And we have reached the last clause , Not the last update you can relax for now . It the last clause in the agreement and i wrote and finished it in 3000 words. .I should have posted it but I felt I didn't do enough justice to the update .So reedited it which led one update into three parts ,so here you go Part 1 .

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           Sanskar couldnt sleep that night .. His mind was occupied with what laksh said about him judging swara based on his experience with Kavita .

       He did admit there was some truth in it .And what bothered him most was the statement swara might judge him based on her experience with Siddharth .He never wanted her to club him with Siddharth as men who hurt her

            And maybe because of that he called her that night at 2 Am . She picked up at the first ring and he knew she was having a sleepless night like him and he had messed up .

" Can we talk? " he asked hoping she would give him an chance to rectify his mistake .

" No , You were right ,it best if you avoided me ." She spoke and cut the call .

            Sanskar realized  Laksh was right and she was blaming herself and it was because of that he woke an sleeping Raj who he hired to help him , They have both become friends when Raj worked for him the last time and remained friends when Sanskar got well .

            Sanskar didn't hesistate to ask Raj for help when doctors demanded he would require to stay in his wheel chair for a month. A month seems like less time than before ..

    It was raj who drove him to her house in the middle of night , And helped him to his wheel chair as he knocked on the door at 3 Am

The door was opened by Swara step father and Sanskar couldn't find any reason to give for his sudden visit . So  he remained silent as Raj wheeled him inside the house .

    Swara step father was soon joined by his wife whose face indicated he was no longer welcome in his house as he had hurted their daughter .

" Can I see Swara "  he asked after few moments  hoping he would get an chance to make amends  , Maybe it was his wheelchair that got their sympathy or maybe it was because they saw he was sincere .They let him stay. And swara mom went in to ask swara .

Sanskar was left to face the wrath of her step father.As raj left him alone to wait in the car ..

" You have hurt her " it was not an accusation but a statement for which Sanskar had no answer .

      Before he could speak up,  He overheard swara voice repeating the exact words he used when she visited earlier , Unlike swara who ran away at his words .Sanskar couldn't run even if he wanted too .So he was able to overhear swara mom insisting swara says the word to him rather than her .

He knew the moment swara came out of her room ,He had one look at her puffed eyes and his heart broke a little . But he also noticed the moment her eyes registered the wheel chair and the concern in her face for him .

" Can we talk swara please ?" Sanskar asked as he knew she would have her questions . She simply nodded and her parents left her alone with him and went back to the  room to give them privacy .

" I am sorry .I should have not asked you to leave when you came to see me " he apologized sincerely .

" Who did you run after this time " she asked to know how he gotten injured .

" Actually ran into someone when I was on my way to meet you , The urgent meeting for which I cancelled my appointment with you was with doctors " he answered back and waited for the realization to sink in .

" No wonder you avoided me " she said with an resignation that broke his heart .

" I didn't avoid you because I blamed you Swara .Never that .." He answered truthfully .

" Then why ?" She asked wanting to know the reasons ,though she was worried about it .

" Do you know how I got this injury in the first place ?" He asked at her slight shake of head, he asked  .

        "Do you want to know?"  and she nodded  her head   all the awhile moving towards him and finally sat down on the chair that was beside him .Giving him enough time to talk ..

" I won my first case as a lawyer , a very big case  and I wanted to celebrate with my parents so I took them on an vacation  ,I had it all planned out except the weather

It was raining heavily that night  as I drove to the airport . I should have stopped driving and waited but I wanted to catch the plane on time .

         I wanted the vacation to be perfect as I was planning to propose to my girlfriend after the trip . It was my final vacation with my parents just the three of us . I hope to make it four for the next vacation not realizing it was always meant to be my last with them .

I couldn't see the truck in the rain  as I was  driving over an bridge the clash made me lose control and the car got overthrown into the river ..

My legs got banged up under the door . I couldnt even move and help my parents .It was my dad who managed to drag me back to shore, I asked him to save my mom instead but he choose to listen to his wife instead.

He went back for his wife but both of them didn't make it alive out of the water " He said and swara didn't know what one can say to console him ,  But she tried ..

" It not your fault Sanskar , a parent would always choose to save their  child  , You can't blame your father for saving you .I would have done it for my daughter as well  " she said after few moments of silence

" Losing my legs didn't deter my life Swara .But losing the ones who I thought I was close made a lot of difference.

My parents were dead and I thought I had an family with my uncle and his family . But I soon realized I was more of an burden to them , They loved me and I knew it but their love overwhelmed me than comforted me .

I always looked upto my uncle you know , My father was a lawyer too  but he always lived under the shadow of his brother .

             And I wanted to be just like my uncle and he felt the same ,he would spend hours training me ,he would let me tag along with him to court to see his case ..He always was proud to call me his nephew . He wanted me to take over his law firm when he retired as laksh had never lived upto his expectations.

So the first blow was the change in how he saw me ,  I was still the same person but my uncle decided to shape his son to become like him instead of me .I felt neglected and disappointed to be ignored . Even when I ask him to talk about his  recent case he would say I should try to get well first before worrying about any thing else .. As if by wishing I could make myself walk .

          The next blow came from my girlfriend Kavita.  She was my father friend daughter . And we were childhood friends and from the young age when I learned what it is to love ,I loved her . And she loved me and I had the perfect love life or so I thought .

            But after the accident our love life got complicated . Even when i asked her to go out with me which she used to love , she would politely decline saying I need not stress with going out and she is content to spend time with me  in the house itself  .I was a fool not to realize she didn't want to be seen with me in public , Even when her visits declined to weekly once I didn't mind .

            But what I minded was becoming a object of pity in my own house .I was allotted five minute in my uncle schedule . I was treated with kids glove by my aunt as if one wrong word i might break down  and I become the cousin who couldn't be included in their plans so I was always hushed about in whispers as my cousins planned out their outings that didn't include me .So I decided to move out three months into my accident  .

     I brought my house with my father insurance policy .Even on his death  he managed to take care of me ,And I moved out  though my family was against it .

       But in the new house I was lonely too  ,so I started practicing law again .And the clients who lined up for Durga Prasad Maheshwari Nephew didn't line up for Personally disabled Sanskar Maheshwari .

             Still I wanted to ease my loneliness , So I picked up pro bono cases and I began to care about my clients than winning . Maybe it was because of that I started to win all my cases and people began to notice me as a lawyer .

                 But still I was lonely and I thought marrying would make me feel good and when one of the visit to the doctors said me walking again was possible .I proposed to kavita. I thought she would be by my side for better or worse right ,  But she laughed at my proposal and tried to make it into an joke . When she realized I was sincere..She said she was not ready to get married .

                   Of course I believed her ,my innocent childhood friend turned lover couldn't possibly lie to me right ,Since marriage was not in the cards .I decided to focus on my treatments to make the possible word real .
  

     I went to US for my treatment alone as I didn't want to be a burden  to my family and I didn't know how long it will take .

                  After two months of treatment .I began to lose hope , It was then they suggested some more surgeries .But I wanted to be part of uttara marriage so I postponed it and came to India a day before uttara engagement .

                I wanted to surprise everyone including my girlfriend . I had been an fool in love so I had given her an key to my house practically dreaming a future with her , So imagine my surprise when my girlfriend greeted me in my house with my best friend in my bed .

               
                If only she walked away that day without an word , I might have been able to accept it . But do you know what she said " he asked and Swara knew those words must have been horrible for him to still hate her .She shook her head as he tried to relive the words that changed his belief in love .

             " She told me .That I should have expected it , She told me that I was an fool if I thought she would marry an man who can't even walk beside her but who needs to be carried from place to place .She told me I was an fool to think love would be enough to live an crappy life when she deserves to live as an princess . She told me the only reason she didn't break up with me so far was because she pitied me and she didn't want to be the one to break my heart  ,she hoped i would back of on my own . It was the least she can do as an Friend and also it was my fault for denying her advances when I had an chance than asking her to wait till marriage .

       It was not her betrayal that crushed me ,it was the way she cheapned my love for her ,the way she equated my love into lust , the way she made me question the better or worse part of marriage  .." Sanskar spoke up relieving the horrible night when his belief in love and marriage turned into ashes as swara eyes teared up a little for Sanskar who didn't deserve such an heart break .

         "   That was the first time I hated not being able to walk . And I gave up as I was tired of fighting alone ,  I didn't even go to uttara engagement the next day .I spend an entire week locked up in my house and suddenly being all alone was something I liked .Except Raj I didn't allow anyone into my home

            I refused to leave the confines of my house , And I even refused to see uttara who come before leaving for US. It has been  five months of seclusion from the outer world .

                    And I know my family believed I gone crazy but my uncle didn't want such news to came out .Hence I was said to be in US , But they did come to check up on me once an month as a family obligations .And Raj would politely decline their request to meet me .

                       On one such visit laksh found me unconscious as I must have missed eating for few days and Raj was away on an shopping trip  .Laksh  didn't know it at the point of time .He believe I tried to kill myself .

                       My family was worried as I was admitted in the hospital for an week .It wasn't my family concern  that changed me though they believe it and I let them because I know they cared in their own way .

      But when I looked at other in the hospital  who suffered much worse than me  and still smiled. I realized the life my father saved deserve to be lived .

                     It took some time but I began to live again , I got treated for my legs ,  after an year of treatments I could walk again ,  I didn't avoid you because I blamed you swara but it had been my defense against overwhelming family and uncaring girlfriend.

          And losing the ability to walk made me anxious about how you would react .I just didn't want to be treated differently so I avoided you , it was not right of me to judge you based on my past as Laksh said and I am sorry swara . Hurting you was not my intention " he spoke up voicing his deepest fear .

         Swara understood him better than anyone else . The reason she hid her past was because she didn't want to believe Sanskar would treat her differently . Not wanting to be treated differently with either pity or hate was something she could understand .

                    Sanskar left after apologizing again for his behavior , While swara said she realized he wasn't avoiding her and she understood.He only relaxed when she visited him the next day .

            But she never stayed for more than fifteen minutes and after few days Sanskar began to fear she was beginning to behave just like his family .Her visits seemed to be done out of pity  and he hated it .

                   It was ten days later , Sanskar had enough . So he pretended to sleep when she visited . But instead of leaving after few minutes, She stayed back, she sat beside him and waited for over an hour .

             He opened his eyes when he couldn't pretend any longer that when he saw her looking at him with such tenderness .His anger disappeared in an instant .

          She tried to leave after few minutes .That when he realized he need to speak up .

          " Stay for five more minutes " he said .

             It stopped her from leaving and she turned around to look at him with an smile , That when he realized .

      She  left not because she wanted to go but she couldnt stay more than fifteen minutes because he never asked her to and unlike his girlfriend or family , she didn't know her place in his life even though she was his wife .

             But she stayed that day till dinner .And Sanskar asked her to sleep in the guest room as it was too late to go back .

                It was during breakfast the next day .Sanskar realized he didn't want to be alone anymore .

               " Can you move in swara , Never mind I just don't like to be alone even now I suppose .It just two more weeks I will be fine  ?" He didn't know why he was babbling like that or why it felt like he was taking another biggest step in his life

       But her " Okay " the four letter word was so unexpected that he knew his life as he knew will change soon .Because looking at Swara he realized one thing he was hiding from acknowledging even to himself ,that he is  very likely to fall in love with her ..

End of Part 1

P.S : That it for now , let me know your feedback . And part two will be posted soon .  Hit the votes if you liked it ..

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Nita