SWARAGINI- Unwanted Destiny
DEVASTATED!!!

She walks lifeless remembering her life, everything seems to an end to her. She walks with no destination. This is the first time she felt to laugh at her state for fooling herself with the four letters emotion called LOVE. She crosses all her limits and values just for getting her LOVe and see where it leads her. Today she understands that whatever people say is correct 'Jab ishq ki inteha hojati hai toh bewafai aam hojati hai' It was love who make her evil it was love who again make her good and now it was the same love who is the reason of her vulnerable state. Is this what she deserves?? She thought as the sound of water hits her eardrums and a cool breeze touched her face doing nothing. She was here again at the same place where it begins, the same place where she pushed her sister to die. The same place where she crossed all her values and turned into a person she never wished. Fresh tears rolled down her eyes as she felt her heart being demolished under a stone. Needles prick her throat and a sob escaped her as she collapsed on her knees facing the bridge.

"Whyyyyyyy?????", she screamed in her top voice as she covers her face with her palm and cried. " humne toh sirf pyar manga tha apse laksh....sirf pyaar..... Humne apni har had par krdi sirf apke lie.... Apne baba ki izzat.... Apni dadi maa k sanskar sab kuch chordia.... Sab kuch...... Sirf apke lie laksh..... Sirf apke lie.... Or apne? Apne hamein hi maardala laksh..... Maaardia apne hamein..... Margai Ragini...... Laksh.....Margai", she screamed her heart out looking up in the sky. A gut wrenching sob escaped as she cries hitting her fist on ground continuously breaking her bangles hurting her wrist. She looked at herself still adorned her in bridal lehenga. The smile which was making her feeling the most happiest bride is no longer seen on her face. Her eyes were swollen while the kohl and mascara was smudged around her eyes. Her nose and cheeks were tinted red, her lipstisck was smeared around and the vermillion was spread on her forhead. Her state was devasted. She was looking dead yet alive. The lehenga dusted the ground as she stands and rashly throws out the jewellery in water which she was wearing, her wrist was bleeding but, it doesn't hurt as much as her heart does now.

"You killed me today laksh. You killed me. Not only you but, my sister killed me too. I loved you both with all my heart but, you both played and break it. Now, there is no use of me being alive. No laksh. No ragini. No swara. No swaragini", she stood determined as she uttered looking at the sky," I am sorry maa, baba, dadi. But, your laado is a looser", she utters as tears leaked her eyes. She closed her eyes inhaling a breath and spread her arms ready to embrace death. Her past flashed infront of her and she smiled painfully," I am coming janki maa". She take a step forward when she felt a hard push at something making her shocked.

Her eyes went wide as her orbs met the feiry ones, she instantly lower down her gaze seeing the burning gaze while tears leaked her eyes. She didn't expected him.

"I expected something like this from you", he told gritting his teeth. "Afterall, whatever happened the solely reason is only you na", he utters while she shut her eyes tightly, he gripped her shoulder tight while she winced.

"Sans...Kar", she called his name and he left her arm fuming. He pinched the bridge of his nose as he tried to control his emotions. He come here to cry his heart out but, instead he saw her ready to jump. He knows her love for laksh is beyond everything and he didn't even get shocked seeing her ready  to die. But, His blood boiled seeing her like this, is she the same strong ragini who stood against all just for her love? No, this girl is broken and vulnerable.

"Who are you?", He asked looking at her while she look up and meet his gaze. "Is ending your live end the pain? Aren't you dead already?", He asked with pain in his voice as he turns his face away while tear leaked her eyes. "Oh, so you are dying because you think whatever they did was correct, right?", he asked again. "We are bad, aren't we? So, you and me deserves to die? Right?", he asked again holding her shoulder with blood shot eyes while she looked at him, his face was pale with no color, his eyes flashed hurt, betrayal and emptiness. His face was red as he was trying hard to control his emotions while his sherwani buttons were torn just like his heart. His state is exactly like her DEVASTATED.

"Ok, ragini. Come we'll die", he states pulling her towards himself and facing the bridge," Yes, its right.  We should die after all they are the only one for whom we were living our life. How can ragini stay alive when laksh leave her? How can sanskar stay alive after swara leave her? Aren't they the only one who was making us alive. So, as they left now we don't deserve to live", he shouts as tears streamed down his eyes helplessly. "Come ragini let's die and end all this. Let them win, let them think that whatever they did was right. Let them see us as a coward. Let them live their live with each other happily", sanskar utters as ragini tried to release his hold as sanskar was ready to jump.

"Sanskaaar", ragini shouts as she pushed him and tears rolled down her eyes. "What are you doing?", she asked as she looked at him hurt. His word hurted as much as it hurted him to say. "The same thing you want to do", he utters gazing her while she lower her eyelashes. "Not you", she utters as she shuts her eyes tightly clutching the lehenga.

"Why? Did only you get back stabbed by your love?", he asked with teary eyes painfully as he gaze at her while ragini opens her eyes and looked at him with tears flowing. She shook her head in a No as she cries covering her face. "Why did they do that sanskar? Why?", she asked stammering in between her cries. She removes her palm and looked at his vulnerable state. He was biting his lips to prevent himself from crying, his hands were turned into a fist while tears flows from his eyes.

"Sans....", she was about to call his name forwading her palm when he fell on his knees crying screaming,"Ahhhhhhhhhhhh", he screamed on his top voice making her flinch. "Why did she do this? Whyyyyy????? I was ready to leave her. I was ready to leave her for laksh, then whyyyyyyy?????", he shouts in anguish while hitting his fist on his forehead continuously while ragini covered her mouth seeing him.

"I know that whatever i did was bad but, do i deserve this? I would be happy if she leaves me that time and didn't faked her love to me but, she played with me. She played with my feelings", he utters as he wipes his tears and joined his both hands resting his head on his joined hands. "It was the same place from where i saved her and the same place where i first felt something for her other than guilt", he uttered as he look at the bridge. He closed his eyes remembering her, and open his eyes to look at ragini who was standing numb.

"Why it happened with me? All i needed was love na then why? First, kavita leave me and make me someone i never wanted to be then she comes as a light which makes me fall harder for her and then again she pushed me in the dept of darkness where is no trace of light. Kavita broked me but, she shattered my soul", he uttered painfully as a sob escapes his mouth. "Swaraaaaaaaa", he shouts her name as he hits his fist on ground continuously hurting his knuckles as his chest explode with unbearable pain. A sob escapes his mouth as he leans his forhead on the ground hitting his knuckles continuing crying. Ragini couldn't hold onto herself seeing him and also fell on her knees sobbing. Both were hurt and broken. All they needed was a shoulder to lean on.

"Is this karma sanskar?", she asked in a meek voice as they both continued crying lifelessly sitting on ground. He raised his head from the ground and looked at her with pain expressions, " i.dont.know", he whispers as he closed his eyes remembering their words.

"I was changed sanskar", she brokenly utters looking at him while he gulps back his tear looking at her and nodded,"i know". "Then why?", she asked him painfully while he bites his lips looking down," i am sorry", he utters as he keeps a fist inside his mouth.

"You know why i fall for her?", he asked as he takes out a ss named gold pendant and gazed at it. "I thought she is the most selfless and pure person i have ever met who always keep others before her ownself", he uttered as his tear falled on the pendant which he fisted in his hand tightly, " she was ready to forgive her own sister who even pushed her to kill her. I always wonder what good i have did to deserved her until today..... Today..... she not only broke me but, make me realize that how fool of a person i was to be spellbound by her innocence", his eyes turned red as he hurts his hand while clutching the pendant. He throws the pendant and closed his eyes tightly, "She snatched everything..... everything", he uttered as he slapped his face continuously," you are a fool sanskar maheshwari...... you are a fool", he screamed slapping his face while ragini looked at him shocked and hurt,"Sanskar", she screamed his name as she crawled towards him stopping holding his hand.

"I am sorry sanskar....hamein maaf krdijiye..... you tried to stop me..... you tried to make me realize my mistake but, i was too blind by my love for laksh that i even tried to accuse you and hurted you... it's all my mistakes due to which you are suffering. Only if i had not stoop so low then this wouldn't have been happened.... i wouldn't have been shattered.... you would not have been shattered..... it's all my deeds sanskar.... all my deeds", she screamed pulling her hairs and crying while sanskar shakes his head while hot tears rolled down his cheeks, he holds her hand and nodded no.

"No! It was ME! It was me who dragged you into this. It was me ragini. It was me who come for revenge and used you. It was my deede which are making me suffer now. Only if i would have known the truth behind kavita this wouldn't have been happened. You and I would not be like this. Never. You turned against your own sister because of my brainwashing, you even lost your own maasi because of kavita for which i am responsible too.... now you lost laksh too because of me", he uttered painfully joining his hand while ragini cried more, "But, you changed and tried to make me too. I hurted each and everyone sanskar for my selfish love. Its all because of me. That's why i want to die sanskar. Please kill me. Please", she says as she balanced herself by keeping her hands on ground and cried looking down.

"Ragini", he called her name softly which makes her look up. "I was guilty and so as you. We realized our mistakes ragini and also corrected them. I do that by saving swara and you did that by helping swara", he utters as he wipes her tears whick makes her looked at him startled.

"We are going to be broken always but, we shouldn't loose ourselves. There are still who cares.", he utters as tears leaked his eyes making ragini smirk painfully as she moves her palm and held his tear on her finger tip," the one who wipes others tears shouldn't cry himself", she utters while sanskar looked at her and then at the tear.

He couldn't hold himself anymore more as he clutched her shoulders and bursts into a bitter cry," It's paining ragini. It's paining alot. I....i am loosing my sanity....i....i am dying..... i am dying ragini.......i want to die....... it's unbearable..... its hurting..... i can't take it.....kill me..... kill me please.....", he utters in between hiccups because of crying. Ragini state was similar to him," i want to die too sanskar..... i want to die too", she utters clutching his sherwani back. Both cried for a long time giving each other's shoulder and pouring their emotions. No one could understand them better then each other who faced the same fate by the same person they immensely love. Both of their cries subsided after sometime and they moves apart. Their knees were aching badly due to the long sitting on ground but, it wasn't hurting as much as their heart. Both looked at each other painfully as they moves a little and wipes their face.

"Shall we die?", she asked in a low voice while he gazed at her for a minute," and let them win?", he whispers after a minute. Both looked at each other while sanskar eyes land on her forhead and he felt his entire mind numb and heartbeat stopped. In all this chaos he forgets that She is HIS WIFE now.... his eyes turned teary again which he blinks back before ragini could seen it.

"I wished i didn't changed", she whispers as she now sits hugging her knees with moisty eyes facing the river. "I wish too", he whispers sitting like her facing the river. Both of them stared at the flowing river while cool breeze touched their face doing nothing. The flowing water reminds them of their past which flows in front of their eyes. Their eyes was swollen and puffy and their state was unstable and broken yet, they sit calmly silently giving each other a support to convey their emotions. He took out his handkerchief which is in his sherwani pocket luckily and forward it still looking at the front. Ragini looked at him and then at his hand, he moves his hand and holds her palm indicating the wound which happened because of the broken bangles. Ragini felt her heart heavy and her eyes moistened, he wasn't looking at her but she was aware of his state too. She takes the handkerchief and silently wrapped around her wrist. Both stayed silent until the sky turned into orange and red hue and then embracing darkness all around resembling their lives. Both didn't know what their destiny had stored for them next. Both didn't know what to do next. The events and words were ringing in their ears making their state worse but, no one dared to cry with voice as they were crying silently. Because they know that now if they both broke down then they'll not be able to keep themselves alive anymore.

Sometimes silence speaks more than words..... sometimes eyes covey your emotions more than your words.....sometimes your silent gesture speaks your feelings...... sometimes all you need is a comfortable silence ......

To be continued.......

Eid Mubarak Everyone😍❤ Firstly, Thank You Soo Much for supporting this story because i was literally scared for this one for the plot. Secondly, here is the short update as per my words.... i know you all wanted ragsan revenge and want them together trust me it'll happen soon but, first they'll mend themselves and will make a good bond then you'll see the real story starts with twist and turns..... I hope i showed you their emotions well while writing todays chappy bcz i wrote it in a hurry as i was busy with stufss and things...... i know the update was short but story demands...... next one will be long one pakka..... now I'll update after eid 😋 as I'll be busy with feasts.....and once again thank you soo much for loving this story.....once again.....i hope i dont disappoint you ever..... and yes ragsan are married but sanskar didn't make her wear the mangalsutra yet..... no side kicks in todays chappy 😂

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