Hi guys , I am back with an update.  Hope it doesn't disappoint .

Dedicated to everyone who guessed there was more to Uttara story .

A Month later

          The day of the trail arrived just like any other day , Except Swara everyone else in the Maheshwari family were nervous .

                 But by the end of the trial everyone knew what the outcome would be and  the lawyers who saw the proceedings out of curiosity were  amazed that swara had only one win so far .

           The Reporters  were interested in spinning the tale focusing on Swara the lawyer who might outshine her husband stellar record in court , Amidst the sensation the case generated the Maheshwari family sticked together and waited for the verdict .

                When the judge declared Sahil murder was an act of self defense and Uttara Maheshwari was deemed not guilty no one was surprised,  It was the outcome everyone knew would happen .

Two weeks later

                  Swara Maheshwari starred at her husband and waited for him to come to terms with her decision .

              " No Shona , If you want you can go , I am not coming with you ." her husband spoke up .

           " Come on Sanskar , it has been two weeks since the trial ended  and you haven't talked to her once .And even during the trail you avoided her , She will be hurt Sanskar .." his wife was pleading with him on behalf of his sister .

              " Shona , Give it some time . It was not I who avoid her ,it is she who avoid me .." Sanskar answered back yet he knew his wife wouldn't be satisfied and they will continue to argue on it till she gives up .

           " This is so not over Mr Maheshwari , We will talk about it when I come back " his wife said and was about to head out   when she got an call that made her  march right back inside

          Meanwhile  Ragini starred at the hand written note left by Uttara  , She left for US without telling any of them except the note where she apologized for not saying goodbye in person .

        Uttara Maheshwari waited in the airport for her flight , She left early before anyone woke up and she still had an hour left . And her mind wondered back to the visit of kavita since she  choose to say goodbye in person .

               Uttara rarely thought back to the day ,she suppressed all those memories as much as she can , yet there was the nightmares and she need to find answers to them before leaving to US hence the visit .

               Kavita welcomed her into her house with enough warmth but also some anxiousness .

               " So you are leaving for US" Kavita spoke up as she glanced at Uttara packed bags .

            " Yes , I just want to thank you become leaving .." Uttara answered back 

          " Well , Your brother did threaten to make me a suspect otherwise .." Kavita replied back casually .

        " Not for the testimony since I know you lied but for saving me from Sahil " Uttara spoke and the crash of the tea cup kavita held was her answer enough to those nightmares .

          " You knew ." Kavita whispered .

         " I guessed but only knew for sure now  , Tell me what happened Kavita . I need to know ." Uttara asked

             " You didn't kill him , I did I am sure you know that by now , When I came to the house he was undressing you and trying to record it in his mobile ..

            He just laughed when he saw me ,he told me that you said no to marriage hence he had no option , he said he was gonna record everything and blackmail Sanskar and Swara  into dancing to his tunes .

          He even asked me to record it as he could make sanskar leave swara for me , When I asked him to stop he said that he isn't scared of me as I know I was his accomplice so far and I will share his jail cell if I ever try to back stab him  .

                 So yeah I hit him with the Vase to subdue him   when he was busy undressing you with no care whatsoever, I tried waking you up but you didn't so I ran away thinking you were dead as well , I didn't intent to kill him and I hit him only because I had no other option of getting you help in time .And how did you know .."  Kavita spoke way too calmly about it that uttara was worried about her .

            " I remember hitting at the front side of the head , but i didn't see any sign of blood in his face when I gained consciousness and found him dead  , I didn't think much of it at the time  or during the trial but I keep hearing  voices in my nightmares , One of the voice was yours.  Why did you try to help me .." Uttara asked .

           " You are surprised a monster like me helped you " Kavita answered back .

           
           " Yes , You did all sort of things to separate bhai from bhabhi . So why not this one " Uttara asked ..

        " I don't have to answer you , leave before you miss your flight " Kavita lashed out.  

         " I leave but even if you didn't think of me as friend , I did so I am asking you as a friend don't bother bhai anymore , He is happy with bhabhi .." Uttara said and was about to leave when kavita voice rang out .

            " Don't I deserve to be happy ." She asked which stopped uttara in tracks .

            " Your happiness doesn't have to be defined based on bhai , You can be happy even without him " Uttara tried to reason with her
     

             " No I can't , You won't understand why I need him " Kavita lashed back ..

              " Make me understand ,you walked away from him ,you cheated on him and now you say you need him " Uttara asked confused

             " Have a seat then  ,it is a long story . Ever since I was a little girl I knew one day I would grew up  and marry your brother .

                When I grew up , I had no interest in studies or anything , All I wanted was to enjoy life and then I began to notice the power of flirting .

   
                I was practically engaged with your brother yet I flirted with everyone .The thrill that others do you bidding for few words drove me , Your brother would disapprove at times but I would claim it was just fun .

             When he left to pursue Masters of law at the university you father choose we had an fight . I wanted him near ,he wanted to agree with your father . On the day before his leaving I thrown myself at him to know I had power to control him , I was so confident of my beauty that I thought the act would bind him to me and I can change his mind  .

                 Yet he rejected my advances and back then I didn't know by saying No he was  respecting me  , all I thought was he didn't find me attractive or he didn't value me .So yeah when he left. .I slept with the first guy I flirted with ..

                 I am not blaming anyone except me .I decided to live life to the fullest , I dated several guys and slept with most of them , Then your brother returned and we reconciled back .

               Yet I craved that life , And after his accident I found myself stuck in an marriage with your brother unable to live my life as I wanted .  So yeah I cheated on him.  He was not enough for me  or so I thought ..

            I felt so highly of myself , That I thought your brother would be not enough for me .And you know how we broke up , yet the next day I was back in the club celebrating my new found freedom .

              Do you know why I  saved you , because I knew what it us to wake up on day totally unaware of my surrounding and knowing that you have been violated without you consent .

               I went to one of my friend wedding in Mumbai , We partied all night , I didn't know when someone slipped something in my drinks  .

           All I remember was waking up in an shaddy hotel and realizing deep down that something horrible happened to me  and that there have been more than one guy in that room with me that night ..  I had this nightmares as well  where I heard more  than one voices  ..

                I returned home the next day because who can I complain  against when i don't even remember their faces  and I  went to see you brother , I wasn't thinking of getting back together .

            I just wanted to be with someone who would respect me even after what happened to me , what scared me most about myself was the fact I would probably have slept with the guys  who raped me if they took time to flirt with me first  . 

             Yet my luck you brother had learnt to  walk again and thought my visit was became I heard about it . The door to his house was slammed on my face when he saw me .I tried to tell him everything but he never listened .

            Then I got pregnant , or so I thought at first , So decided to  aborted the baby as you know I don't have a maternal instinct .  It wasn't a kid in my tummy  the doctors said  and  after some tests the doctors declared  i am barren .

            For someone who felt having  kids will kill my freedom  , to realize I will never have it in my life was a  rude awakening .

             And that was when I realized I didn't went back to your brother because he would respect me but also because I wanted him in my life and I realized it little late ,just like I realized I might have wanted kids as well  " She finished speaking up leaving Uttara shocked .

                 " I am sorry ,you went though that , no one deserve to go through it .." Uttara spoke up ..

               " I am sure there is a but where you tell me , your bhai is married and I cant have him back just like the doctors told me I can't have  kids. If that what you are going to say next don't leave , I have come this far for your brother do you think I will stop just because you said .." Kavita spoke up leaving uttara worried ..

   
         " I wasn't going to say that , I loved Sahil and Siddharth and believed that my happiness rested with them as well..But it isn't true Kavita , you don't need bhai to be happy ..You are stronger than what you believe ..

                 I have been asked   to walk away from my chosen path the moment I realize or have doubts about it , Yet I refused to listen and look where it lead me .

            As a friend that all I am saying to you , choose a different path to your life if and when you realize or doubt the life you have chosen to live so far " Uttara spoke up and left
             

            
       Uttara was lost in her thoughts and wondered if she should tell swara about Kavita .. And decided she will just tell that kavita was still very  interested and obsessed  in bhai and leave it at that ..

               She briefly texted Swara about today visit and told her about kavita intentions except the truth she killed sahil.. Then put the phone in airplane mode and was about to check in as she heard the announcement  when the familiar voice called her ..

" Dont we get an Chance to say goodbye .." Ragini voice spoke up and uttara turned to find her entire family ..

      The last few weeks everyone was busy with her case and uttara who was isolated few weeks ago was gathered back into the family as if she did nothing wrong..

      But she couldnt forgive herself hence she stayed apart answered their questions but never let her guard down with them.

     She didnt even spent more than few hours in jail before Swara got her bail , And Uttara never felt more ashamed of herself than at the moment.She made Swara life miserable,she kidnapped her kid from her as if her father didnt do enough.

     And yet there she was fighting her case.. And then their was her brother whose family she tried to destroy but yet he went to convince Kavita the girl who caused him heartbreak for her.. As her family forgave her she felt more guilty of her crimes she did against them.

        Even now she wanted to leave them without an word as she couldnt find it in herself to look at their faces without feeling guilty.  Yet as Swara said she always had her family inspite of the countless crimes  she committed ..

          As Uttara let herself embraced by Ragini and laksh she knew maybe not today but someday she might be able to forgive herself.

           Every attempt of her to apologize to Swara so far has been swept aside by her stating it not important , after all how can Swara trust her word when she apologized with evil intentions once before . Yet she had to speak up once again before she regret for her life time..

      " I am so so sorry Swara bhabhi ,  I am so glad you married bhai ... " She spoke up but Swara just shook her head at her apology and embraced her ..

      Then she was embraced by her mother who had list of instructions for her that included call as soon as you land.. And finally she had to say good bye to the person she hurted the most.. The last few weeks they avoided each other as much as they can.. And even now he was standing apart from the rest of his family . Maybe he meant it when he said she was no longer is sister.. So she turned around to leave without an word to him even when her heart wanted to go and beg him for his forgiveness..

           Sanskar Maheshwari stood rooted as his sister turned an left .He should have spoke up but he couldn't find it in him to voice out the words . He saw the way his wife reconciled with his sister and wished he could do it as well

           But the barriers between them remained firm and he couldn't bring himself up to say an word , He felt guilty for not protecting her from the likes of Sahil but he also was hurt by her actions irrespective of the fact she realized she made a mistake

    Even Swara turned towards him asking why he was silent but he simply shook his head at her , Some broken bonds couldn't be fixed no matter how hard they wanted to .

                As Swara starred at her husband , she wished he could forgive uttara .Maybe he did forgive her yet it wasn't easy for them to reconcile back ..She understood that .

     For swara, Uttara reminded  of herself  , She trusted Siddharth and Uttara trusted Sahil ..But while swara actions only harmed her ,Uttara actions hurt him  .

       And she understood it will take a longtime for her husband to come to terms with her actions as some wounds tends to take longer  time to heal ..

          As Uttara turned around to have an final glimpse of her family  , Her eyes solely focussed on her brother the one she hurt beyond care .Maybe someday he would forgive until then she will wait .

          She held on to her smile till they disappeared from her sight and when they did she let those tears fall .

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