trusted was still planning on revenge against bade papa.  But he was already shaking his head in answer

           " No , I misunderstood Rithvik words before he died  ,I know that now . Keerthi was right it had been my guilt that made me reconstruct his dying words to fit my revenge and you made me realize I was wrong to condemn bade papa without proof ,I only intend to find the one who caused kavita accident " Sanskar spoke up and Swara realized Sanskar wasn't going after his family only trying to find the truth . 

  
          As she looked at him. She realized if anything happened to him in the accident ,she would do the same . Try to find the person who was behind the wheels  that took him away from her and it was at that moment she became aware of something  that she refused to believe for so long .

             She loved him ,it has been that simple all along . She knew at that moment in her life there will not just be a void without him ,it will cease to be meaning full without him . Just the mere thought of a life without him was enough to make her realize ,her heart was already deeply involved when it comes to her husband . 

             And she wanted to tell him. Shout those words to him and make him smile after all the heart ache she caused ,she was about to speak up and was disturbed by a phone call. 

           She waited till he finished speaking and she soon noticed the change in his face ,like he just received a terrible news .

         " What happened Sanskar ?" Swara asked him as she got worried about him ,when he refused to say a word .

            " They finally got his car  number ,the person who drove the car . " Sanskar answered back and swara wondered why he wasn't happy about it but waited for him to speak up. 

             " He is already dead Swara , all along he was been dead . I can never find out if he caused the accident because of carelessness or because he was drunk or because he ignored the traffic rule . I cant find out why she died " Sanskar words made her realize the truth in them , and maybe it was because he looked so lost she couldn't speak up about her new found realization at least not tonight she decided. 

              Yet she refused to move away from beside him. Not wanting to be apart him when he was suffering .

             Sanskar knew he was vulnerable at the moment and maybe it was because of that he let himself be comforted by her presence . She remained by his side throughout the night and when she drifted off to sleep on his shoulder he didn't have a heart to wake her up either. 

            And soon he drifted back to sleep not realizing , the answers he thought was lost will soon be revealed and it will shake up his world more than that night .

       While Swara drifted off to sleep with a smile as she finally began to hope she can make Sanskar happy for all the hurt she caused him not realizing the hurricane that will blast through their life soon .

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