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Swara calmed down after an awhile and she felt anxious to be away from Sanskar .She heard all the accusations before but with Sanskar she wanted him to believe her . Even without asking her .So when he didn't ask her anything and insisted he will take her home. Swara was content

But a part of her was worried that he might have already judged her and found her guilty just like the rest of the world .Because in the eyes of the world she was Still an adulterer,murderer and all the other name her ex father in law called her before him .

They took a taxi ride back to swara home .All the while swara was aware of his presence beside her that she kept stealing glance at him to see if their was any trace of disgust or anger in his face .

Because of that she knew his face was filled with pain , And she noticed his hands were circling his knees as of massaging them , while his face was contorted with pain .

" Are you hurt ?" She asked wondering if he slipped and fell because he ran after her .

" Just an old injury acting up .." He answered .

" Why did you run after me then .Are you stupid? " She felt guilty now for being the cause of his pain .

" So next time when you decide to run before giving me an chance to speak. Think about my poor leg and run bit slowly so I can catch you easily ." He teased her to lighten her guilt

" I am sorry .I didn't know about it , Nor did i know you would come after me , should we go to the hospital ." She kept asking and Sanskar leg was hurting real bad that he couldn't even answer her back coherently.

"It will fine if I lied down in bed for awhile , no need for doctor and all " he answered and back then he didn't expect swara would drag him back inside her house and toward her bed and demand he lied down for awhile before going back .

Sanskar didn't realize how much it hurt till his body hit the bed and swara went out probably explaining to her mom about their marriage .He should have been there to explain and yet he was lying in her room unable to move .

His mind was filled with the revelation of how swara was connected with shekar Gadodia.. He thought what he knew about Swara marriage into the Gadodia family . It was claimed to be love match between siddharth Gadodia and his wife ,he also knew his parents were against it as they wanted Siddharth to marry his sister Uttara .And in an tragic twist Siddharth was killed by his wife within four months of their marriage , that all he heard for someone who refused to step outside his house back then .

Now he wish he knew more .Suddenly he cared whole lot to know more about their marriage. But an promise is an promise .He broke most of their clause already ,he was not gonna break this one again and get himself another strike .

After all suddenly he wasnt keen on letting swara go even if it was what he wanted at first .

Swara knocked at the door after an hour to wake him up .Her mom was being consoled by her husband after Swara told her the truth about their marriage .

Her mom was upset and worried to know Shekhar Gadodia knew Swara was Still in India which led to rise in her blood pressure and so she left not wishing to cause her more stress as she is in capable hands with her doctor husband .

When few knocks went unanswered ,she opened the door to find him sleeping .She didn't have the heart to wake him ,so she took the couch and waited for him and soon fell Into sleep as well .

Sanskar woke up in the middle of the night , And he saw swara sleeping in the couch , he tried to move his leg and get up but it must have cramped so it hurt a whole lot that an painful moan escaped his lips before he could hold it in which woke swara up .

" Does it still hurt? .." She asked apparently concerned about him .

" Just an cramp .." It will be fine in five minutes he replied back .

They both didn't know what to say during the five minutes . After an few minutes swara voice broke the silence .

"Aren't you going to ask me anything ?" She asked .

" I don't want another strike right now and also no I don't want to ask you anything , you can tell me when you want too " he said even if a part of him wanted to know everything.

" But I also told you to ask me first if someone said anything wrong about me .." She replied back

" Only if I believed it and jumped to conclusion , Your clause not mine" he said .So he didn't believe Shekhar Gadodia .And the weight in her chest seem to have gone at his statement .

" I killed him ,you know ?" She said hoping to shock him .

" Okay .." He said which made her angry enough to get out of the couch and march upto him.

" I killed my husband and you say okay " she asked .

" What else am I supposed to say ..I am sure he deserved it or it was an accident, in both cases you don't get to feel guilty .Maybe I jumped to conclusion regarding you but I don't think I am wrong to believe you had your reasons " he spoke sincerely which melted the anger she carried when everyone refused to believe her .

" He deserved it .." She said and he simply nodded not asking any further question .

" I was in love with him or so I thought ." She said speaking up while looking at him , He got up from the bed and moved a little so she can sit beside him .

Just like that he was allowing her to tell her story at her pace .She walked towards him and sat beside him .

" I met him at my final year in college .I used to work part time in the cafe near my college , he was an regular, he always came alone and would be immersed in his books .I soon learnt he was weak in his studies as he would curse often when he check his answer and found them to be wrong .

And so one day after my shift I felt bad so I asked if he needed any help , My fault but he agreed. So the next few days I used help him after my shifts for an hour and it became an regular practice .

When he passed all his arrear courses. He asked me out an date and I agreed , We dated for awhile and soon I believed myself to be in love with him .

He never introduced me to his friends or family and he never went to meet mine .But I was already building my future with him .We crossed some line that shouldn't have been crossed . And when I found out I was pregnant I panicked as I didn't want my child to be shunned by the society just like me .

When I told him .He said he wasn't ready to tell is father back then I didn't know how deeply he wanted his father approval , he promised to tell him as soon as he completes his first project working under his father successfully . I believed him .

And then came a time when I couldn't hide it from my family , Dida and Mom were upset and worried .They were jaded by men to not trust Siddharth . " she halted after speaking the name she refused to even think for so long .Sanskar must have understand as he placed his hand over hers which were shaking in a show of support .

" They were right of course . When he refused to answer my call or msg for over two weeks .I went to his home looking for him , that where I found out from their servant. That he was getting engaged that day ..

I raced to your uncle house in time to stop the engagement. Your bade papa refused to let your cousin get engaged to him without proof that I was lying .

That when Siddharth spoke up and called me an mistake .A mistake . And yet I stood there hoping to see the man I fell in love with . His father was trying to join politics and he can't have an scandal , so he agreed to our marriage which made Siddharth happy enough to marry me .

I should have refused , but I thought the man I love was still in him and I wanted my child to not go through what I went .so I agreed to marry him ignoring my mom and dida concern over his actions

Only after marriage I realized how little I meant to him . I was only his wife under the cover in the darkness of the room ,the rest of the time I didn't even exist to him . I felt betrayed and at most times felt like an mistress instead of an wife .

What should have been a happy part of normally married couple was so twisted up in my life .I hated myself for not saying No , All I thought whenever he touched me was how he said I was an mistake . I began to despise his touch as my love for him withered away and all that remained was my hatred for myself . " she shivered a little as if relieving those memories and Sanskar wrapped an hand around her making her lean on to him for support .She leaned on to him and waited for the memories to disappear .

" That enough , You can tell everything later .Please Swara don't push yourself .." Sanskar said not liking to see the broken swara .

He wish Siddharth was alive so he can kill him again for being an jerk to her .

" No .I have to tell everything before I lose my courage ." She said so he nodded as he knew those words that were hidden inside need to come out even if it pains him to see how much she went through .

"I know his father and him didn't get along after our marriage , he always wanted his father approval and by marrying me ,he lost it .

We have been married for two months by then . He had lost a project or something .I don't remember ,he came home heavily drunk .And I said no that day .Then he hit me .I was too shocked to react .I felt ashamed of myself even now for not walking away that day

The next day he apologized and I forgave him . It started to happen whenever he got drunk which was often ,he wouldn't force himself on me just throw every thing around me and break it ,sometime he would hit me as well and the next day he would apologize and if I threatened to leave him. He would threaten to take away my child after birth , so I stayed back .I got scared enough to place an knife near my drawer yet I didn't leave .

One day while leaving the room he pushed me out of the way as I was standing in his way. I fell on the hard floor and thought I miscarried . As the pain killed a part of me and made me unable to move .I screamed for help and he already left the house to drink more .It was ragini the only one who treated me like am human in the house who came to help and took me to hospital .

I was still carrying my child the doctor said and I decided enough is enough .I went back to dida house from the hospital .

He came after me four days later full of apologizes. I didn't believe him . But he begged, pleaded not threatened like before for two weeks that I finally gave in again .

The doctor have said no physical intimacy till the child was born as I was weak . He even said that okay as he only wanted me back .

Back then I didn't know his father sent him to bring me back .He was an model husband for one long month , I felt like he really changed or loved me ..lThe fool I was happy . Then the election results came in .Shekhar Gadodia lost. He took his anger on his son and blamed him for a not living upto his expectation .

And his son in turn took it on me .I should have expected it but I didn't , For all my intelligence I was the fool .He tried to force himself on me .I fought him off for my child .I tired to run away from the room and into the hall , he grabbed me from behind and bolted the door to the bed room .I could hear ragini banging at the door for him to open up .I was pinned down by him as he strangled me in an fit of anger , the only thing he said was I need to die for him to be happy and he can get back into his father good grace .

So I fought back .I pushed him with all my might and he fell on the glass table , Hit his head in the sharp edge and bleed to death with in second right before my eyes.

When I finally opened the door .I knew my life as I knew was over .I wasn't surprised to be sent to prison .I killed someone after all. .But I was happy to have protected my kid .

Everyone in the Gadodia house knew it wasn't my fault but they all testified against me including Ragini who claimed to have seen me with several other guys and his brother only reacted that way when he found the child I was carrying was not his . I got two years for man slaughter .

Shekhar Gadodia influence in prison meant I was fed enough to barely survive .Even when I went into labor before my time. I was taken to the hospital in the last minute. My daughter was born prematurly .They took her away from me to place her in an incubator.And they only informed me she died .They didn't even allow me to see her one last time . "

As the memories of her child death resurfaced swara broke down and Sanskar held her knowing no words of comfort would be enough .Yet he found himself saying

" I wish I was the one who defended you back then , It was self defense Swara .It was not your fault.. " he said trying to calm her down all the awhile hating the one who let her spend two years of her life in jail.

After few moments of silence while she calmed down he asked the question that somehow bothered him for awhile .

" How did you know Laksh?" He asked .

" He used to come and visit Ragini " she replied all the awhile Sanskar felt she hadnt told him everything.

" You said you owe him " he asked .

" Yes ,He was able to bring down my murder charges to man slaughter, he was my lawyer you know , he went against his fiancee family just because he met me few times and knew I wasn't capable of murder . so yeah I owe him for not being still stuck in prison " she said .

" He did sloppy job , he should have gotten you free .He should have come to me for advise .Why didn't he ." Sanskar was furious it was his cousin who failed her .

" I don't know why he didn't come to you , But he did his best Sanskar .You can't blame him when he had to face such a strong prosecution and they were plenty of falsified testimony against me including my own sister in law who said he was drunk and helpless and I pushed him with an intent to harm him .. " she replied back .

" Who was the prosecutor " he asked all the awhile dreading the answer as he realized who it could be .

" Your Uncle ." She said and Sanskar world came at an stand still . He knew his uncle method of prosecuting and he knew his uncle wouldn't have fought fair .No wonder lucky lost .

" I am sorry Swara .." Sanskar said .

" Laksh said the same thing as well , but it not your fault .I could have handled it all if only my child survived .In truth I was to be blamed for everything that went wrong in my life .

My mom and dida were stronger than me , I always claimed I don't want my child to be ashamed of herself ,so I stayed married for the society but the truth was i wasn't strong enough like my mother or dida to raise my daughter alone .Maybe because of that she left me as well .."there was such an heart break in that statement

Sanskar heart broke for her , As he held her close in his embrace she began to relax after an awhile .

" What are we gonna do about our marriage "she asked still holding on to him .

" What do you want to do. ?" He asked silently hoping she would not ask him to leave her not when he grew to care a lot about her .

" I don't know .." She answered back

" Let not worry about it now .Let take a day at time for now " he answered back.

When Swara shared her mother anger .Sanskar promised to bear the brunt of it as he was responsible.

As they both talked and planned how to handle her angry mother , Shekhar Gadodia was planning his own set of revenge .And the pawn in his game Kavita Roy was seated before him .It time to destroy the Maheshwari who stood by her .And then when she is all alone without the support of the Maheshwari that is when he will have his revenge for his son .

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