Hi guys ..I am back with chapter 6.  I am so very nervous about this one..So kindly let me know you take .. And Thanks guy for being so supportive. Your comments and votes make me so happy .You are my inspiration to keep writing...

26 July 2016:A Glimpse into Sanskar Past.

                         Swara Gadodia is her name and after almost a week.She is slowly getting used to her new name. How can she not when except little Asha eveyone is addressing her as   Swara .She expected Sanskar to go back to his icy cold behavior after her birthday but surprisingly he was still warm ,cordial and loving. But he refuses to spend anytime alone  with her..Gone are the long night chats in the garden, cooking together well she will cook and he will try to help and end up not being much of an help, washing the dishes together, watching a late night movie together after Asha fell asleep and so on.. There used to be so many thing they do together ,and Swara noticed just how much she misses it when he stopped doing them now.

                        But still she was kept busy..With her sister around Swara has always been kept occupied..Time is a miracle indeed, Ragini was no longer distant or stranger to her. The sisters have finally gotten around to be so close together that Swara feels like she might miss her once she goes back to her home today. Lakshya her husband was supposed to return tonight and Her mother in law i.e Sanskar mom has asked her come back home before that. So this is the last day she get to spend with her sister for awhile..Yet Swara was lost in the thought on how to lessen Sanskar pain. She knew Sanskar was hurt by his wife death and she thought asking about it would increase his pain, so never asked him about his wife even when she was so curious about her.But now she knew he has to open up before this pain swallows him up, the guilt he carries around about her death, the reason he thinks he cant love anyone, she needs to know.Not because she hopes he will open his heart for her but because she wants him to stop feeling this pain and guilt. And she has finally found the perfect way to make him open up. 

               Sanskar Maheshwari was up even before the alarm went off due to a knock on his door. Well he was not able to sleep well this whole week anyway..Staying away from Swara was harder than he thought it would be ,but he needs to do that before he starts hoping for a future together with her. She was making it hard on him, first was her innocent confession that threw him out of the loop by its suddeness that he ended up kissing her, then her asking for his heart on her birthday.. She was able to shake him up with her request and from that point on wards he was hoping he can have a future with her.. Yet he can also be stubborn like swara ,so his heart and mind are playing with him and for now his mind is winning and it will keep winning if he stayed away from her. He cant avoid her as she practically lives with him and he doenst want to hurt her by his behavior like last time..So the only solution he came up with was try to not spend time with her alone. Yet there was the knock on his door accompanied by her sweet innocent voice..

Swara:"Sanskar get up..It late"

                   A very sleepy and tired Sanskar opened the door and there she was full ready in her track suit the one he brought for her a year ago. Once Swara face was out in the newspaper..Sanskar couldnt protect her by making the killer assume she is dead..So he decided to train her in physical fitness if she happens to face her killer when he was not around. He dragged her when he went for jogging in the morning, he even forced her to exercise with him on the gym in his house for an hour everyday. He even thought her basis defense moves to protect her.  This was their regular routine till the day he kissed her after the confession ,After that he tried to pretend to be busy so their routine was forgotten till now .. And in an role reversal from where he usually drags a sleepy Swara..This time she was the one waiting for him ..

Swara:" Well dont misunderstand me, Since the killer is still out ..I want to make sure i remain fit."

Sanskar:" I wont let her harm you..And i wont leave you alone anywhere like last time either..Please dont worry.."

Swara:" That what i said every time , i was sleepy ..Yet you dragged me saying it better to be cautious.. So if you are not coming should i go alone.."

Sanskar:" As if i am going to let you go alone Especially now..Give me five minutes to freshen up i will be down.."

                 Swara plan was simple, make sure she get some alone time with him and make him open up once she gets him talking.. The first step was made possible since Sanskar wont deny exercising with her as even he understand her life is in threat.. But getting him to talk seemed like an harder task then she anticipated..Yes he was still warm and kind but all his answers were either one syllabus or one sentence.. Not like the way he used to talk to her. And for this she ran over an hour.. Nope she cant let this opportunity slide. Normally they take a ten minutes break in one of the benches of the park before heading back , a time where they would love talking about anything under the blue sky. And Swara was waiting for this ten minutes this whole hour. Her last opportunity for the day before he heads back to work and goes completely missing for rest of the day..

Swara:"Sanskar .I have finally decided on my birthday Gift..And now dont look at me like that..No i am not asking for your heart this time..."

Sanskar:" What do you want Swara..Tell me .."

Swara:" Well a story ..Just like the one you told Asha"

Sanskar:" Swara..Stop joking.."

Swara:" I am not joking..I want a story ..That it .."

Sanskar:" Okay you got me curious.What story do you want..About fairies or princess.."

Swara:" Stop making fun of me..I want to hear your story..Just like you told me about our life in the past..I want to know what happened in your life after that. Everything about you "

Sanskar:" Swara.. Why would you want to listen to the depressing tale of my life"

Swara:" Because i am curious..So far i was a blank book.So i never bothered about your past or my past.. But ever since i met Ragini and she finally told me everything i need to know about my past.. I have been curious about yours as well..So tell me all i need to know about you"

                        Mention of Ragini has given Sanskar the much needed chance to speak up, He was curious about her..After being so indifferent to Swara when she met her the first time..She changed for the good the last few days. Now Swara seems to love her sister, and he was happy for Swara still Ragini was hiding something and Sanskar need to know that if he has a chance of finding the person who tried to harm Swara.. 

Sanskar:" What did Ragini tell..Anything i should know ?..What i mean is anything that might help me in catching the person who tried to harm you, like anyone in your life who might harm you.."

Swara:" Okay i will tell everything Ragini told me ..But first you have to tell me about yourself..Then i will share what she told me "

Sanskar:" Swara..This is important.."

Swara:" So mine is not important ,ofcourse why would what i want be  of any importance to you... "

Sanskar:" It not like that Swara..So what do you want to know about me, ask i will answer.."

Swara:" Really..I can ask anything."

Sanskar:" Yeah anything.."

Swara: "First tell me What is  the career you dad disliked so much that you have to opt to use an Alias"

Sanskar:" Hmmm..Fine I tell you, i wanted to be an writer..Ever since i was a kid..It was my dream.."

Swara:" What so wrong about being an writer.."

Sanskar:" For my dad it was not actually a job or a career.."Writing make believe stories that never happened is an waste of time"..His lines not mine..And he told me that he didnt raise me to be like that..And it didnt suit his legacy of me taking over his company."

Swara:"I am so sorry Sanskar..I wish you father understood ..Your dream was important and you deserved a chance to pursue it without opting for an Alias."

Sanskar:"No need to feel Sorry Swara, Not all dreams do come true..For some they dont get the opportunity, for some they dont get support from their parents, for some it doesnt provide the stability the other jobs can offer..All of us have a reason for giving up on those dreams.And those who achieved their dreams must have faced lots of hurdles as well and they were determined to make it an reality and they did.."

Swara:" What was your reason Sanskar...?"

Sanskar:" What..."

Swara:" The reason you gave up your dream..instead of pursuing it..You work in an company right..And that too not your father company."

Sanskar:" My Wife..."

Swara:" She too didnt like you trying to become a writer ah .."

Sanskar:" No she was way too supportive . It just that i couldnt write after she died..."

Swara:"How did she die Sanskar.."

Sanskar:" Someother time Swara..Not now.."

Swara:" So can i atleast know her name Sanskar..I dont even know her name till now.."

Sanskar:" Her name was Sakshi .."

Swara:" Beautiful name Sanskar...So your marriage was love marriage or arranged marriage..If you dont mind me asking "

Sanskar: "Arranged Marriage.. Her father Ramprasad uncle and my Father were business partners. So i have met her few times before but we never actually talked much before our wedding.."

Swara:" So tell me about her anything , i just   want to know about Asha's mother.."

Sanskar:" She was really beautiful, kind , loving and most understanding person i have met in my life. As i told you already after lot of fights i finally gotten permission to pursue my dream .And my life was busy with juggling work and my dream. But i was happy because i was successful in both aspects.I published my first book and it was a huge success, it was one the best sellers in India that year. And i was happy with finally getting my works recognized and my dream becoming an reality. I was busy working on it's sequel when my dad brought the idea of marriage. I was still young, plus i was busy and happy with my life so marriage felt like an burden to me..But my dad was stubborn he already has set a girl in mind as well. What i didnt know at that time was ,marriage was is another way of keeping me occupied from writing.As he didnt think i would become successful back when he agreed to let me pursue and now he was trying to keep me occupied by marriage so i would give up writing .. 

             And so i agreed.. Hoping the she would understand and support me..Hoping that i would be able to fall in love with her and she would as well..Hoping we will get our happily ever after even if our marriage was so sudden. But that girl rejected me..And my dad was angry.No one can reject DurgaPrasad Son. So he decided to get me married to his partner Daughter next.Though i agreed to the marriage , i didnt think it would be fixed so soon..Two months later i was married. And Sakshi became my Wife. I promised her that i will  be supportive,understanding and loving husband and failed in all those aspects miserably for the first few months. Because i was too busy to make her my priority. I told her that we should get to knew each other first and wait till we do so because our marriage was sudden,yet i didnt give ourselves the time to knew each other. But in all the aspects i failed..She came out strong..She was understanding, supportive and loving that i didnt even notice just how much i am falling behind in being good to her not until that day. The day everything changed ..

              My Dad has lost a huge project and my brother Lakshya was in charge..It was supposed to be me.But i handled my responsiblities to Lucky because i was busy with the launch of my second book. Though i gave him every input required Lucky was bit aggressive and ruthless  in his approach so he didnt take the necessary caution and it cost us the project .And my dad was furious. And his wrath was directed at me . I didnt mind it as i was acustomed to it but then he asked me to stop writing as it was waste of time and i was married now so should not waste my time on it any longer. That was something i couldnt accept. Things were heated between us that day and in an fit of rage..He asked me to choose between my dream or family and i choose my dream. And he asked me to leave the house and i agreed because i believed my dad would cool down after sometime and i can go back. I thought he was angry with the loss and he will calm down soon. And i was angry as well that my dad failed to accept my dream. 

                 That was the day i finally realized i was not single anymore and each decision of mine affect her as well..I havent yet revealed her about my writing career..Only few knew except my family and her father was one of them. And he told me that i should tell her when i feel like it. And i wanted too tell her but didnt because i cant have my wife to look down on my dream as well. So there i was packing my bags not even bothering to tell her first. When her voice stopped me in tracks.

Sakshi:" Are you going somewhere .Do you need anything else. For how long will the business trip last "

Sanskar:" Yeah ..Will be back soon..I guess..And it not an Business trip ,me and my dad were having an fight..Dont worry, i will talk to him once he cools down"

                  I expected a simple okay, i expected her to simply nod and leave..She has been so understanding so far that i didnt even think about how she will feel about the turn of events. But instead she simply started packing her bags too,without saying a word, she was packing her bags. 

Sanskar:" What are you doing Sakshi..?"

Sakshi:" I am coming with you."

Sanskar:" Why..There is no need..I will be back soon"

Sakshi:" Because this is not business trip Sanskar, and if you are asked to leave the house then i cant stay here as well"

Sanskar:"My dad is angry with me only Sakshi, He wont mind if you stayed here"

Sakshi:" Come on Sanskar, I am married to you and staying here because of that while you might ignore me all this months that fact doesnt change and i am connected with this family through you and if you are leaving then i am coming with you as well."

                            That was the first time, she spoke out and that was the first time i realized i have failed to conisder her feelings .So in the end we both left the house together. I have brought a small apartment to write without interference. And i was planning on crashing there till my dad cools down but i ended up moving there with Sakshi.. And that is the place that changed everything for us. That the place where we both get to know each other and there started our happy married life. And my dad never cooled down inspite of my weekly visits, intially i  thought he was stone hearted but later realized it was because he wanted us to spend some time alone to actually be together and happy and we were happy. Though i left the house to pursue my dream, i couldnt write a single word.Because when it came down to dream or family..I wanted both without one i couldnt do the other. But during those time i finally realized how much i failed as a husband and was able to rectify it before it was too late. After few months we found out that Sakshi is pregnant and my dad cant have his grandchild be born anywhere other than his house. So it was because of Asha we were able to get back to our house and it was Sakshi who managed to convince my father to let me pursue my dream. And how can he say no to his pregnant daughter in law. So life was happy again for the next one year. I had everything and i had lost everything in that one single day. And before you ask what happened that day Swara, let me tell you i will tell it some other time not now, i am not ready to revisit those memories right now. "

                                 Swara knew that day must be the day he lost his wife. And she knew how much he blames himself for her death.So yeah revisiting those memories will be hard on him indeed. She was glad that he opened up to her, she was glad he let her knew this much and it more than enough for today.. And so with just a glimpse into his past Swara walked besides him not saying a word giving him all the time he need to get back to normalcy. He was lost in his thoughts so it was her who noticed that the heavily locked gate of their house was open even from a distance .Fear gripped her, no one in the house will keep the gate open and it was too early to have guests either. She stopped on her tracks as her mind begin to race up with the possibilities of it being her killer. Her hands automatically reached the one who can protect her, her grip held him back and made him finally notice her face,her fear and the reason for the fear the unlocked gate..

                   Now was not the time to panic..Not when Swara was out in the open and his Asha and family was inside the house so he cant wait for help from police either.He had to act if he wanted to protect those closest to him but for that he need to know the threat.  He took his phone and tried to access his security cameras that is over looking the gate. He need to know how many are inside. He just cant march into an a trap. What he saw made him smile,it was not a threat but welcome sight indeed. 

Sanskar:"Dont worry..It my brother ..He must have came to see Ragini"

Swara:" I was scared for a moment that it might be ..."

Sanskar :"Relax i am with you ,nothing will happen to you.. He is still waiting outside the door,maybe everyone is sleeping still...Let go inside now"

P.S:  That it for now.. If you liked it do let me know through your valuable feedbacks and votes.. I treasure them all.. 

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Nita