My eyes traveled down slowly to look at where I was still buried inside of Riley. Every inch of my skin was coated in her juices. She was warm, wet, slick, and still clenching onto me tightly like she didn't want to let me go.  The mixture of both of us was seeping out onto her thighs. There was a lot more of my cum still swimming inside her; I could feel it everywhere. I wasn't exaggerating when I said I blew the biggest load I had ever had in my life.

Right inside of her like a dumbass.

There were certain situations that happened in your life that show what you are composed of. They were the ones that made or broke you. How well-adjusted people faced those situations were the difference that separated the rest of the world from people more like me.

My body was a mixture of Tabasco sauce and chicken shit, topped with a fuck ton of booze.

Slow reactions, panic, and anger was how my brain responded all at once. There was no stopping it. It all came tumbling forward until I couldn't contain it any longer.

"Fuck. I forgot. You're on birth control, right?" I cursed as I looked down at her.

"No." She shook her head with pure terror on her face.

And there it was, the bad thing that always happened to me.

One of my Uncle Charlie's random life lessons was that you always cover it even when the girl promises she is on the pill. He explained that diseases were also a very real thing too.  I wasn't so much worried about that aspect with Riley, but you never really knew. It was not like there was a sign hanging above someone's head saying whether or not they were clean. No guy wanted to take the risk of screwing the wrong girl and their dick falls off.

I didn't overlook things like this and I was always careful no matter how high or drunk I was. This couldn't be happening.

I pulled out of Riley and the cool air hit the moisture dripping off of me. It was a cruel reminder of what I just did. The room was spinning on me and growing dimmer as each second passed. The walls felt like they were breathing and closing in.

I was still too trashed and ready to flip the fuck out.

I grabbed a pair of my boxers off the floor and pulled them up over my legs. I started racing around the room, trying to think of ways we could fix this. Maybe I had water or something somewhere. We could try to flush it out of her. Or we could use something to suck it out? Like a plunger.

I cringed. 

Not a plunger. That wasn't going to work.

I needed to start using the brain in my head.

Anna's face popped into my head. She would know what to do. I needed to ask her for help. She probably kept something in JD's room in case this happened to her.  I knew there were things girls could do when condoms broke, but for the life of me, I was too fucking drunk to remember what any of them were.

I went towards the door and stopped myself before I pulled it open.

Asking Anna was a horrible plan.

Going to JD's room would be an idiotic move on my part. Knocking on his door and asking him if his girlfriend had anything to siphon my cum out of his little sister was a death wish. 

"Fuck, why are you not on birth control? What the fuck are we going to do?" I tried to rip my hair from my head as I turned around to blame the blonde still frozen, lying naked on my bed. 

Riley had her knees bent and legs wide open. Riley's flushed skin and sinfully curvy body was so sexy. Her completely hairless little pussy was still right out there in the light. It was pleading with me to come back for more. No wonder I couldn't control myself around her and could barely remember my name anytime she was near.

I had to stop myself from jumping on top of her again. We had to think this situation through like adults.  No more dirty thoughts until we could figure this out.

As if she knew what I was thinking, Riley sat up and pulled the blankets over top of her to remove the distraction. It didn't work very well; I still knew exactly what she was hiding under the blanket.

"I don't know, Ezra," Riley whispered softly and looked down at her body to avoid my eyes. "I've never had this happen before. I haven't done this a lot. I have only been with one other guy before."

Did I hear her right?

She had been with one guy before me. I wondered who he was or if I knew him. If I ever found out who he was, I would hunt him down and end him. I hated the thought of any other person seeing her or touching her like I did.

My breath caught in my throat.

It was Aiden. It had to be. That was why they acted so weird around each other. Did she like being with him? What if he was better than me? Was I her second choice since Brynn had gotten to Aiden first tonight?

I tried to shake the dark thoughts away to get my focus back on the real issue at hand. It didn't matter who she was with before me or even why she chose me tonight. Right now, we had bigger problems.

"Why didn't you stop me? You should have said something." I stopped pacing and yelled down at her.  My chest was burning like I was suffocating and my pulse was thundering in my ears. I couldn't connect any of my racing thoughts. They kept spilling out in a nonsensical order.

"Ezra, please be quiet. I don't want anyone to come in here and find us. I didn't realize you didn't have one on. I'm sorry."

Lies, all fucking lies.

Riley knew I wasn't wearing a condom. She should have said something about it and she didn't. The voice inside me was trying to convince me that she did this on purpose. She wanted this to happen.

Why would she do this to me?

I gulped and shrunk back down when I realized I had all the clues and chose to ignore them too. We both played a role in this.

My slow, drunken brain did know what I was doing. Didn't it? 

I knew she felt different and I liked it. I kept going because I wanted to.  Even now, in the mixed, confusing chaos, I wanted to try to do it again. 

I wanted to fill her completely full until it hurt.

Riley was retreating back into herself and looked frightened like I was going to do something to her. It took me a few seconds too long to realize I had walked over in front of her and was towering over her with clenched fists. No wonder she looked so terrified. There was a decent-sized part of me that wanted to break or hit something, but it wasn't going to be her—possibly Aiden, but definitely not Riley.

I slumped down on the bed next to her body. I had to regain some of my senses before something even worse happened.

I pulled Riley's head into my chest and just held her there without giving her the option to pull away. She sunk into me so deep that I didn't know where I ended and she began.

Having Riley so close to me began to quiet the storm clouds in my head. I needed her to keep me here.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make it sound like it was all your fault. I was drinking and wasn't thinking either." I kissed her hair and stroked her back.  The floodgates opened up and she began crying into my skin. 

Seeing her this way fucking killed me too. Her confusion was my confusion and we were both scared. I had never been in this situation either.  We both just handled it in very different ways.

She was a crier and I always lost my shit.

After a few minutes of Riley trying to stifle her little sobs, I guided her body back towards the headboard and climbed under the covers next to her. I was tired and we both could use some rest. It had been a long, insane night—one that was an imperfect nightmare, but one that I also never wanted to forget.

I pulled her bare skin against my body, enjoying the softness and warmth.  Riley's head ended up in the perfect spot on my arm, using it like her pillow.  I rubbed the back of her head and body to soothe her.  It was almost more of a comfort for me to continue touching her than it was for her sake.

"It's late and I am still not sober enough to think. Let's close our eyes for a bit. Once we wake up, we can talk about this some more. It's already happened. A few more hours won't change anything." I whispered through a giant yawn as the tension drifted out of my body.

I didn't know if it was the truth or not.  I had no idea what kind of timeframe we were looking at before we ran out of viable options. I was attempting to try to make her feel better about it for my own selfish reasons.  Everything I had done and said to her tonight made me feel terrible and I had to make up for it somehow, even if it was by lying to her.

Riley nodded and closed her eyes.  I watched her breathing slow into a deep, steady rhythm. The tiny stressed creases on her face were replaced with an angelic softness as she fell into a deep sleep.  She was so fucking young and innocent.

I wasn't the guy for her, but it didn't matter.

She belonged to me now and I wasn't going to let her go.

I wasn't exactly sure how long I had closed my eyes for.  It felt like they had just shut when Riley began violently tugging and pulling at me. I turned over entirely on my back and started falling back down into sleep again.  It wasn't time to get up yet; I never even got to dream about her.

There was a whooshing sound by my ear and something much too hard for a fluffy thing pelted me in the face.  I raised one eye open slightly and saw Riley's bare breasts in my face, hovering over me with a pillow in her hand. She was about to hit me with it again. 

"What the fuck, Riley?" I grumbled as I wrapped my arms around the looney girl. I pulled her mouth down to mine. Stale morning breath and all, I didn't care.  She would have to deal with it. The devilish blond was going to get it again for waking me up this way.

There was an impatient rapping against the door. Riley pulled away from me. She looked like she just got caught littering in a wildlife preserve. 

"It's Brynn and Aiden" Brynn's annoying ass voice interrupted my peace.

Damnit. 

Of course, Aiden and Brynn would be interrupting us. They just couldn't stay away and let us have a good time.

"Just get dressed and open the door, dumbasses. I saw you two last night." Aiden bellowed from behind the door.