My eyes were burning and started drying out as I tried to concentrate as well as I could on the road. Riley hadn't said a single word to me since I got her in the car. Her silent presence wasn't helping my high at all.

I was completely messed up beyond recognition and it still wasn't enough to relieve the tension between us.

Driving.

We were driving to—where were we going?

I was the one behind the wheel and had no clue where we were even headed.

The two of us needed to go somewhere alone, without everyone else interfering. I thought about jumping on the highway and driving Riley back to Indiana with me or somewhere west where no one could find us. Any place where no one else could influence her decision. I would be able to convince her that terminating the pregnancy was the right thing to do for us. 

If she didn't have any other options, she would have to listen to me and get rid of the baby before I ruined it and her.

My eyes blurred out of focus and I was having a hard time staying in the lane. I would never be able to get us very far in my current state. Besides, I didn't have any money in my bank account to pay for the gas it would take to get us there. 

There had to be somewhere else we could go.

I ended up driving to the only local place I could think of that was secluded. It was a small park I had been to a few times when I needed to get away from the band house noise.  There was a quiet spot down off one of the side trails that no one else seemed to know about.

That was exactly where I was going to take her. No one would know to look for her there.

I pulled into the parking lot and shut off the car. Riley gave me a sideways glance and shifted uncomfortably as I pulled my keys from the ignition to pocket them. I exited the car and started walking quickly towards the trail.

The passenger door thudded closed behind me as I hunted around the brush for the etched wood sign that pointed towards the direction of the hidden shelter. Riley's small feet pattered against the pavement behind me as soon as it came into focus. I veered off to the right to where the sign pointed and cut through the grass to the start down the dirt trail.

"Where are we going?" Riley questioned breathlessly.

Her footsteps were still too far behind me and she was moving irritatingly slow. I was going to have to turn around and pick her up to carry her down the trail if she didn't start moving faster.

"Going for a walk. Keep up." I demanded, reluctantly slowing my pace to give her a second to catch up.

"Ezra, please. Let's just go sit somewhere and talk." Riley dug her fingertips into my arm to stop me from moving forward again.

"Riley, that's what I am doing. There is a picnic shelter a little way down where we can talk. No one ever comes down here." I rolled my eyes and shook her off. I began the downward trek over the uneven dirt path to the spot where the shade of the trees started dimming the sunlight.

"Oh." She sounded relieved and started scurrying behind me again.

I stayed about twenty feet ahead of Riley for the rest of the walk to scout out the location. My paranoid head was on a swivel with every noise or broken branch snapping in the trees around us.

Other than the scorching wind kicking up every few seconds and the occasional squirrel running across the grass, there was no sign of life anywhere.

This place was perfect. We were completely alone.

The shelter came into view as I entered the clearing at the trail's end.  I stopped to let Riley's short legs catch up to me again. When I turned around to find out how far back she was, I saw her still near the end of the trail. She was breathing harder than normal when she stepped onto the brown, burnt grass. Her hair was all over the place and her skin was flushed from the sweltering summer heat.

It reminded me of when I had her bent over the bathroom vanity.  Her skin was the same shade of pink as she watched herself in the mirror that day. Riley was always so perfectly herself when she let go of everything.

I had to swallow my tongue to keep it inside my mouth as she sucked in her plump pink lip and locked eyes with me. She didn't break the intense gaze once as she stepped towards me.  Her ass and hips were swaying to the rhythm of my slowed-down heartbeat.  I could hear her song in my head every time she moved closer.

Fuck, she had no idea how much I wanted her right now.

As soon as she reached my side, I snatched her hand and pulled her behind me towards the shelter. I looked around a few more times to ensure the coast was clear before heading straight to the small bathroom that was attached to the structure.

"What are you doing?" Riley asked in a shaking voice.

I pushed the bathroom door open and dragged her inside behind me. As soon as the door was closed, I locked the little slide lock so no one else could get in. Chances are no one would even try, but it was also to make sure it was harder for her to leave too.

I spun on Riley and looked down. She was backing away from me like I was frightening her. She was always trying to get away from me. Running away from this was never going to be an option for either one of us.

I placed my hand on the lower part of her stomach, where my baby was growing inside her.  It was the first time I had touched her in that spot since I found out she was pregnant.

Touching her there left me with a strange, uneasy feeling that I wasn't prepared for.

My hair stood up on end and my whole body started tingling the moment I ran my thumb across the spot between her belly button and the top of her shorts.  It was like there was an electric current flowing directly into my fingertips.  I swear I could already feel it pulsing inside her, growing strong.

How could I already feel so connected to something that I didn't want in the first place? 

But Aiden wanted her to keep the baby, even if it wasn't his.  He didn't care who the thing belonged to as long as it nudged her closer to him. He wanted me out of the picture so she would have a reason to rely on him for the rest of their lives.

Possessive, protective rage overwhelmed my thoughts as I stared down at the spot.

They both were mine—not Aiden's.

Mine.

I walked Riley backwards until she was boxed in between my arms and the wall. My boxers tightened around me as I leaned down into her. My head was swimming as I drank in the feel of her warmth against me.  

"Tell me you love me," I demanded.

"Wait. What?" Her eyes opened wide with shock.

Riley hesitated to answer. Why did she hesitate?

"Fucking say it, Riley," I screamed down at her.

"I can't." She shook her head at me and ducked under my arm to go to the door to unlock it.

She didn't love me and wasn't even willing to lie to pacify me for a few seconds.

No one could ever fucking love me. I wasn't normal. I was a piece of shit waste of space with nothing to offer. So, why did she even come here with me if she didn't want me?

Why did she enjoy hurting me so much?

I grabbed her to stop her from leaving and pushed her back against the wall.  I forced my lips against hers and shoved my tongue into her mouth. She started feverishly kissing me back and didn't try to push me away.

She may not love me, but part of her still wanted what I could give her.

I violently tugged at her shorts and unfastened them. I slid my hand inside her panties and rubbed her needy little clit roughly. Riley was soaking for me already.  The spot between her thighs grew wetter each time I worked my fingers faster and faster, playing her like only I knew how. Her hips pressed into my hand, begging me for more.

Her perfect little pussy still belonged to me. I owned it and every inch of her body. I was going to give her a reminder of what I could do to her—a reminder of why she would never be able to leave me.

It was the same reason I could never leave her alone.  It was a sick desire, but I was her addiction just as much as she was mine. 

"What are you doing?" She pulled away from me and panted. I took a half step back to rip her shorts and panties off her hips.   I pulled them down off her legs and threw them off to the side.

"Shut up," I yelled at her as I struggled to unbutton my pants before I exploded in them. My hard cock jumped out between us, moving on its own to brush against her stomach. 

It was desperate to be inside her again.

I dug my fingers into Riley's bare ass cheeks and squeezed. I pulled her against my cock and picked her up with my fingers buried in her delicate skin. I spread her apart in my hands before slamming her down on the edge of the cool ceramic sink.

"Do you want this?" I growled as I shoved her legs open wider and lined my ring up at her opening for her to take me.

She nodded without a second of hesitation.

Riley braced herself right as I drove myself deep inside of her. As soon as my hips were flush against the inside of her thighs, my body shivered in pure ecstasy. Every nerve inside me sprung to life. I pulled out completely and slammed over and over into her again.

Riley clenched down hard around me and tried to squeeze her legs to get me to slow down. I pushed her legs open wider and cupped her ass with one hand to pull her forward, wanting to rip her apart. Her hands were clutching the sink to hold on.

They should have been wrapped around me instead.

Why wasn't she touching me?

I placed my hand on her neck and squeezed to make her look at me. She slowly raised her eyes and held mine. Her eyes were staring at me with an odd mixture of fear and lust—so cold and warm at the same time. 

I pounded into her as my head circled in and out of consciousness. She held back her usual little whimpers from me. Riley wasn't going to give me what I wanted without a fight. She always had to fight me on everything.

Riley enjoyed watching me suffer.

Why was she doing this to me?

Fuck her.

She was nothing to me anymore. She meant absolutely nothing.

Just another hole begging to be filled.

My head began screaming on the inside at her with every thrust.

"I don't need you."

"I don't need you."

"I don't even need you."

"I don't even fucking need you."

She closed her eyes and her mouth opened, finally letting out a little breathy whine as she started to come apart for me.

"Look at me, Riley," I shouted at her and squeezed her neck tighter. I needed her to look at me. I wanted her to see me.

Her eyes flew open and she looked down to the spot where I possessed her.

"Keep watching Riley. Watch me come inside you." I howled as the bottom of my stomach tightened.

"Ezra." She moaned my name and her insides fluttered excitedly.

Riley wanted to feel it inside her as much as I wanted to make her take it.  She didn't give one fuck about me, but she loved how wrong this whole thing was.

She craved it.

I squeezed her neck and lost control of my movements as I unraveled for her. She tightened, holding me in and trembled while I coated her insides with shot after shot of my cum. Her eyes rolled back into her head as she opened her hips wider and moved against me.  Her smooth skin was glistening with both of our juices.

The devil girl coaxed the last bit out of me and then some. Her eyes flickered up to mine as her embarrassment came rushing back and she came down.

She was so beautiful when she pretended to be innocent.

I released her throat and moved my hand to the back of her head to wrap my fingers in her soft curls. She tucked her head perfectly against my chest in the spot where only she fit.

The ache inside me grew and grew the longer I touched her. Holding her in my arms was going to kill me.

Seeing Riley today was a mistake.

"What am I supposed to do? Please, tell me Riley because I can't do this." I begged her soundlessly for an answer as I pressed my lips against her head.

I was so fucking lost and couldn't find my way out.